Chapter 29|First Fight.

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ISABELLE

I raised my elbow up, turned to him with a demure smile and spoke
"Anyone you're comfortable with. You've never told me anything about your mother."

I felt his arm tense at my quiet request.

"Or someone else if she's a touchy subject, these days I feel like some things return to me like pain, I felt a sort of pain when I thought of my parents. I can't remember who and how they were but I felt a tightening in my chest when I thought of them. Maybe they died or something but being in the dark makes me feel restless and hollow." I went on, in a way I felt like I was comforting both himself and me.

He pressed soft kisses to my fingers one by one in a soothing gesture to make the pain go away and surprisingly it did leave.

Alex took my face in his hand, "I've never known my mum but I've heard stories about her and how she was loved by everyone in our Pack. She died at my birth, she was human." He eyes became distant. "I killed her." He voiced out in a very low voice I had to strain my ears to hear.

"Alexander look at me." I urged him kicking back the comforter wrapped around me until he was lying down flat on the bed while I hovered over him. When I got him to look into my eyes with that haunted expression clouding his gaze I began speaking. "You didn't kill your mother, you hear me?"

He smiled wistfully, "She died giving birth to a werewolf that was too big for her small frame. Goddammit Isabelle I killed her. I fucking killed her. I took away my Father's mate, his soulmate, I took away the only.."

"You didn't." I raised my voice just like he did.

Alexander pushed my hands away from his body and got up from the bed stark naked, along the way he took hold of his pants and put it on. When I repeated his actions I slid into the nightdress I wore earlier and followed closely behind him.

I got to him in swift strides and my hands wrapped themselves around his midriff on their own accord. He tensed at my touch but I was having none of it.

How could he let such a sick thought nag his conscience as it was and for only God knows how long.

"I don't know what the fuck you're doing but being here is actually a bad idea. Thank God I thought about this before it got too late." His muscles tensed as he spoke.

"Wait, what do you mean? What's a bad idea?" I asked without meaning to know the answer to my question because I had a bad feeling about it. "Are you pertaining to us being here?" I asked again when the silence became too deafening.

"Yes I am," He curtly replied, fisting his hands hard. "Though my being here is normal if not necessary, yours not so much." His jaw set in a determined clench.

Realization dawned on me. "I see, so why didn't you leave me alone at the bar, you should've let me have some nice time in a crowd of strangers."

Alex pushed back slightly from the wall he was facing. "That's not your scene." He growled.

I willed back tears not wanting to appear the weakling. "So? Maybe that's the scene I prefer over this, you should've let that guy have his chance maybe we would've had a good time together." Okay that last part was to see his reaction and boy did I get one.

In one of his inhumane movements he had me clutching the railing surrounding the rooftop breathing heavily. He bore down his weight on me as he held my head in a hold that was supposed to hurt but surprisingly did not.

"One mention of that man and I promise you I'll make it all the more obvious for every other man on earth to know you're taken. I'll mark you everywhere and kill every fucker who dares to glance at you with the briefest sexual thought in his head. I swear it." He growled at my face, his minty breath was fanning my face from the short distance between us and I could feel the rise and fall of his breathing like it was tangible.

"Then why are you being like this?" I asked to have a better understanding of what's gotten him this worked up in a flash. "Why can't we be together?"

"You're human. I'm a wolf, I'll hurt you Isabelle." He explained and I felt like I was being doused with freezing water. He was using this excuse to lay me off, he had the time of his life with me only to let me down with what had to be the silliest excuse.

"Arabella will fit the wolf in you more perfectly, bravo." I clapped my hands in mock amusement.

Alexander's eyes scrutinized me before they became concerned. He wrapped his hands around my face, framing it as his anger quickly dissipated and got replaced by worry. "I don't want to hurt you."

"But you're doing a great job of hurting me right now. You should've thought about our differences way back before making a move on me, before making promises you had no wish to keep. Before you took me out of the only world I knew and exposed me to yours. You should've thought hard before doing all this." I managed to say while pushing back the insolent tears that were threatening to erupt given the slightest encouragement to flow.

"I don't mean it that way." His hold loosened on my arm.

"We're going in circles, be straightforward please." I pushed my head up to meet his gaze firmly.

"I can't bear to see myself inflicting the pain of childbirth on you. My mother was a human with a small frame, she was fragile but no one thought my birth could come with complications as it did. She died before she could hold her child in her arms, she left a shell of a man in my Father and an infant who wanted nothing but a mother's touch. I can't be as selfish as my Father was."

"He wasn't selfish, you said it, no one knew there could be complications ." I argued.

"They didn't know because they refused to talk about it knowing she was human and frail, the birth of a wolf especially an Alpha's offspring was always hard for even a werewoman to bear talkless of a human whose bones weren't made to accomodate the harshness of a wolf's birth. My Father was selfish because he gave himself the privilege and security of not thinking of any other possible outcome other than the birth of his heir. I won't give myself that much assurance that the birth of my heir could be the reason why I lose you. God! Even the thought of it frustrates me." His fisted hand came down on the railing with a thud, the metal seemed like it slightly bended.

"So what does that mean? You can't have me and not have me all the way you know? Arabella is a werewolf while I'm human, she is much stronger than I am and could bear the birth of a werewolf more than I can." At this point I was rambling and I knew it, I didn't even know I was moving farther away from him until I reached the doors that led to the elevator to take me down.

"Where the fuck are you going to?" He asked, the urgency lining his statement and the sound of his steps behind me told me how close he was. He spun me around abruptly, Alexander's nostrils flared as his pupils dilated.

I found in me a courage unlike anything I'd ever felt before. So I stood for myself.

"I'm giving you space to decide on who fits you better, the human or the wolf. And oh, mind you the human might not be available when you're done weighing your choices."

"You're not going anywhere Isabelle."

"So what if I am?" I asked, glaring straight it into his eyes.

"You are mine." He growled harshly, "You are mine Isabelle, mine in every sense and there's nowhere you'll go to that I won't know."

"You're bordering on obsession and it's not good for a man of your position." I declared still standing up for myself.

"I don't fucking care. You told me you love me, why are you giving up on me so easily?"

I scoffed at how he was close to turning the tables on me. "You told me how fragile I am for you, or are you embarrassed to be seen with a mere human? Hmm? Maybe you'd rather be with the wolf that you loathe than the human you like."

He found amusement in my antics and caged me in his embrace, with the tip of his finger he raised my head up and covered my lips with his.

"Feisty Belle turns me on. I never said I was letting you go I was only pointing out the obvious, I don't want to hurt you. I love you and I don't want another mention of Arabella's name tonight or anyone else's, I never said anything about her being better than you. It's you I want now and it's you I'll want forever. I just need a little bit of time to make you mine for the whole wide world to see." He assured me, taking me bridal style into the elevators and ditching our outdoorsy setting.