Chapter 22

Chapter 22
Alex
He violently sticks his lips against mine, I kill him but that doesn't stop him, he pushes his kisses even further, I push him but he doesn't move one iota, he lifts my dress up to the waist and begins by stroking my thighs to my buttocks
Me trying to speak: let me go
Pushing him back increases the violence of his actions even more, he picks me up and throws me on the bed, a few minutes later my dress hits the ground
Alexander: you're going to drive me crazy
He kisses me in the neck before going down to my chest without stopping his caresses
Me: Alexander leave me, stop what you are doing, I don't agree, if you continue it will be rape
My sentence makes him stop suddenly, and get up from the bed, I curl up on top of myself on the bed looking at him standing in front of me, running my hand through his hair
Me: you're proud of yourself, aren't you? what did you want to show me? that you were wilder than an animal? you think I'm an object you can use and throw away as you please?
I take my dress that I put on, I pick up my shoes on the floor and I walk towards the door but he runs to hold me back
Alexender taking me by the arms: please wait
Me: it's getting late I have to go home please let go
Alexender: I'm so sorry, seeing you with this man drove me crazy, I couldn't control myself
Me: I don't want to hear anything let me go
Alexender: please stay, I can't let you go home at this time, stay tomorrow morning I'll take you home
Me withdrawing from his grip: let go of me you hurt me there, I don't want to spend the night next to you you scare me
I don't know why but I suddenly burst into tears, I don't know why I start crying hot tears like that, but he comes to take me in his arms until I calm down
Me sniffling: leave me, I'm not leaving but I don't want you next to me
Alexander: Understood but please don't cry anymore, I can sleep in the chair
I resign myself then and I follow him to the bed I sit down and he leaves to settle in the armchair, he remains seated there, and looks at me from afar, I lie down there, I don't know when sleep overwhelms me...
When I wake up I was covered and he was still sitting in the chair still staring at me
Me: haven't you slept?
Alexander: no I couldn't sleep a wink all night
Me why ? you're not sleepy ?
Alexender: I behaved like a jerk last night, I really want to apologize for that, I know nothing can excuse my behavior, but I don't know how I felt when I saw you in that restaurant , hands in hands with this guy, they looked like lovers
I burst out laughing in spite of myself, it's you, you don't want me but it's you, it bothers me to see me with someone else, this man really doesn't know what he wants in life
Alexender: What's funny about what I just said?
Me: nothing at all, just that you're on the wrong track, and even if we wanted to date him and me, there was nothing you could have done to stop us
Alexender: stop provoking me, what don't you understand about the fact that you are my wife and no man has the right to lay eyes or his dirty hands on you?
Me laughing: you are so wrong, the day I decided to leave you I became a free woman so I can date whoever I want
Alexender: Are you forgetting that we're still legally married?
Me: it's just a piece of paper
Alexender: a piece of paper that binds you to me, so I demand that you respect me, since I will never be charmed by another woman
Me: It's normal, since your late wife doesn't make room for any other woman in your life.
Alexander: …
Me: I have to leave, I have to leave before people wake up, I don't want to have to explain why I'm here
Alexender: this is your house you don't have to explain to anyone
Me laughing: you're really funny, it's more my place here anyway it never was, and I don't want to confuse Julia, she might think we're back together then that is not the case
Alexander: What's stopping you from coming home to your husband?
Me getting up: lots of things, you get up or I call a cab
He gets up and follows me, but I'm not very lucky I find Thea, who was coming out of the kitchen at the end of the stairs.
Me: hello darling
Thea surprisingly: are you talking to me?
Me a little surprised: did I do something wrong?
Thea: no it's me, I was stupid to think that you and I were friends, you left this house without telling me and the worst despite all my attempts to get in touch with you you copiously ignored
Me: I'm so sorry, I hadn't planned to leave and I didn't want to talk to anyone, I wanted to stay in my corner to heal myself
Thea: I was friends with you before you started dating my brother, whatever problems you have in your relationship shouldn't impact our bond, right is friendship?
Me very sorry: you're right, I didn't make sense of things, I'm really sorry, I'll call you so we can talk calmly, now I have to leave before the others wake up
Thea in a mocking tone: so you pretend to be separated but continue spending your nights together
Alexander in a harsh tone: THEA…
Thea: ooorhhh leave me, is that wrong?
Me laughing: of course it's wrong I'll explain everything to you later
Alexender drops me at my house, and before letting me get off he kisses me like nothing ever happened between us, he behaved like we were a conventional couple, and that he and I weren't. never broke up, like he never treated me like shit, what is this bipolar behavior? he thinks i'm going to wipe it all out its just like that because sir decided it, i have to forget everything that happened without even knowing what he really thinks or what he feels and thinks of our future, of course I like the way he behaved, of course I'm happy to see my husband jealous when he sees me with someone else, his shows that he still cares about me despite everything , of course I dream of going back with my husband but not in this way, I must have proof that he wants to change and is ready to invest in this relationship
Alexander
I'm the first to be amazed by my reactions I've never denied the fact that she attracted this little one to me but to be jealous seeing her with another and to be so violent it's really absurd, this is not in my habits, how is that possible, besides I don't know what pushed me to kiss her right away when I dropped her off at her house, I think it's lack sleep that plays me so much on me
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When I get out of the shower she was sitting on the bed asking me to sit next to her on the bed, which I do without objection
Me surprised: but what are you doing here?