Chapter 30

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Chapter 30
Alex
This weekend is Thea's wedding, it's been a few weeks that we organize their wedding to her and William, she's so stressed about the idea that everyone discovers the pink pole but so far even me who knows that 'she's pregnant doesn't notice her belly it's so flat plus she's in good shape for a pregnant woman I would say
Alexender categorically refuses that she moves in with her fiancé while waiting for marriage, he is old school, for him not to live together without marriage, it makes me laugh so much, people melt everything that married couples already melt, where is the harm that they live together while they are in the middle of preparing for their wedding, the day that I wanted to intervene it almost became a problem between us so I preferred not to interfere in these stories anymore
Speaking of Alexander, he is so sweet and caring with us, he has just returned to work since my blood pressure has stopped so I feel much better suddenly I insisted that he return to work, but he comes home every evening so that we can have dinner with the family, Julia she is very protective, she takes care of me in the absence of her father, she always wants to feel the babies move and asks me all the time when they will be born
With my mother we try to put our differences aside and live together while respecting each other, our relations are much more cordial, we love each other more when we are separated "laugh" in addition she is going to become a grandmother so she knows that 'she had better avoid falling on me at each of our meetings if she wants to rub shoulders with them
FLASHBACK
My mother opening the door for me: so you forgot that you had a mother?
Me entering: I had health problems
My mother surprised: so you're pregnant and you didn't even see fit to tell me?
Me: mom it's because I was very sick, now I'm here
My mother: so you think you've already arrived, huh? boy who is not someone's friend today it's sweet with him you forget your mom who gave birth to you, I hope it will continue like this when he takes out the horns too
Me: you who are my mother, did you wonder what was wrong with your daughter that she disappeared all this time? did you try to hear from me? no, as we say back home in Togo, two people must not be wrong at the same time, if one acts badly the other must not follow him in, you are the eldest of us two, if I 'child I did wrong at least you could have taken the step towards me but no so don't lecture me
My mother: isn't it the children you carry like that, when he speaks to you as you do with me you will see how sweet it is
Me: mom, already stop mixing children who are not yet born with our problems, I hope to be a better mother for them than you have been with me, a child needs sweetness and love, it's because you attack me all the time that I find myself obliged to answer you, why do you also feel obliged to treat me like this, am I responsible for what happened between my father and you? Why do you feel so contempt for me? mom all I asked of you was your love, to feel how much my mother loves me and to be able to tell her everything that was happening in my life, but every time I took the step towards you you always pushed me away
My mother : …
Me: these people I never knew before, these people who have just entered my life, they treat me better than my own mother ever did, this man, his mother, his daughter and his sister makes me feel like they belong to their family but that will never replace the love of my mother who I always missed and who I always miss, mom if it's for treating me like you do, if each of our meetings we must turn into an argument or a settling of scores I prefer to keep my children away from you, I don't want them to rub shoulders with this harmful environment in which I grew up
My mother: so you're planning to deprive me of my grandchildren, right?
Me the way trembling: yes mom, if necessary I am ready to do it
My mother: so you think I don't love you, is that it?
Me: unfortunately that's the impression you give me
My mother: you are my daughter, I carried you for 10 months, I loved you from the first day that I learned of your existence, today you are expecting children and you must understand what I am trying to tell you, I was so excited to have you, to see what was the fulfillment of our to your father and to me, this man I loved him more than anything, it's the first man I knew and he was the last, when you were born you were his spitting image, you had taken nothing from me physically, I believed in his love, I thought I had found the prince charming and that we will live together until death do us part, but great was my surprise when he left me with a child under his arms, a child who every smile, every gesture and gesture reminded me of who was his father
Of course I love you but it was hard to see you every day, it was hard to see the face of betrayal every day, but despite everything I did everything so that you never lacked anything, I worked hard, I cleaned up people's shit to raise you and you tell me today that I make you feel like I don't love you, I gave you all my youth, I love you. I gave everything I could and if I've always been hard on you it's because you avoid making the same mistake as me
You don't know how disappointed I was to see that you fell in love with a white man, you let a white man manipulate you, I did my best to make him leave you, he came to me see before your wedding, I demanded a lot of things from him to leave you but he didn't, when you came back some time after the wedding I prayed hard that you would never go back with him but you went back with him until you got pregnant, let me tell you that you can still leave him if he treats you badly marriage is not forced especially when it's a white man
Me kneeling in front of her: but mum can't you see how happy I am? this man I could not have found better than him, I love him more than anything in the world
My mother: are you sure that he loves you?
Me: yes mom he really loves me and shows it to me all the time
My mother: I really hope for you that you are right, know that I am not against you and I never have been, all I want is your good
Me laying my head on her thighs: yes mom I know
She strokes my head until I lift my head
Me: mom, I've decided to accept dad's inheritance, I won't participate in the management of the company but, you and I will sit on the board of directors, you will have 50 percent of my shares and everything what he has me light as well
I found a house in the same neighborhood as me, we'll go visit if you like it, we'll buy it so that we're closer
My mother: you know that your husband gave me this house
Me smiling: yes he told me, but the new house is closer and we will be able to see each other more often, in addition your grandchildren will soon be born, it will allow you to be closer to them and keep them for a few time
My mother: you are right
END OF FLASHBACK
Me and my mom are neighbors now, she is trying to get along better with my new family even though she still can't trust my husband fully, since to her all these white people are the same, I think my dad traumatized him "laugh"