CHAPTER 67

CHAPTER 67

What is he doing in that position?
Why is he even kneeling? I thought to myself.

Celine, Tony and Venus looked shocked as well.
I regained my consciousness and I stood up from the couch.

"Stand up." I said to Emerson making my friends snap back to reality. Tony step aside and gave space to me. I am now looking at him and it makes my heart ache. I fight the feeling of running in to him and hug him because he looks like he hasn’t slept well last night.

Same as you

I didn't know that seeing him would make my heart shatter into tiny pieces. My chest tightens the more closer I get.

It’s evident that he also didn't sleep well last night. It’s the bags under his eyes.

"I'm sorry." He said sniffing on the last word but he manages to look at me directly in the eyes.

"Don't kneel down." I said, trying to sound firm and strong.

"I won't stand here unless you accept my apology." He said, looking at my eyes, still carrying the bouquet of flowers. The flowers are beautiful. I want to smell it but again, I fight it.

"Well then..., you might have to call Jayson to bring you tent and food." I said, swallowing.
Don't break down for goodness sake!

I turned my heel from him and walk away. Why? Why does he have to do it in a hard way? Why doesn’t he let me think? Why! I thought to myself as I went to my room and close it.

After closing the door, I lean on it and close my eyes.

I know I'll forgive you somehow, someday.

My friends? I don't know what their reactions are but they didn't say anything.

Emerson pov

She is really mad at me.
She doesn't care.
She doesn't like me or in my case, she doesn't love me at all.

When she shut her door, I know that she doesn't like me back.
"She's as stubborn as you are, you see." Tony said at me as he kneels down to level me.

"You better stand up and go home. She won't come out." Celine said softly.

"I'm sorry." I said. I don't know what to say except that I'm sorry. I hold back my tears because I don't want them to see me crying.

But.. I can't fight it.

"You don't need to be sorry, we know you have your reasons and we know that you, going here, saying you're sorry and kneeling down makes you a nice man." Venus said. "Give her time." She added and left.
She knocked at Love's door and went inside.

"You should go home." Tony encourages. "It will be alright." He added, patting my shoulders.

I shook my head and sat down on my heel, still carrying the bouquet of flowers. "I won't stand here unless she forgive me or just hear me out." I said, sounding desperate.

Yes, desperate.

They all sighed. "If that's what you want." Tony said as he stands up and widens the door more so I could see Love's whole apartment.

Tony and Celine went to the couch and sit on it. They're talking I just don't know what they're saying. I can't hear it from here. Then my eyes landed on Love's room. It’s still close.

Just let me explain, love.

Jem pov
My mind is on a race. I can't focus on my business. A raging Emerson, I can handle that. A heartless one? Still can. But a heartbroken Emerson? That's another question. I'm his best friend and I don't know what to do with him. I don't know how to cheer him up.

I'm clueless! I thought, gritting my teeth and clenching my fist out of frustration.

A ring from my phone brought me back to the present.

Martha

"What happened?" I asked.

"He left." She replied. Then I look at my watch and it’s almost sunset.

"Where did he go?" I asked.

"He didn't tell me. He just ran. When I was about to follow him, he's already far away. “She replied. I can hear her sigh from here.

"There's only one place he'll go." I said as I stood up and grabbed my car keys and ran outside my building.

"Love" Martha said in understanding.

"I'll meet you there." I said, hanging up.

Love pov

"He wanted your forgiveness." Venus said to me.

I look away from her and look at the window. "I don't know. I'm not yet ready." I replied.

"He's waiting for you." She said to me looking at the closed door.

"I told him to go." I replied.

"He refused to." Celine interrupted. "We tried to tell it many times since you went inside." She added. "He's still in the same position." She finally said.

That made me snap look at her but then manage to look away again and glance at the clock at my bedside table.
He's still kneeling? He's been kneeling for three hours.

My chest tightens again, but I fight it. I won't back down. Closing my eyes, I convince myself not be fooled again.

"I need more time." I said to the two women with me. They're very calm on me. "I don't know if I'm capable of forgiveness right now."I explained. I don't know if it’s for me or them.

"I don't know what I should feel." I added.

"Just hear him out?" Venus asked.

I paused for a moment and think.

Just let him explain himself.
He'll just lie on your face.
No he won't.
Yes he will.

My mind and my heart really contradict with each other.

Can't you trust him?
One more time?
I don't know.

"Please?" Venus pleaded. "Just hear him out?" She added.

"For us?" Celine asked.

"No. For you actually. For yourself." Venus stated. "To save you from yourself."She finally said. From myself? I thought, looking at her.

"Yes from yourself." Celine interrupted.

"Look at you." She added, pointing me. "You're so depress." She finally said.

I said nothing.

"Fine." I said, trying to collect myself before I stand up and walk towards the door. BUT! Before that, I deeply sighed.

Just hear him talk.

I look at my two great friends and saw Celine and Venus smiled. They mouthed good luck.

I opened the door and see pair of eyes directly looking at me. The eyes that can make me feel jell-o.

He's still kneeling.