Chapter twelve

Chapter twelve - To save innocent.

"A mind full of fear has no space for dreams."

[L I L L I T H]

"Explain," my voice was quiet, yet demanding. This boy has gotten himself into significant trouble, and with all honesty, I must admit that I'm trying to find anything, just anything to justify his actions.

"Do I have to? Really?" he groaned in annoyance.

"I said, explain," I raised the tone of my voice a little for him to understand that this is serious. I can't let him go around and do whatever he wants just because he thinks he's grown enough.

"I tried to save her, ok? I had no other choice to mark her so that the assassins wouldn't get her, and they wouldn't start a war. It was me marking her or her getting killed on the spot. Imagine what her father would do, we all know how powerful and ruthless he is," Lukas sighed, looking down at the grass which covered hill we were sitting on. I hugged him from the side and placed a gentle kiss on his cheek.

"So you chose her," I finally muttered.

"No, mother, I didn't. I didn't want to choose her, or anyone else matter of fact. I wasn't ready, and I'm still not. And it hurts, it hurts so much to know that she hates me. Even though I don't want her, I can't stand the thought of being around her.. My thoughts are driving me crazy, I want to stay away, but it hurts, so much," he now sobbed.
As strong as he was, now knowing everything I've been through, it breaks my heart to see him like this.
I know he tried to protect her, to save her, yet at the end of the whole mess, he hurt himself.

"Lukas, I need you to tell me more. Can you? Please?" I begged.

"About two weeks before the incident we found out what he was up to," Lukas sighed and got up on his feet, looking at the sky, his vision clouded as he sinks into memories.
"The King had paid some underground vampire assassins to kill Alphas daughter, to break the peace process between Vampires and Werewolves. Soon we found out that crazy old man was afraid of those two species mating and mixing. He was trying to do everything in his power to keep clean bloodline and make sure that it looks like Vampires have attacked them. During my training, we kept planning on how to keep them away from Alpha, and I decided to volunteer.
I went with coven best warrior to stop the assassin I had to kill him.
Unfortunately, we came a little late, and just as we spotted him, Alpha approached boulders.
It all happened so fast, way too fast for my liking.
The assassin was talking to Alpha, and I ran after his little helper who headed for the car, where the little girl was hiding. Mother, I swear I didn't think straight that instant, I didn't.
Somehow the thought of my trainer telling me about chosen beloved popped in my mind.
I knew that Vampires wouldn't touch her if she bears my mark, yet I didn't think about consequences", he stopped, taking in a deep breath as few painful tears rolled down his cheeks.

"Lucas," I whined, trying to wipe my tears away.

"And the worst part... The worst part is that since I caught just a glimpse of her scent, I couldn't resist. Since I saw her face, the painful and hateful expression, her eyes held keep haunting me. I'm so drawn to her, even though I know she isn't mine.
She wasn't meant to be mine in the first place.

I've trapped her against her will when I was stupid enough to call myself a hero for thinking that I saved her life. I want her, I want her so bad, yet I can't.
She isn't mine.." he whispered the last part and disappeared in the woods.

"Lukas!" I yelled in a panic over and over again, hoping he will come back. I didn't move a muscle; all I did was call for him and cry. My boy is hurting for what he thought was a noble action to save someone's life. I can't stand the thought of him running off. I can't stand the thought of him being away from me at this state.
I kept crying until my throat felt sore, and all my tears cried out.

"Lukas, come back, please," I whispered to myself.

When it hit midnight, I gave up.
"You know where to find me when you're ready. I'll be waiting. Come home, I promise we will move away from here, I will do anything to take the pain away," I yelled in one breath before turning around and getting back to my car.

The whole car ride to the house I just got used to calling home was quiet. I kept thinking about his words.
The hint of pain, which never left his voice, was haunting me.
There is nothing more painful than a mother forced to see how her child is hurting. Ant the worst part to add is that I'm helpless, I can't do anything to take the pain away. I can't make him forget.

I reached my house without noticing it. Getting out of the car was severe enough; I felt exhausted from everything that has happened during the day.
Yet, I had a goal set on my mind. Determination easy visible in my eyes for sure, I went to unlock the house with one thing on my mind.
I'm packing our stuff today; whenever he comes back, we're leaving.
We're leaving and never coming back.

I went into the living room, uneasy feeling tingling down my spine.

"Thank God you're here, I thought something might have happened," someone spoke from the fairest corner of my living room, making me jump in a surprise.