Chapter 14

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Chapter 14
Alexander
I leave to knock on Thea's door and deep down I keep hoping that she can tell me where she is going with all her things, when she opens the door I hasten to ask her the question that burn lips
Me worried: where is she?
Thea: Well who?
Me getting impatient: how who? where is Alex?
Thea: Where do you want her to be? she sleeps right?
Me getting annoyed: How does she sleep? she not in our room
Thea: oh yeah sorry, I forgot, she's in the room you recently had
I thank her and I leave, I hasten to join her, when I enter and I close the door behind me which makes her jump, when she turns around and sees me she lies down again, she mad at me or what?
Me in a firm tone trying to hide my joy at having found him: what are you doing here?
Alex always with his back to me: you can see that I'm sleeping
Me: Are you kidding me?
Alex: …
Me standing in front of her: when I talk to you you answer, what are you doing in this room?
Alex: This is my new room
Me putting my hands in my pocket: who decided so?
Alex: well it's me, from now on this will be my room here, now you can leave, I have to sleep
Me forcing him to stand up: if you forgot, I'll refresh your memory, here it's me who decides, you don't have the right to make a decision without my consent, so I want to meet you in the next 5 mins in our room and it's not a request
Alex: know that I won't set foot in this room, I'm not moving from here, I don't want to disturb Mr and his memories go ahead if you want but I'm not moving
Me a little fun: you should know I always get what I want, I'm leaving but within 5 mins I want to see you in our room
I leave and I leave her there I know she knows very well that it will be wise for her to listen to me I was sitting in an armchair when she enters the room trying to make me notice her displeasure
Alex: what's your problem in the end with me, you don't want me here why do you want me to stay here, what's your problem in the end
Me in a harsh tone: My problem is that Julia has always had both of her parents in the same room so it's not you who are going to change her, and this is the last time you allow yourself to take such a decision in my absence, you have been warned
Alex starting to cry: why do you have to stay in a room where I have no right to touch anything to be free to move around, let me go back to the other room, why do you want to torture me? what did i do to you?
Me: if it's for the dressing room tomorrow it will be emptied, and you can dispose of it as you wish, and if you run out of space you can even put some of my things in a suitcase but, apart from that, you understand that you won't move not from this room
On these words I leave her there and I go to the shower, I wonder how much she can be a rotten kid spoiled in front of me and becomes a mother on whom her child can rest with Julia, her way of leaving an extreme to another will always amaze me
When I come back she was lying on her side of the bed, and her way of sniffling makes me understand that she is still crying, if she is going to cry every time I refuse to give her whims I think crying will do integral part of his life
Unlike yesterday it was only of short duration a few ten minutes later I can't hear her anymore, I think she's sleeping, I turn around trying to fall asleep too
Alex
It's been a few months since Alexender and I got married, he comes home every evening late at night when everyone is already asleep, at first it was a bit complicated for me, feeling his indifference was killing me little by little , but over time I start to get used to it, and day by day I understand that this man does not love me, he just needed me to take care of his daughter, I am not the woman happiest in the world and I'm not the happiest woman either, spending time with Julia gives me every day want to become a mother, to carry life but I also realize every day that it will always be a dream if I stay with this man, you have to make love to be able to hope to get pregnant and for us it's something that ever happened between us, I'm looking forward to our divorce so I can go start my own family
This morning like every morning I put his outfit on the bed, but instead of going to wake up Julia I sit on the bed waiting for him to get out of the shower I plan to have a chat with him, it's the only time i can see my husband
Alexander cleaning his hair: what are you doing here?
Me on the defensive: I point out that this is also my room
Alexander: I don't disagree, but don't you think Julia might be late for school?
Me sighing: today is Saturday, she has no class so I let her sleep some more
Alexender putting his hands on his hip: what do you want then? I have to get dressed can you leave me alone please?
Most of the time I tell myself that I am used to his sarcasm, and his contempt but he is so good at hitting where it hurts that he always hits his target, how can my own husband ask me to get out of our room so he can get dressed?
Me pretending not to be touched: I'm not going to move, if you're going to get dressed you'll have to do it in front of me
Alexender smirking: I'm just saying this for you huh, I just wouldn't like to make you salivate and leave it after so it's up to you
With these words he drops his towel that he has tied around his hip to see me for the first time his whole body, this body that he refuses me, I can't help but stare at you know what , what I dreamed of all these months, what I dreamed of having inside me all this time and which was forbidden to me, for the first time I see it in real life
My throat is drying up, my body is shivering, I am doing so much violence to myself not to throw myself into his arms, never again will I humble myself to ask him what is my right
Alexender: stop looking at him like that, it looks like you have a steak in front of you on fire
Me ashamed: I think I have the right to stare at my husband, maybe I'm wrong?
Alexender: Are you gonna tell me what you want?
Me trying to get my serious back: I'd like to get back to work
Alexender: I don't think you lack anything here, to have this need to work, if you want more money just tell me
Me cutting it off: it's not about the money, I'm tired of sitting in this house doing nothing all day, I need to be busy
Alexender: if you're so bored you can go for a walk, go out and have fun, but you're out of the question for you to go to work
Me trying not to get mad: what's your problem? I'm not asking your permission but I'm informing you, I intend to find a job

Alexender replying: and I inform you that this is not a discussion but an order, I do not think you can take good care of Julia if you have a job so for the moment it is not possible
Me trying to convince her: but let me at least try to show you that I can do both
Alexender cutting me off: it's no, the subject is closed, you can leave
Me: I can't wait until the day I part with you, I'm sick of you
Alexander laughing: already? you have a long way to go
Me: keep pushing me, I might kill you in your sleep someday
He doesn't even answer me, this moron, he doesn't give a damn about me, this guy...