Chapter 36: Breaking the wrong heart

I am sorry that she had lost our baby, but I cannot allow it to pull me back to her, feeling sorry for her. I had found my one true mate and she needed me more than ever, for she was alone. Paisley ended the great relationship we once had when she ran off seven years ago; after losing our baby. If she had trusted me enough to tell me, like she did last night, things would not have been so complicated.

"So did you?" Paisley again inquired me; dying to know if I had chosen her over Avery.

Being caught up within a tight spot. I found myself becoming angry and my mind going back years ago; the day Paisley and I had sex; knowing we were not chosen by the moon goddess to be together. After we did and started to bond as we were one true mate, two weeks later, Paisley had started to become a bit distant from me, worrying about what we did was wrong and that I will break her heart when the full moon comes, which was not too far on that day. She had always wanted to run away from me back then, but every attempt she made. I always caught her. The night of the full moon, she was ready to reject her mate for me but within her eyes, I saw doubt that I was not going to be able to do the same for her. It was hopeless continuing to tell her that I will never choose my one true mate over her back then, and so I waited for the full moon for my mate to arrive in rejecting her; to let Paisley know I was all for her only. Disappointedly, I did not find my mate on that day to show her that I truly did love her, nor did she find hers as well, and so we had no choice but to carry on with our lives hoping that we will one day truly show that our love for each other was stronger than our mate chosen by the moon goddess.

I started to stare into her bright green eyes as I recollected. I have always been pleading to her back then to stay with me, not caring we were mates and that I have been so foolish to surprise the day she ran off without me knowing. I just did not think that she would be far away from the pack to who knows where.

"Do you expect me to just take you back into my life after you went away? When I begged you to stay, Paisley?" I asked her angrily; being angry by my thought. I have always been begging her to stay and to trust in my love for her. I had played my part in showing hard that I did care about her and loved her back then. I did not run away from the relationship in putting an end to it. She did and though she had suffered after losing our first child. I was not going to let her try and tie me down to her with that. Damn well, I was not going to let her do so.

"I was scared of what might happen, Liam," she said, softly. Allowing me to know the true reason why she had run away. It was not alone about our dead child. She was so scared that I will leave her when I found my one true mate that she decided to run away; not trusting me that I will do it when the time did come.

"Well how do you think, I felt when you went away without telling me?" I question her.

"I'm sorry," she apologized. As she got even closer to me, holding on to my black shirt.

I just could not deal with it anymore. Slowly, I turned away from her and walked away.

"Please Liam, hear me out," I heard her from behind, begging me.

I stood still.

"How could I stay; knowing I will never be your mate spiritually? I heard her said. I knew one day you would have found her, and I just didn't want to be here when it happens?" she told me; what I had already known.

If she had trusted me. I knew the loss of our child would have never allowed her to run away from me. She was just too scared of being hurt.

"I loved you Paisley and treated you like the queen you were to me, wasn't that enough?" I asked her softly while my back continued to turn towards her.

I heard her sobbing; not answering me.

"Do you think I would choose some mate? I was bound to spiritual; instead of you?" I again question her as I turned around and walked towards her. I stopped, facing her, staring again into her bright green eyes. Slowly I moved my right hand to her red hair and gently stroke it; trying to comfort her.

She stops crying and stared at my hand touching the side of her red hair.

"I don't know," she finally answers me. "All these years I've been a way I couldn't stop thinking about you; Every day I wanted to run home but was too scared to see you, for you were not mine," she told me.

I held her hand and slowly moved it to my chest. Paisley gazed within my eyes the moment I did.

"This here beating within my chest, was yours until you left me for years," I told her angrily; wanting her to know how heartbroken I was when she left me.

I then moved her hand from my chest; gently placing it at her side and walked away. I did not want to be near her now, I wanted to be far away from her. I found myself walking along the road clueless about where I was going. I then stopped turning to a large green field across the road. I decided to take a walk through there in clearing my mind for three minutes and return to my mate. The walk throughout the field was quite calming and relaxing and it was helping to clear my mind of the earlier painful conversation. I walked over through a small hill onto the field while the cold breeze blew against my body, giving me a peaceful and soothing feeling from inside. The view on top of the small hill was quite beautiful.

"Liam, Liam," I heard a familiar voice calling me.

I turned around and made my face in anger seeing it was Paisley, following me. Immediately, I jumped down the hill; trying to avoid her the best I could. My eyes widen seeing she tries to climb down the hill as well.

"Ha," she screamed out, falling.

I catch her quickly, within my arms. She wraps her arms around my neck staring into my eyes.

"I won't stop fighting for you, Liam," she told me; as her face got close to mine; almost allowing our lips to touch.

"You should," I answered her; as I too gaze into her eyes.

"Well, when I stop breathing," she said. My eyes suddenly widen now feeling her lips pressing against mine, kissing me.

I moved my lips away from her right away and places her down.

"What we had is over," I told her as I looked at her angrily.

"Oh, really," she said; as she started to pull down her dress; allowing her full firm breast and sexy body to be revealed.

I did not know why I did not run away from her; seeing her stripping herself naked before me; instead, I stood staring at her; hypnotized by her voluptuous body.

"Please stop this Paisley," I told her softly. It was extremely hard allowing the words to escape my mouth. It was like I did not want her to stop.

"You know you still want me, Liam," she told me as she walked over to me.

It was damn true my body wanted her, it wanted to taste every inch of her again and it did not want her to stop trying to seduce me.

I pulled her body closer to mine and started to kiss her hard. She moans from my kiss; causing my body to crave for her even more. Quickly, I took her up into my arms and lay her down on the ground kissing her neck to her firm breast, wanting to suck on them. She ran her hand over my back and moan even more while I ran my tongue over her nipple and pulled it into my mouth. Slowly I ran one of my hands down to her sexy legs, as I moved my mouth from her breast, leaving them wet, and started to kiss her neck. She held me tightly enjoying it. I moved my hand from her legs, now starting to play with her breast, squeezing them softly.

"Hah.." I let go a soft moan as I felt her touching my manhood, allowing it to become even harder.

Suddenly, I heard a strange sound. Quickly I removed my mouth from her breast and there I saw my one true mate, Avery: above me, staring down at me sadly.