Chapter 17

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Chapter 17
Alex
Me: I want divorce Alexander
Alexander: no it's out of the question
Me trying to control my way: of course I'll divorce
Alexender sitting on the edge of the bed looking at me: I don't want a divorce
Me sitting next to him and taking his hands in mine: why do you want us to stay together? give me one reason not to divorce you
I had my heart racing, I asked him these questions even though I wasn't really sure what answer I was going to receive, I kept in my heart the hope that he would tell me that he wants us to stay together because he loves me and he doesn't want to live without me, or even if he doesn't love me yet he at least wants to try, s 'he asks me to stay and really try to build something I will stay without thinking for a single second, since I don't want to be far from him, I'm not sure I can live far from him, I'm not Sure to be able to bear our separation
Alexender standing up: I don't intend to divorce, you are my wife and you are supposed to stay by my side
Me starting by losing patience: tell me a single duty of a husband that you had to fulfill during all these long months that we remained married, why I would have to stay with a man who decidedly does not want me
Alexender: because it should be like that that's all, I'm not divorcing it's simple
His answers have the power to annoy me even more, this man I will definitely get nothing from him this conversation will lead us nowhere
Me getting up too: we'll see how you force me to stay here against my will
Alexender in a harsh tone: you will, I remind you that these are not the terms of the contract, and you better not move from here I warn you
Me replying: I'd rather end up in jail than stay a second longer in this house, I'm going home, I'm my mother's only child I'm sure she'd rather I go back to her than staying in a marriage that could cost me my sanity or my life
Alexander with a nervous laugh: Which mother are you talking about? the one who exchanged her only file for a few banknotes or this mother who didn't bother to get to know her "daughter's future husband" better but preferred to be interested in what he could bring her of this mother are you talking to me?
Me in shock: sorry?
Alexender: You heard me right, you understood me right, that mother she sold you to me like you did yourself, and I had the pleasure of acquiring you, so there is no 'there is no divorce that holds unless I decide
"SLAP"
I was so angry that he received the second slap of the day, I see his face change but he doesn't react, probably because he is aware that he deserves it, I go to the dressing room and come back with what i was looking for
Me banging his chest with the papers: hold everything you've paid me since we got together
Alexender still with his hand in his pocket without reacting: ….
Me in anger: do you think I went with you for money? that's it, you definitely end up convincing me that I have nothing to do here, Alexender you don't deserve my love, you don't deserve that I shed tears for you, you just don't deserve me
Alexander
Last night I got a little drunk on the way home, and the alcohol pushed me to do something that I had wanted to do for a while, some will say that alcohol pushes us to do stupid things but me I will say that alcohol just gives us the courage to do things that we can't decide to do when we are sober, don't we say that the truth only comes out of the mouths of children and drunkards
I was surprised to realize how good I felt in the arms of this little one, that night she made me forget all my problems and all the weight that weighed on my shoulder, I felt so Though I've wished many times that this night would last forever
But when I wake up this morning, it was a return to reality, I realized that I don't have the right, I don't have the right to aspire to happiness, this guilt that has been haunting me for a while resurfaced, i just wanted to push her to put back this distance that existed between us, i didn't want to push her to leave, i'm not ready to see her go, i want her stay by my side
The disappointment I see on my wife's face right now makes me realize that I've gone very far, how to hold her back I don't know
Alex with all her recent contempt for me: take a good look, take a good look at that face, it will be the last time you see it, this body that you despise so much you won't have it anymore and even if I have to end up in prison I'm ready to go if it can allow me to get rid of a devil who rots my life it will be worth it
Whoa, I didn't know her words were going to touch me so much but I just sit there without saying anything praying that she calms down and changes her mind, I don't mean a truck that might make things worse
She walks into the dressing room and comes out dressed with a suitcase in her hands, but what is she playing?
Me standing up: what are you doing with this suitcase?
Alex with a nervous laugh: What don't you understand about me leaving?
Me: but what have you not understood in the fact that I want you to stay?
She doesn't answer me and pulls the suitcase past me, I don't know what to do anymore, I hold her back by taking her by the arm, usually when she finds herself so close to me she becomes so calm with eyes that shines but there I don't see any of that, all I see is anger and a hint of challenges which destabilizes me to the highest degree
Me picking up: Have you thought of Julia?
Alex replying very aggressively: and you thought of her when you put me through hell? Did you wonder for a second if I could get bored and leave? you only thought of yourself, now it's time for me to think of myself
Me trying to get her to change her mind: even if you won't stay for me, do it for her, for God's sake don't make her suffer the loss of a mother again
Alex, eyes softening: if I put up with you all this time it was for her, I decided to go above and beyond for her, I tried but I can't take it anymore, I I don't have the stone where my heart is, it's bleeding, can't you see that you hurt me so much every day that passes, these months that I spent in this house were the worst of my entire life, this little girl love like she's mine, but I can't afford the lux to stay here anymore, it's time to think of myself
Me hugging her: don't leave me please
She withdraws from my embrace crying, I see her face full of doubt but she still wants to leave
Julia: what did you do to Alex daddy?
When I turn around I see my daughter at the doorstep, I don't know how long she has been here or what she could have heard
Me talking to my daughter: I didn't do anything to her honey
Julia: so why is she crying
I was planted there without knowing what to answer him and Alex who continued to shed tears...