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Louise

It's only five o'clock in the morning. But running through the bathroom in haste was the first thing I did.

I wanted to throw away all I ate. Something inside of her is rambling. Her stomach feels something. Something was squeezing inside. But as I try to spit up, nothing comes out other than a spittle metallic taste. disgusting, sour, and bitter.

Sweat is all over me as I move out; it seems I took a bath in sweat, but still, I don't feel good inside. I awfully threw myself in bed.

"What's wrong, Louise? Is there anything wrong? Are you hurt or something?"

I look at him and say, "It's not your business, Hunter." Don't act like you care; it's not relevant for you to care about me. We both know you do not."
I curled my body in bed after I said that. I cover myself with the bedsheets.

Actually, I have been like this lately, but this is the first time that Hunter has caught sight of how I suffer every morning. I don't want to waste time telling him about the details of the baby. Allowing me to stay and providing security was enough. I won't forget his ferocious desire to kill my dad and me.
As far as I remember, every time we did it, it was covered with so much anger, hatred, and rage.Well, maybe this is the time for me to decide if I will be with him even if I know he will hurt me forever or run with this baby and protect my child from his father. Any of these decisions were tough. But I'm sure as hell that I couldn't take watching my child be punished for what my father did to his love once.

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Hunter

"I'm just asking; it's not like I care for her!"Louise filled out her cover to reply.
"I'm completely ok, Hunter. Thank you for asking. Maybe there's something I ate last night that my stomach doesn't like."

After that, she covered herself again.

I sigh; I know she's thinking that's very low of me. And I don't want to show her that I really care! I really fucking care! She and the child are the only things in this world I care about these days, but sadly, I can't show that to her.

Because I'm not appropriate, yes, she's right. Two, it's obvious that's what she's been thinking. I'm foolish and useless, because even though I try, the anger inside of me still manipulates me. I hate it.
I walk toward the bathroom to take a bath.

"I have to take off early!"
I said, even if I didn't know if she'd been listening or not.I take a shower and do my daily routine, and I completely ignore her even if my heart doesn't want to.

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Louise

As soon as the bathroom closes, I move and relax. I'm so tired; I feel like I've been running a hundred miles. I supinely lie and touch my tummy.

"Baby, please hold on; we were. I promise to take care of you. I'm sorry I brought you into this mess." Another tear wafts in my eyes, and I wipe it instantly.

How do I feel this way towards Hunter? I hate him, but I equally love him too. Your so unfair, God. Why did you make me feel this way? I'm not supposed to love him, right? As I remember, it was Kian who owned my heart just a few months ago. How did Hunter take that away just like that? And the thing I hate the most is that I think I love him more than I ever loved someone before.
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Hunter

I step out of the bathroom. The first thing I do is look at Louise, but still, she's wrapping her body around the bedsheet. Maybe she's sleeping. Maybe I should learn to live without her from now on. In the first place, I was okay without her, right? A month ago, when I didn't know that some girls existed in this world, The kind of girl who has the capability to capture my heart with just a single smile. More intense feeling than I felt towards Angeline.

But I know there's no us. Is only a big dream. I'm afraid, yes, but I have to set her free. I really hope I can manage to live without her soon.

"Hunter, are you in a hurry again? Haven't you thought about your health?"

"Yes, it's urgent. I need to go now. I leave Louise with you. She's not feeling well, but she slept back. My health doesn't matter. I'm a hybrid; whatever poison they put into the bullet is now gone. I'm stronger than before."

Kian nodded
"Don't worry, leave it to me."
Kian said, smiling. It's so damn hurtful to leave her to the other guy, especially her ex. But I think she would rather be with Kian than with me. She looks so happy with Kian; maybe I will at least give her happiness.
I turned my back and directly stepped outside, hopped in my car, and drove to the office. Fuck this life!
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Louise

As I woke up again, Hunter was no longer there, so I lazily got up and took a bath. They headed to the kitchen. I'm so starving.

As I entered, I saw Kian eating."Good morning, Louise."
Kian greets happily.
"Good morning."

"Let's eat! Hunter already departed; he entrusted you to me. I heard you were not feeling well. Are you OK now?"

"Much better than earlier.Wow, the food looks delicious. Fried rice with bacon! My favorite! "

Kian laughed at my reaction. But after a few spoons, she ate. Her stomach back into rambling, she ran to the nearest bathroom, but like earlier, there's nothing coming out.

I feel so tired after a minute of battling at the toilet.As I come out of the bathroom, Kian looks so worried.

"Are you OK? What happened to you? I shook my head and replied to Kian.

"Maybe there's something I ate last night that my stomach doesn't like."

Same excuse, I tell Hunter. He seems not to believe me but still helps me get locked up back in my room, and of course I bring with me some foods different from those we eat in the kitchen. Thank God my tummy took that food. After that, I take a good nap again.