Chapter 35: How can I not break her heart?

"Please answer me Liam, and tell me that you won't leave me," she again asked me.

I could not answer her; it was exceedingly difficult to do so, knowing the answer she wanted I could not give her. I still had feelings for her but what I had for Avery was much greater.

I pulled her body closer into my arms, hugging her tightly, wishing I could say something to her without hurting her.

"Liam please tell me," she kept on asking me as I squeeze her within my arms.

"I can't do this now Paisley," I told her.

She sobs.

I pressed my lips against her forehead and rocked her within my arms, while she continues to sob. For hours I remain within the same position. Until I raised my head seeing she was fast asleep. I gently remove myself from the side of the bed and carry her towards the door, opening it. It would be better if she did not stay here tonight under the same roof where my one true mate, Avery was. Also, her mother probably is worried about her, wondering about her whereabouts.

I exit my home carrying her safely within my arms; having only the full moonlight to guide me. I knocked at her mother's door, Eutis. Who was a well-known herb doctor within Wereville and too was the one who pleaded to protect my mate, when I was foolish in wanting to reject her the first time, I saw her? I was hurt by what Paisley did to me and was taking it out on her when she did not deserve it. Probably that is the reason why she is still so afraid of me because of the terrible things I had once done to her.

Dr. Eutis opened the door. Her eyes widen frighteningly seeing her daughter within my arms.

"What is wrong with her?!" she questions me frighteningly as she touches her face worriedly.

"She's fine, she's just asleep," I answered her.

"Okay," she answers as she calms down.

Dr. Eutis closed the door behind me as I carried Paisley upstairs and into her room. I placed her down gently onto her bed. Before leaving I covered her with a white blanket and turn around about to exit her room. My body suddenly stopped as I felt her soft hand against the back of my hand. I turned around slowly and there I saw her wide awake.

"Please don't go," she asked me softly. "I don't want to be alone tonight," she again begged me as her green eyes began to be filled with tears.

I slowly walked back to the bed and sat at the side; waiting for her to again fall asleep, so I could quietly leave.

"Please lay beside me Liam," Paisley again asked me.

I laid beside her. She got up right away and rest her head on my chest as if I was her pillow.

"Sometimes I think about our little girl or boy and how wonderful our life would have been if I didn't lose my baby," she said softly.

I touched her left hand and started to move my hand, over her soft skin repeatedly trying to comfort her.

"I wish I didn't lose our baby Liam," she said as she raised her head staring sadly into my dark eyes.

"I know," I answered softly.

"Liam," she again called my name as she returns her head to my chest.

I answered.

"Please give us another chance, you don't have to say it now; I can wait until tomorrow," she told me.

"Yes," a word slip from my mouth without thinking. I wish I did not say anything. I did not want her to hope that tomorrow I would accept her and reject Avery.

I lay in silence while she drifts off to sleep. I worried endlessly about the last word I said to her. I should have told her I only wanted to be with Avery. My wolf wanted too but what she had gone through in losing our child and dealing with it alone. I did not want to hurt her. Slowly I moved her head from my chest and onto her soft pillow; exiting her room; trying hard not to again wake her. I returned home right away as I did and went straight upstairs. I suddenly stopped at the room I knew my mate was in. I stared at it wanting to go inside and check on her if she was fine. I walked past it and went back into the room I had planned on staying in tonight. I did not want to scare my one true mate anymore. I entered my room closing the door behind me and dropped onto my bed starting to worry about what I was going to say to Paisley tomorrow without hurting her. Every plan I have thought of within my head allows me to see her sad and heartbroken. I got so weary of trying hard to think of a good plan that I felt my eyes slowly closes; drifting off to sleep.

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My eyes slowly open feeling a heat against my toes. I got up seeing it was morning and the heat I felt on my toe was the morning sun peeking through a small section of the window. I jumped from my bed right away and into my bathroom to wash my face. Before I washed my face, I put my dark hair into a ponytail. After I was through, I changed from the clothes I slept in, attiring myself into a black shirt and a long stretch pant. Remembering what happened between me and Paisley had started to bother me again. I knew today I had to break her heart again after finding out she had lost my child. I exited my room and paused at the door where my mate was, wondering if she was awake. I moved away going downstairs to see if breakfast was prepared. I wanted her to feel at home staying here for it was her home now; she was my Luna.

"Good morning, alpha," Vanessa greeted me on my way to the kitchen.

I stopped her right away.

"Vanessa, please check on Avery if she is awake and give her one of your best clothes for today," I told her.

"Yes alpha," she answered.

"Also tell her I'm downstairs waiting on her," I again told Vanessa.

"Yes alpha," she again answered me and hurriedly went upstairs.

As she did, I went straight into the kitchen.

"Are you ready for breakfast, sir?" Ivy asked me.

"Bring it into the living room and if you see my mate coming downstairs inform her where I am," I told her as I turn around exiting the kitchen.

"Yes sir," she answered.

I sat in my favorite seat in the living room. A cozy dark brown couch. Two minutes later I saw Ivy entering the living room with my breakfast. She placed it before me on a small round table.

"Why am I seeing only one cup, one plate, and not two?" I questioned her.

She stood before me nervously.

"My Luna now lives within this house," I reminded her. "So, go and prepare her breakfast as well!" I shouted angrily at her.

Quickly she ran from the living room. Within less than a minute I saw her returning with a cupful of orange juice, toast, bacon, and egg. She places it before me, apologies, and left. I waited impatiently on my mate to join me for breakfast. I too could not wait to see the dress she will be wearing. She had an incredibly attractive body that could make any male wolf harden.

I looked towards the entrance of the living room quickly seeing my beautiful mate as finally arrived. I could not stop staring at her white long, beautiful hair, her blue eyes, and her cute face. I Fought hard in stopping myself from staring at her not wanting to make her feel uncomfortable and there I saw something I hated. The dress Vanessa had given her was an ugly washed-out dress. It sits very well on her curvaceous body, but it no longer looked wearable.

"Sit and eat," I instructed her.

As soon as she has completed her breakfast, I had planned to take her out to purchase some new clothes. She was my Luna and had to always dress beautifully, but first I had to make her change into a better dress to carry her out.

"I'm not hungry," my mate answered me.

I stared at her, fed up with her stubborn behavior as she stands before me; refusing to sit as well. I slowly took up a piece of bacon and started to devour my meal. If she is hungry, she will have to eat. She watched me as I completed my breakfast still refusing to eat. I got up and walked towards her staring at her from head to toe. My stubborn mate stares at me as well scared of what I was doing. I moved my eyes away from her and shouted.

"Yes, alpha," Vanessa answered and came running into the living room.

"Do you have any better clothes you can lend her?" I inquired her.

"Sorry, but, no alpha, answered Vanessa. The other clothes that I have or too small. Her body is too curvy," she explained.

I glance at my sexy young mate seeing it was damn true. I tried not to look at her for too long; for inside, I was dying to touch her as mates do.

"Okay, I answered. Give me a minute," I said, as I went upstairs.

I entered my room and dig down into my closet remembering I had a black coat I had purchase for Paisley before she had secretly runoff. I held the coat within my hands remembering why she had left. I then felt sad hating about what I will say to her today. I shook my head trying not to think about it and hurriedly went back downstairs.

"Here, put this on," I instructed my young mate.

I was surprised she obeyed me. Probably she hates the dress as well, I thought. Her body jumped frighteningly as I helped her button the coat. After I was through. I again called Vanessa.

"Yes, sir," she answered, as she again came running.

"Please lend her a pair of your shoe, a good one," I told her.

Vanessa hurriedly went upstairs and came back down with a black, ankle booty. It looked new and much better than the dress. They fitted my mate very well.

We both exited the house and soon we were within the main area of Wereville. It was a popular area of the land and a place of business. It was always crowded. I held my mate closely beside me while the crowd stares at my Luna only as we walked past by. My body jumped as I felt my mate quickly moved away from me and ran into a store, I was not interested in taking her. It only sold second-hand clothes. I wanted my Luna to wear the best clothes. As she entered the store. I held her by her right hand pulling her out. We were then stopped by the owner. An old grey-haired lady.

"Hello," she greeted us.

"Sorry, we are in the wrong store," I apologized as I pulled my mate from the store.

"I no longer sell second-hand clothes, the lady said, stopping me. I have stylish clothes in here that will fit her, perfectly," she told me.

I was surprised she no longer did but curious as to why my mate was so interested in this store out of all the best-looking ones we passed.

I let go of her hand allowing her to shop where she felt comfortable.

"I'll wait outside," I told my mate. "She needs nightwear and many other clothes," I told the owner as I exited the store. I wanted to stay and watched her try on the new clothes and seeing how beautiful she looked within them, but knowing how timid she is I would have made her felt uncomfortable. It was much better if I stay outside.

I stood at the entrance of the store waiting on her. I later wished I had waited inside, seeing Paisley.

"Did you thought about what I said last night?" she asked me.

How am I going to answer her moon goddess and not break her heart? I asked the moon goddess; hoping she would understand the difficult situation I was in and give me an answer in helping me.