We Found Her!

Roman POV

To say that I was confused and conflicted with myself would be an understatement. I do not know what came over me last night. I had the same urge to protect Dragana, I wanted her, that much has not changed. But there was something else. I felt something. I felt a bond of some kind. I slept soundly with her in my arms for the first time in many years. I woke up not wanting to let her go. However, I knew I had to. I had a mate and my fidelity, love and responsibility belonged to her. Something was nagging me though; I could not explain it. When I kissed her this morning before she left, it was incredible. For the first time, I just wanted to kiss her, I wanted her to know the gentleness, the actual kiss, other than the raw sexuality behind it. I hesitated at first, but when her plump warm lips opened to me, I lost myself in her scent, in the warmth of her mouth, in the fact that she was responding. I could have stayed like that forever, kissing her as if I was drowning and she was the air I needed to breathe. And now she was gone.

Sitting in my office, looking over maps and reading battleground reports, my mind was everywhere but here. Losing my Beta did not help the situation, and the pang of jealousy stirred through me as I thought of him with Dragana. “You have been very silent about all this, Caleb”, I said to my werewolf. “How do you explain this? You felt the bond, you felt what happened, right?”. I hoped that somebody could shed some light on this as things were not clear to me at all. “I have a theory”, Caleb said calmly. “Perhaps she is our second mate – you know, like a choice mate?”. I have heard stories about things like this where the Goddess was kind enough to assuage the pain of her wolf children and grant them a second mate. In a few, very rare cases, I have even heard of third mates too. But, the pattern always followed. The fated mate had to have died or there had to have been accepted rejection. Second chance mate can only appear in cases like this. And nobody has ever rejected me. Plus, we have seen our mate. We have seen the white wolf, so she has to be alive!!!! Furrowing my nose, I held my hand over the throbbing temple. “How do you explain a second chance mate if our fated mate WHOM WE SAW, is alive??”..

“I really do not know” Caleb responded. “It is just a theory, as I am confused as you are, but I cannot deny last night, for the first time, I also felt her, I felt something”, he said. Great, just fucking great, I thought to myself, now I need my wolf attached to the woman who left. Fucking great! “Did she ever shift?”, Caleb asked. “What do you mean? She had renounced her wolf??”.

”Yes, I know that part, but how?” he was musing. “Her wolf had to have appeared for her to renounce it, she could not have severed the link otherwise”, he stated with authority. “Or, perhaps, she never did and she lied to you?” ‘Why would she lie, Caleb?” It did not make sense that she would lie to me – there was nothing for her to gain in doing so. The more I thought about this, the less I understood anything about it. Stress was getting to me. “Maybe because she did not want to be part of the pack, maybe because she felt like a prisoner, did not like it here?”, he offered. Guilt overcame me. I knew she lacked nothing tangible, but lived a life in a gilded cage, with no real friends, no family, no coven, no actual pack. And it was all my fault! For the first time, it hit me that we had both lost mothers, and while I was busy and had everything I ever wanted, I denied her everything. I threw myself into looking for a mate, wars, work, whores, and grieved my loss, both of my mother and my little brother the best I knew how, best I could make it work – or so I thought. And I drank. At times, a LOT. In contrast, I gave her no way, no opportunity, no chance to grieve. “She must have been very lonely”, Caleb said, sadness in his voice. Remorse was washing over me like a tsunami, and I felt paralyzed by my own emotions.

As if on que, Aldar, my Gamma mind linked me. “Alpha King, you have a visitor”, he said, his voice firm and stoic.

Fuck, fuck, fuck!!!!! I had totally forgotten that Alpha Alan’s daughter Alice would be here this morning to negotiate the truce and what I presumed surrender. I was not sure why she was here and what she hoped to accomplish, but I guess there was only one way to find out. “Send her to my office – alone”, I said curtly, cutting off mind link. I continued reading the report and drank some coffee hoping it would help with my headache. A smell of patchouli and lilies, with a scent of fresh cut roses hit me, and Caleb roared. MATE! MATE IS HERE! WE FOUND HER!

Sure enough, at the door of my office stood the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Her long dark hair was falling over her porcelain shoulders in cascading waves. Her beautiful face was strong, and her blue eyes sparkled across the room, her simple purple dress hugging her in all the right places, her perky breasts struggling with the tightness of it, and her tiny waist expanding into what I could presume was a nice plump ass. Her long legs were in stilettos, their tapping sound all too familiar as she walked towards me. She was gorgeous! I jumped up, all my worries gone in an instant, almost running to her, my eyes locking on hers. She stood there, smiling at me. “MATE!!!!!!”, Caleb roared.. Her smile widened.. “MATE!!!!”, she said. With that, I pulled her to me and kissed her.