Chapter 15

AUTHOR :
Chapter 15
Alexander:
Today we decided to have lunch William and I in a restaurant in the square, it's been a while since we spent time between us, and I miss it
There were two women who tried to get noticed by us but these are things that never interested me, I won't say never since before I got married I always had a different girl to sleep with, but when I met my wife she made me want to stop this life, and devote myself only to her, of course she is no longer here today but I have another woman in my life I can be the worst man in her eyes, but whatever my actions towards her I will never cheat on her and I hope that she will have this same loyalty towards me since deception is the only thing in the world that I cannot forgive, I can never forgive that another man puts his hands on a woman who is mine, already seeing another man dragging his eyes on her a little too long irritates me, I would not even like to imagine the fact that she is in the arms of 'another one
I'm sure William will be happy to oblige these young ladies
Me speaking to him: I think there are two young lady at the other end of the room who would like to get to know you
William casually: I saw, they don't interest me
Me a little surprised: what?
William replying: they don't interest me
Me: who is it?
William still casually: who?
Me smiling: who's that girl?
William pretending not to understand: which girl?
Me laughing: who is this girl who is calming you down? don't play smart
William trying to change the subject: there is no girl, you who say you don't love your wife why don't you go explore another horizon?
Me: you know very well that it would never cross my mind to do such a thing, you know well how much I am a stickler for fidelity in a couple
William: you're not going to tell me that's just for that, rather say that you love her and that she already serves you what you need at home
Me laughing: we still haven't consummated our marriage
William who almost swallowed his meal wrong: no it's a joke
Me? Not at all
William getting serious: why are you doing this?
Me smiling: who says it's from me and not from her?
William: I got to know you, and I know it can only come from you, it's obvious that she's really in love with you so I don't think she can deny herself to the man loves her all these months, how do you sleep next to her without touching her?
Me running my hands through my hair: it's simple we sleep my old room
William nearly falling off his chair: don't tell me you moved him into the room you shared with Eleanor
Me: yes
William: but why are you doing this
Me: well that's the best way to make sure nothing ever happens between us
William: no I mean why are you doing all this, why don't you want to let go of the past?
I take a deep breath before I start: I feel like if I stop myself from being happy it won't let me feel guilty for her death, I promised to take care of her, do everything to cure her of this evil and I feel like I failed and let her go, to be happy on top of that would be a double betrayal
William: no but what are you talking about? I have never seen someone devoted to the person they love as much as you did to them
Me: no I haven't done enough, I have to keep her in my life at all costs I don't want to end up forgetting her
William: what the hell are you talking about? you will never be able to forget her she gave you a daughter, she lives in this little one how will you be able to forget her with Julia in your life?
Me: you can't understand
William: So far you've let this girl fall head over heels in love with you and drag her down the drain with you, do you think that's right for her?
Me: No but I'll compensate her in the end
William: Do you think she agreed to all this for money? why do you want to be so blind my brother?
Me: but that's all I have to offer him
William: let her go if you know you can't bring her anything
Me: but it's impossible, I will never be able to find someone who can take care of Julia as well as she does, besides I never made her believe that I would give her my love, she knew in what was she getting into
William: are you serious? kissing her and asking her a few days later what does that do? whatever you say, your deeds have kindled a little hope in his heart, what are you talking about brother? do you think about her? 10 years is not 10 days, don't you think she also thinks about carrying life, having her own family and having her own children?
Me: It's not like she's old, she's very young, and she can start a family when we part ways
William: I find you have a selfishness that I've never detected in you, either it's really for your daughter you're doing this or it's because you love her and you don't want to let her go but for you to tell the truth, I'm leaning more towards the second proposal, but to be clear with you if one day you push her to the limit and she decides to leave, I will help her myself to obtain this divorce, she is the one who gives the most in this relationship and in addition to not receiving anything, it is she who suffers the most, either you decide to pull yourself together and live your love, or either you get used to the idea that you will lose her
Me a little annoyed: she will never leave
William: Don't be so confident, there's only one step that separates love and hate, and this woman that you have decided to neglect, she is a super beautiful woman who does not leave men indifferent from outside
Me cutting it off: are you one of them?
William offended: no but are you crazy? I'm telling you all this so that you don't have to regret your actions when it's too late, it turns more than one head outside, there are more than one who would like to have it and who can be very persuasive, if she realizes that she can't get anything except your contempt or your indifference she will leave, I hope you will keep her in mind
Me: I'd rather we change the subject
William: I think we should go back
He tries to show me his displeasure with the situation but even though he's right that it's selfish and all I'm not ready to let my wife go yet and I've never encouraged her to love me I was the worst spouse that could exist in the world just to disgust her, she knows full well what she was getting into, I never sold her a dream, I never made her believe that I wanted to live a real life as a couple or to marry her for love, if she thought about it, it's because she made films on her own
Later in the night
William
I realize that I encouraged this girl to get in a relationship or she will go out leaving feathers, I don't understand Alexander's reasoning, I don't see why he doesn't want to give free rein to his love and live in the present moment, he persists in staying in the past despite everything we tell him, I don't even really know how to make him find his reason
It's the sound of the ringtone that brings me back to earth, when I see my watch, it was already 9 p.m. and I'm not waiting for anyone, who can it be
When I open the door she jumps into my arms, and I hasten to put my lips on hers, this crazy little girl does me so much good, and brings me so much pep
Me breaking free from his embrace: I didn't expect to see you tonight
Thea: I can go back if you want huh
Me realizing my blunder: no my heart go ahead please, I missed you
Thea: that's why I came, I knew you wanted to see me so I decided to make your wish come true
Me laughing: I didn't know you had become a diviner
Thea: Well you know that now, and I feel like there's something bothering you right now.
Me laughing harder: Say you're very strong
Thea: Are you telling me?
I can't talk to him about my conversation with his brother, it only concerns him and me, but hey, his grave is a spade, we have to have a conversation, her and me.
Me taking a serious look: I went to lunch with your brother today and I don't like the idea of hiding things from him, especially the fact that his little sister and I have a romantic relationship
Thea: I know but give me a little more time, I'd like to prepare him before I tell him the news
Me: What do you want to prepare him for anyway? we have to tell him before he finds out for himself, otherwise he might get offended, and in addition he would be within his rights since in his place I would not like to be hidden something like that
Thea: please give me some time
I feel that this story risks us Peter in the face but I can not refuse him anything to my little crazy darling, so we will do as she says