Chapter 16

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Chapter 16
Alex
This evening like all the others, he didn't come home for dinner, when we finish dinner, I put Julia in her bed and I go back to my room to take a shower and change, when I'm done I swap my dress city for a babydoll and I get into my bed it's not worth waiting for him he always comes home when he wants without even calling so he can do what he wants that's his problem, I know I won't get anything good from this fool
I find myself in this large and cold bed without being able to sleep, what is the use of having a King size bed if it is to spend most of your nights alone, what is the use of being married if you can't feel the warmth of the loved one nor the love of the loved one, what's the use of having a man in your life if it's to live a vacuum of loneliness like a bachelor? even single people can have fun without constraint, I have the impression of finding myself a prisoner in a relationship in which no one wants me, I feel trapped and I have the impression of never finding the exit from never be able to get out of it, whatever i do i can't get out of it unless my guru decides otherwise
By dint of not being able to sleep I decide to take a book that I am reading at the moment which is called THE NIGHT THAT CHANGED MY VE and to read a few pages, maybe I will be able to find sleep like that, I had the nose plunge into my book the mind elsewhere when I hear the sound of the door opening, when I turn around it was him, but to see his gait I have the impression that he has a little too much drunk, besides being a bad husband he is now drinking, lord what have I done to deserve this life? have I been so bad in my past lives to deserve such punishment? it's not possible, I get up in spite of myself to help him otherwise he might end up on the floor and wake up the whole house, even if deep down I would like to see him hit his face on the ground
I help him to settle on the bed even if with this imposing stature it was a little difficult to get to the bed we manage there without falling, he drops on the bed, I take off his shoes and I put his feet on the bed I sit astride him to be able to take off his shirt, I try to open the buttons of his shirt but he was interested in something else, to drop the straps of my dress, he pull and kiss me on the neck
Me can't stop laughing: stop it, we'll be heard, you tickle me
Alexander: you are so beautiful you know? did I ever tell you that?
Me: I don't know anymore
Of course I remember he told me and that day we kissed as deliciously as possible
Alexender: well I tell you then you are one of the most beautiful women I have ever been allowed to see
Me: thank you, now let me take your shirt off and you can sleep
Alexander: How about I take your dress off too?
Me: no, it's not for me to change but rather you
Alexender kissing my neck: I want so much to be able to see these beautiful breasts without this fabric covering them, you smell so good
I would have liked so much that he told me everything being sober, I would not like him to wake up tomorrow and put everything on the account of alcohol I do not want to give myself to him in these conditions, so s he wants to keep his shirt free for him, I'm going to go to sleep.
It's without counting on his help, he holds me back when I try to get up and this time he pauses his lips on mine which totally softens me, and at the same time my reason pushes me to answer this kiss, to enjoy the present moment before everything stops
I waited for this kiss for so long, during all these months I dreamed so much of losing myself in his arms, I desired these caresses so much and all that I dreamed is nothing compared to reality, it drops the right straps of my dress he kisses me in the neck and goes down to the birth of my breasts, he cups the right breast in his hands before locking them between his cold lips and wetting which gives me goosebumps and makes me sigh
I have the impression that my whole body was created to receive his caresses, to shiver at each contact of his hands on my body, I try to open the buttons in vain, I so want to touch his pecs as firm as they are soft, finally I will be able to touch this body which was forbidden to me
These buttons that are hard to open, I pop them by pulling on the shirt, I couldn't help it, until I realize I find myself under him , I hasten to open the buttons of his pants and I open the zipper so that I can release Goliath, he was erect like a soldier in front of his superior, he was so hot and hard, the simple fact of touching him under the caresses of my husband gives me my first orgasm
Oh lord, it's so good, he takes off my nightgown completely, then my underpants follow him to the ground, he takes my lips back between his, I don't want to wait anymore, I want to feel him in me now, I waited too long so that when the time comes he tries to make me waste my time again
Alexander stopping: give me time to prepare you to receive me
Me shaking my head: I'm ready my love, it's been several months I'm ready to receive you, I don't want to wait another minute, I might go crazy, please go ahead make love to me
He does not need to be asked, he gives me the impression of having had this desire as much as me, when he enters me I lose my balance despite the fact that I am lying down, I am destabilized, it's not the first time for me to make love, but it's the first time for me to be invaded by so much emotion at the same time, I trembled under this man as if I had just been connected to an electric wire , what is happening right now is more than magical, words are not strong enough to describe what I am going through right now
After several go back and several orgasms later he ends up joining me in the paradise of pleasure, he serves me against him with all the force possible before whispering to me in the oriel
Alexander: I love you so much
Me a little surprised: eeuuhhh…I love you too
We stay there in each other's arms, when we come to our senses, we start again and again, we spend all night making love, sometimes we create an ideal in our head, and we spend our time dreaming about it but sometimes, not all the time when we manage to realize this dream we realize that it represents nothing compared to reality, it's so much better to live certain things in real life...
When I wake up this morning, I was no longer in my husband's arms, I look for him in bed without finding him, I get up and look for the little kimono that served as an overcoat for my nightgown that I put on but when i get closer to the dressing room i hear the water gushing out, he hasn't leaked he is just taking a shower, i rush to the kitchen to get a meal tray for him
When I come back to the room he was already out of the shower
Alexander: The noise I was making woke you up?
Me setting the tray on the coffee table: no sweetheart, I thought I was dreaming so I had to wake up to make sure it was real
I walk up to him and place a kiss on his lips but he doesn't respond to my kiss, he was so cold to me this morning, he's not the man I spent the night with
Alexander: you should sit down
Me worried: what's wrong, you're a little weird this morning
Alexender: I'm so sorry for what happened between us yesterday, it should never have happened
Me annoyed: sorry?
Alexender: We shouldn't have slept together, I'm so sorry
Me getting out of bed: no but are you serious? Who says I regret what happened? I loved giving myself to you, making love to you, don't you realize that I love you and loved giving myself to you?
Alexender: That's the problem, I don't have the same feelings as you, and I feel like I took advantage of you.
Me trying not to cry: you didn't take advantage of me, you didn't force me I did it because I felt like it and it's a normal truck that should happen between a man and his woman
Alexender putting the towel he had in his hand on the chair: I hope you're on the pill
I can't stop myself from letting those tears roll down my eyes why is he doing this to me? why this sudden change of decision? Who does he think I'm the despairing girl he can use and drop as he pleases? I was so pissed off that I don't know when I'm giving him that slap
The noise you touch between my hand and his right cheek makes me wince which makes me take two steps back but I don't lose my temper, I open the knots of my kimono, I open it and I let it fall to the ground
Me talking to him looking him straight in the eye: look at me
He looks away to the side
Me trying not to yell at him: look at me I say, what don't I have? what makes you so disgusted about me and you have to get drunk to look at me or want me?
Alexander: …
Me trying my best to control my anger: am I not beautiful enough for you, am I not good enough to deserve your attention and your love? why this indifference towards me? why treat me like an object devoid of feeling? Don't you realize how much your contempt and indifference are killing me slowly? Alexender I tried, I tried to bear this situation, I tried to love for both of us, I even tried to resign myself and get used to the situation but I can't take it anymore, this love consumes me like a forest fire and if I don't move away from you I risk becoming a completely different person, a person that I don't want to become and that you don't want to discover… Alexender j can't take it anymore I want a divorce!