Chapter 34: Place within a difficult situation

"Please don't do this to me, Liam," Paisley begs me as tears filled her eyes. "I still love you and I will never stop loving you. Don't you still love me Liam?" she asked me with all tearful eyes.

I understand she is badly hurt that I had found my one true mate, but she had to accept it and move on. I slowly turned my back towards her not wanting to deal with her now. I already had problems in trying to make my mate trust me, which seems impossible of how timid and stubborn she is.

"Liam please don't choose her over me?" Paisley kept on begging me.

"Enough Paisley!" I shouted angrily at her, "Remember you left me, running off so don't come crying back for me," I told her as I turned to face her.

She lowers her head crying hard and then back at me wiping away her tears.

"Remember your words Liam, please remember what you told me years ago when you took away my virginity even though we were not chosen by the moon goddess to be together," she tried to remind me of the promise I had made to her.

I removed my eyes off her staring at the floor remembering the exact words I told her; promising her I will always be by her side.

"You promise me the day we first made love that you will never leave me and will reject your one true mate when you find her, for me." "Please remember those words Liam, if they ever did mean anything to you," she told me.

I raised my head right away staring into her sad green eyes; hating what she was trying to do; making me feel like shit.

"I meant those words that I once said to you Paisley," so please do not make me seems like I'm a bad person and was only using you for sex at that time. I loved you back then and still do," I told her.

"Then why are you choosing her over me even if you still love me?" she asked me.

"We share a bond that you and I will never have," I answered her.

She cries out from my hurtful answer. Seeing her in so much pain all because of me was very hurtful.

"I'm sorry," I try to apologize to her not knowing what else to do in taking away the sadness from her as I tried to wrap my hands around her in comforting her.

"Don't touch me!" she shouted angrily at me while she shoves me in my chest pushing me away.

"You promise me Liam that you will reject your mate for me!" she shouted angrily. "I feel so stupid to allow you to use me," she cried to me.

"You know I was never using you, Paisley," I answered her angrily. "And I'm not going to feel bad or ashamed by your harsh words in making me believe I was just taking advantage of your innocence years ago. "I did not break that promise you break that when you run off secretly leaving me for seven years without any words," I answered her angrily.

She stopped crying; staring at me.

"Didn't you think about how lonely, sad, and worried I was the day you left me?" I asked her angrily. "If I weren't the alpha of my pack and had something else to think of, I don't know how I would have survived or manage to deal with the terrible pain you gave me when you left me," I told her.

"I had to leave Liam," she told me as she sadly turns her back towards me.

"If you had believed that promise I told you and know that I did truly loves you nothing would have stop you from running off leaving me," I told her.

"It wasn't that, that's why I had no choice but to leave you, Liam," she answers sadly. "It was something I was too ashamed to confront you with," she again said.

Curious about what it was that made her made that decision to secretly ran off without allowing me to know where she was; I had to ask her.

"I lost something precious for you and I didn't want to face you; knowing I had let you down," she told me; she slowly turns around to face me while tears sadly streak down her cheeks.

"What did you lose for me?" I asked her eagerly to know; "Didn't you love me anymore?" I asked her.

"Of course, I did, Liam," she answers me quickly and then lowers her eyes to the floor; afraid to look me in the eyes.

"Then what is it so important that you run off leaving me?" I asked her angrily; hating the pain she had put me through when she did.

"I lost our child," she finally answers me, while she slowly moves her sad green eyes towards me.

My dark black eyes widen shockingly, and my body felt like something hard hit me from behind. I suddenly felt myself walking backward uncontrollably and fell sitting on the side of the bed. I could not believe what I had just heard. I had lost my first child; I thought as I stare at the floor.

"I'm sorry," Paisley apologized to me as she now stands before me. I raised my head staring at her and got up quickly. Holding her by both of her shoulders while I stare into her eyes.

"You did nothing wrong," I told her as I pulled her into my arms and hold her tightly.

"You losing our child was not your fault to blame," I again tried to comfort her.

I kissed her on her cheek as she rests her head against my hard chest crying and rests the side of my face against hers. All along I was so angry with her after she left me clueless that it was something very painful, that had happened to her, that is why she left. It was exceedingly difficult trying to take in this shocking news. Still, I could imagine how worst it was for her.

"I don't know how I lost our baby, but I just found myself bleeding. I was so frightened I rushed to my mom until she told me what was happening to me. I was so sad and afraid I did not want to tell you. I tried but I couldn't and so I decided to leave," she explained to me.

"It's okay, it's okay babe," I told her as I kissed her on her forehead.

I sat on the side of my bed and hold her in my arms until she stopped crying.

How can I leave her like this knowing the true reason why she left; I thought sadly.

I understand why she ran off. Whenever a she-wolf loses a pup, they always blame themselves for being weak and sometimes not worthy of being with their mate, but I would never think so with her. I did not see her only as a child bearer as some alphas would see there Lunas'; in helping them to carry on their bloodline in giving them many pups. A pup was very important to an alpha but for me, my mate was too.

"Liam please don't leave me," Paisley again continues to beg me.

I stare within her eyes not knowing what to say. I did not want to break her heart after what she had been through and too alone without me comforting her when she needed me the most.

"Liam tell me, that you won't leave me," she said as she started to cry, while she stares into my eyes.

I remained within the same position, not knowing what to say. I still love her and too love my one true mate.

I thought Paisley did not want me that is why she left but now I truly know. So, how could I choose between the first she-wolf I ever love now and my one true mate?