We Will Be Leaving In The Morning

Roman POV

I had no idea what came over me. All I knew was that I wanted to kill him. Perhaps it was the culmination of the day as today – perhaps it was a mix of things. I could not explain it to myself and Caleb was not speaking much. I did feel betrayed. How could he even think to leave – and more importantly – for her? He was like a brother to me. “Maybe he loves her”, Caleb offered, and again for some strange reason, I wanted to kill him. “We have a mate, Roman, why are you acting stupid?”, Caleb retorted. “Let him go – maybe they will be as happy as we will be with the white wolf”. He was right. I had a mate, but the question was remaining where she was. I was so happy and excited that I announced it to the pack – I wanted to give them something – some type of celebration, something to look forward to. Pack needed their Luna Queen, and I needed my mate. I knew she knew we were her mate, I thought, she will come around.

Lady Jasmine surprised me. Her protectiveness of Dragana, even though I now knew they were kin, was extraordinary. She was ready to risk a war, kill me and obliterate my pack – that much was obvious. I wondered what really was happening there, but could not pinpoint it at all. “By the way, congratulations”, I heard her voice. “I understand you have found your Luna Queen. Where is she?” Lady Jasmine was now asking, my head still pounding form earlier altercation. “Your Majesty”, I said sarcastically, “You will be the first person I introduce her to”.. She looked at me as if she was having fun, drinking her liquor and I guess finding my antics amusing. “So, you do not have her??? I was told you found her??? Where is she?”.. She was seriously pissing me off and the day had been long.. “I DO NOT KNOW WHERE SHE IS AT THE MOMENT!!!”, I yelled at her. We saw her, Caleb and I saw her earlier tonight – at the spring”. I stated simply wanting for this day to be over and for Princess Jasmine to disappear form my eyes. If I did not see her ever again, it would be too soon.

“You saw her tonight???? Was that the only time you ever saw her?”, her voice was indescribable.. I did not know what she wanted now, but figured to simply be honest with her and get her out of my sight. “Yes, it is the only time we saw our mate! Do you have any more stupid questions?” I snapped.

She was curling her hair around her finger, something I never saw her do before. Her expression was unreadable, but I sensed her Lycan was on the edge and that she was curious. “Around what time was that?’.. “What does it matter Jasmine??!!!! How does my life or my mate matter to you and who are you to ask me these things??” I ran over and grabbed her by her throat roaring in her face. To my surprise, she did not react. She was just watching me, her purple eyes beaming gold, as if she –≠“ in trance of some kind. “Indulge me”, she said softly, and I have no idea what came over me, I dropped my hand from squeezing her and simply said “sometime after Dragana was attacked – the day has been a shit show, largely thanks to you”, I glared at her. ”I went for a run, to shift – I needed to clear my head”.. “That is when we saw her”, I said, thinking of her scent and wondering as to why Jasmine was all of the sudden involved in my love life. “Did she come to you??”, Jasmine was asking, her voice trailing as if she was in another dimension… “No, she did not.. SHE RAN, SHE FUCKING RAN FROM ME!!!!”.. “Are you happy now???” I said, grabbing a much needed drink.

She said nothing. Beta Artemis was staring at me, his shock clearly splashed over his face. “You will find her again – mate bond is a mate bond” he was encouraging me. “Perhaps. err.. .. I knew he was being uncomfortable, shifting from one leg to another, not daring to continue and say that he actually meant. Lady Jasmine chimed in “Perhaps your mate smelled your whores and ran away from you”.. she said matter of-fact. “Perhaps you are right”, I sat at my desk defeated. I have been wondering the same thing all day. The years of casual flings and trash women like Salma came rushing back to me and filled me with regret and I literally chocked on bile. Would my mate ever forgive me, I thought to myself. “Well, I guess again, congratulations are in order”, Lady Jasmine continued, her eyes peering into me. “However, this does not address Beta’s request”.. “I already said he can GO!”, I roared again not wishing to think about him and Dragana, not wanting to picture her with him, trying desperately to control Caleb. I have a mate and I will do whatever it takes to make her understand that I was lost without her and to atone for my mistakes. Whatever it takes, I will do it I thought. The piercing lilac eyes were on me, watching me and drilling into me, in a way I did not understand. “Very well”, she said after all. “We will be leaving in the morning”. I simply nodded.