Chapter 14

Elizabeth Summers’ POV
I paced my room as I waited for my date with Jasper. He had really worried me earlier when he walked into the library. I was sure that he was going to mock me for spending my Saturday morning in the library but he didn’t. He sat with me reading for a while then he started holding me.
He wasn’t reading or looking at his phone or anything. He just sat there for hours with my head resting on his chest and he watched me read. He stroked and kissed my hair but what was even more surprising was that I actually enjoyed it. The closeness, the warmth and even the scent of his grooming products. It felt really nice just to be held.
I had intended to keep Jasper at arms length until I turned eighteen but that wasn’t working out so well, was it? It has been less than a day since I found out I was his mate and I am already feeling its effects. That is the only possible explanation. It must be the reason I was looking forward to going on a date with him and enjoying his company so much. Even after everything he has done to me.
After lunch I tried playing games on my laptop for a while but I couldn’t focus. I kept thinking about Jasper’s lips. That's how pathetic I am, I can’t even play my favourite game without thinking about some boy. I have made fun of Patti so many times in the past for acting this way, I would never live this down if she ever found out about this.
There was a knock on the door to my room.
“Lizzy, are you ready?” Jasper asked.
I felt my heart flutter at the sound of his voice. I am so pathetic, when my wolf wakes up she is going to disown me for sure. I picked up my bag and opened the door to my room.
Jasper was standing just outside the room, only a few inches away from me. He was so close that I could smell the mint from his toothpaste. If I wanted to kiss him now all I would have to do would be lean up and towards him but what if he didn’t want to kiss me. Would he push me away?
“You don’t need to be nervous. I’m never going to hurt you.” Jasper said. He pulled me into his arms and kissed the top of my head.
My inner cynic couldn’t help but weigh in, making me think of all the times in the past that he hurt me. Not physically granted but he had done more than his fair share of mental damage. I know I should resent him for that but I didn’t, I wanted to stay in his arms forever.
“Aren’t we a little early for dinner?” I asked, trying to distract myself.
“Yes but I wanted to take you for a walk first.” He replied.
I didn’t know how to respond to that, I wanted to ask why but I didn’t want to come across as rude. Instead I just nodded my head and let him lead me out of the house.
We walked through town towards the outskirts. He had his arms around my waist as we walked in a way that was both protective and comforting. He nodded his head in acknowledgement as other packmates greeted us but he never gave them his full attention. He spoke to me the whole time, telling me about his interests and likes and asking me more questions than I thought possible. Before I knew it I had completely forgotten where I was.
After a while Jasper stopped walking and sat me down on a bench next to him. I looked around, we must have been walking for a while because we were sitting by the stream on the edge of town. It was quiet out here, not many people came out this far.
We used to come here a lot when we were both younger, before Jasper thought it was uncool to hang around with me. He used to be kind to me back then. Was that the memory that he was trying to remind me of by bringing me here?
“It’s nice here, I come here a lot when I want to think. It is my favourite place in the pack, I wanted to share it with you.” Jasper said.
“I like it but I bet you bring all your girlfriends here.” Oh shit, I couldn’t believe I just said that out loud.
I must be losing my mind, since when did I get so bold around an alpha? I was acting like a jealous girlfriend, is that what this was? Was I jealous of Jasper’s history?
That is a silly question, of course I am jealous. It’s not that he didn’t wait for me that bothers me. It bothers me that he slept with most of the women in our school year and yet didn’t want me. It bothers me that sex means so little to him and yet he is meant to take all of my firsts. More than that, it bothers me that he is the reason I am so innocent and yet I am just supposed to ignore his past.
“I have never had a girlfriend before you Lizzy.” He said. He sounded sad, that annoyed me more. Why was he sad, I should be the one who is sad.
“What?” I asked, sharply.
“I have never dated anyone, I have never even been on a real date. I wish I had been strong enough to save my body for you but at least I saved my heart for you.” He said.
I feigned shock.
“That almost sounded romantic, what have you done with the real Jasper?” I asked.
I was being cruel. He was opening up to me and I was making fun of him. I didn’t normally act like this but I didn’t know how to deal with this version of Jasper. I wanted to believe him but I had been hurt by him too many times to drop my guard.
“This is the real me, I have always wanted to show you but I was terrified that you would push me away.” He said.
An alpha wolf being terrified, no chance. He must be lying, alphas are scared of nothing.
“I have something I need to tell you.” Jasper said. He glanced around anxiously.
This was the Jasper that I knew. He was about to say something that would ruin my night and send me home in fits of tears. I wonder what it could be. Maybe he wants to tell me how unworthy I am of being luna. Maybe he has already cheated on me, maybe he thought I was ok because I wouldn’t feel it through the bond yet.
I wasn’t exactly the hottest woman in the pack. It would make sense if he didn’t really want me. I am short and curvy, completely the opposite of girls like Bev. They have long legs and toned bodies and that seems to be what all the guys in this pack want.
My chest felt tight and I was struggling to catch my breath. Jasper leaned over and wiped the tears out of my eyes, tears I didn’t even realise were falling. His face was filled with panic.
“It's nothing like that. I promise I will never hurt you. You are my mate and I love you.” He said. He pulled my head into his chest and held me close.
“What is it then?” I asked, I could even hear the pain in my voice.
“This is a secret, only you and I can know about this. Is that ok?” Jasper asked.
“You can trust me.” I said. He was my mate. As much as I wasn’t comfortable with that yet, I wouldn’t betray him.
“My wolf is an omega.” He said. My eyes shot to his face in shock. How was that even possible?
“What are you going to do?” I asked.
“I don’t know but honestly I don’t care as long as I have you.” He said.
He leaned forward and pressed his lips against mine. He ran his tongue along my lips until I opened my mouth, letting Jasper’s tongue explore my mouth. I placed one of my hands on his back while I ran with my fingers through his hair with my other hand.
Jasper moaned and pulled me closer to him. I could feel the heat from his body warming me and filling me with desire. I wanted him, I wanted to straddle him and take him right here on this ficking bench.
That realisation terrified me. I had never wanted anyone like this before and I didn’t know how to react. I continued to kiss him for a few seconds but in the end my fear won. I broke our kiss and looked away.
“We should probably go, we don’t want to miss dinner.” I said.