I Will Do What I Have To

Alice POV

“You are weakening me. I cannot come forth!!”, I heard Rina whine in my head. I knew the bracelets were keeping her at bay, but I needed to do what I had been tasked with. How – I did not know. But what I did know was that if I did not kill him, the Dark Lord would kill me. That much was clear. Besides, my father was dying already. “Father is dying, but do you even understand what you are doing??? Do you understand the sacred bond between a parent and a child?? Especially a parent such as our father who loved you all your life, supported you???” I heard Rina whine again. She was right, her voice was getting weaker and at times I could feel her energy slip away. I did not know if she was there or not, but I dared not take my bracelets off as the little courage I had to complete my task would likely have gone away.



Walking up to Roman’s office, I needed to notify him about leaving. I did not know if he would notice anything different and I prayed to all the Gods he would not. I found him buried in maps and preoccupied with something – totally out, so much so, he did not even notice me coming in. “Roman, my love”, I said, keeping up the pretense. Hearing my voice, he bolted up from his chair, his strong physique a sight for sore eyes. He really was an incredibly handsome man, and if things were different, I could definitely see myself falling for him, and truly being his Luna Queen. However, he was partially the reason why I was in this predicament. He did not need to attack us; he could have negotiated. He did not need to listen to the Elders, he could have simply talked to my father and I about succession in our pack, and none of this would have happened. Alas, he did not. Many warriors, some I grew up with, died at his hands. I consoled my friends whose husbands have been taken by his ruthless soldiers, and in my heart, I had decided his fate long before I even met him.



However, to accomplish that, I needed the power of Al Kadar, and there was only one way to obtain it. “Alice, my Queen!!!”, he jumped up, enveloping me in a hug. His muscular body pressed into mine and for a moment I allowed myself to enjoy that feeling, the feeling of being held and cared for, the feeling of love. “What is wrong??? There is something wrong with you???”, he said, gently cupping my face, worry frowning on his handsome features. “Alpha King, my love… it is my father. I have gotten word his condition has worsened. and I…..” I played my part of an ever so concerned daughter. In truth, I was still confused about this. Part of me was concerned about my father and wanted him to live. Yet another part, the darker part, wanted to get this over with – in fact, to consider killing him a mercy and a means to an end to both our suffering.



“Say no more!!!! We will send our best healers!!! Lady Asma is here too. Maybe she can go or some of the witches see what needs to be done. He was injured in the battle, and I am sure, because of a wolf of his power, there could be something we can do, my dearest. He is an Alpha after all, he is strong!!!”, he quickly reassured me. “I am afraid it is too late my love. I have been told that I need to come and say my final goodbye”, I said tearfully. “Then I will come with you!!! I want him to know you are the future Luna Queen and that you will be loved and cherished for the rest of your days as my mate and my wife, the mother of my children!!!”, he exclaimed, again holding me tight, again reassuring me. Any girl would fall for his words, yet they resonated flatly with me. I did not know if that was because of my genuine loathing of him, the pretense I had to upkeep, or overall stress about the whole situation.



However, I could not have this – I did not need him to come and spoil my plans, plans I did not know how to execute yet. However, the last thing I needed was a nosy wannabe mate butting into my business, removing the only chance for me to do what I needed to do. “Well.. err… hmmm... I mean.... hmmm...well.. Roman.. I love you. You know that, right?” I said, batting my eyelashes at him, holding him to me, pulling him closer. He nodded, ever so hopeful. “But my father was injured and is on his death bed because of your invasion and your warriors. I do not think that it would be the best idea for him to see the person who essentially is responsible for his demise”, I said demurely and tearfully, again playing the role of the ever so love-stricken-concerned -perfect-Luna Queen-to be. His brow furrowed and I could see he was thinking. “I do love you even more for wanting to be there for me!”, I hurriedly clarified, planting a kiss on him.



“Are you sure??? I mean I could help maybe in some way….” He looked positively bewildered and concerned for me. Perfect, just where I want you, you sick bastard!“Do not worry yourself my love. I will go and see him and if it is his time, which I pray to the Goddess that it is not, at least I can give him a peaceful sendoff to the halls of the ancestors. And I will come home to you”. He studied my face and held me even closer. I gave into him. His body radiated sexuality and heat and if, for one second, if I forgot that I wanted to kill him and needed to kill my father, I could actually enjoy this moment. After a long pause, he finally spoke. “I trust you, Alice. But I am still sending warriors with you for your protection!!! Hurry back, we have a wedding to attend!” he said, determined and lovesick.



“Awwwwwww… THANK YOU SO MUCH my love!!!!”, I said relieved, faking every word. My ploy worked out well. It was playing exactly as I wanted it – this way my absence would not be suspicious, and I could kill my father and claim the power of Al Kadar once and for all!!!!