Chapter 12

Sakshi:

I asked him again.

"Where are we going?"

"Won't you come if I didn't say?" Randhir said.

"No, no. I will come," I said.

"Even if you say you won't come, I know how to take you. So, don't worry about it."

Randhir took me to the same orphanage. I followed him to inside.

"From today for the next fifteen days, you will be working here. On that day, you asked me whether you are a maid to them. Yes, from today you are a maid to those children. Work carefully. You will stay and eat with them for these fifteen days."

Randhir took me to the administrator.

"Madam, from today for the next fifteen days, Sakshi will work here as a caretaker for the children. Don't treat her as my wife. Just treat her as a maid. One more thing is make her to do all the works alone. If she refuses to do anything call me."

His words really made me to cry. How could he humiliate me before outers? U couldn't confront him because questioning him makes him more angry. Randhir signaled me to go out. I immediately went out from there. But I heard their conversation.

"Randhir, I think Sakshi is pregnant. How can she do all the works alone? What if anything happens to your baby?"

"Nothing happens to her or the baby, madam. She should work. Let her do it."

Randhir came to me.

"Work carefully. If you commit any mistake, I will be coming here. Should I say what will I do if you make me to come here?"

"I...I..will b careful."

For the first three days, I felt difficult to stay there. I didn't understand how could those children eat that food. It's not bad but not as good as I have everyday. As he ordered me, I have to eat same food and sleep on the floor like them. In my whole life, it was the first time to sleep on the floor. From my childhood, I used to have different kinds of food. I never ate food cooked in the morning at nite. I always used to order my favourite food to the maids to prepare for me. I used to sleep on the beautiful cot with a soft mattress and pillow. Bed sheets must be changed everyday. This is my way of living. My room is spacious and comfortable. I can't sleep without AC. But here even this fan is working slow. I am unable to sleep. But I have to sleep because I have to do many works in the orphanage i.e. cleaning, cooking, washing clothes and everything. But I did it only for three days.

After that those kids became my friends. They helped me in every work. I used to tell them stories at nite and their questions made me smile. Slowly I started loving them. I liked spending time with them. I played with them. However, I can see pain in the eyes of every child there. Once I asked them about that. Then a twelve years old girl answered me.

"Sister, As I am a girl, my parents left me in a busstop. I cried for the whole night. After that one uncle brought me to this orphanage."

"Are you angry with your parents? If you develop and reach a good position, will you take revenge against them?"

"No, I love them. Whatever they did is just because of this society. I will prove this society wrong. I will prove what a girl can do. I will prove that a girl is equal to ten sons. I will make my parents proud of me. I will give them the love and with my love I will change their opinion on a girl child."

I was surprised to listen to her words.

"Sister, my parents were expired. My father was a soldier. He expired in the war. My mom loved him so much. She is unable to bear it and died along with my dad," said another boy.

"I don't understand why these parents prioritize profession over children," I said remembering my parents.

"No, sister. I am proud of my dad. He expired to save the xrores of Indians. I love my parents. My goal is also to become a soldier who fights for our nation," said that boy and that reply left me in shock.

Everyone told how they came to this orphanage. Some of them didn't even see their parents atleast once because they left them when they are infants. But none of them hates their parents. They all said atleast once they want to meet their parents.

"Didi, Randhir bhaiya told us many times. We shouldn't beg for love. We should share our love to all. That's it. In return atleast few people will love us truly. That's why I want to be in a position where I can give my love to all. Randhir bhaiya is my inspiration," another one from them said.

Then, I remembered what Randhir said once to me. He too came from here. It means he is an orphan. He faced all these troubles. But today he became the one who runs this orphanage. If we give love, at least a few people will love us truly. Randhir gave pure love to me and today, I love him so much which is making me to bear everything he says and does to me. But unfortunately his love turned into hatred leaving me in tears and that's my fault. If I give love to him atleast maybe one day Randhir will love me back.

Fifteen days completed and Randhir came to take me. However, I felt not to go from here. In these fifteen days, I developed a good rapport with these children. He is right they are pure from their heart. They are so sweet and loving. Now I realised why he left me here. He is rude to me but he wants to change me. I don't understand why can't he do that with love. I want old Randhir to be back. I really miss him. I am about to go but children hugged me. I really don't want to leave them but I need to go. I convinced them saying that every week I will come there. I gave chocolates to everyone. Randhir gave clothes to me to distribute to them. He bought clothes for every child. I distributed them. I turned back to see him and he is playing with children with a water pipe. I went there to call him. He took the pipe from the hands of a child and turned back. Water fell all over me.

"Didi, take that pipe and pour water on him. Help us, please," children said and pushed me towards him.

Randhir held me as I lost balance to stand. I looked at him. He is already staring at me. We had an eye lock for sometime and his eyes showed love for me which he hides from me. He made me to stand slowly. I saw the pipe fallen down. I took it and poured water on him.

"Hey, what are you doing?" Randhir said, shouting at me.

"Didi is supporting us," children said and I gulped with fear as I understood that he is angry with me.

"Really? So, now you love your didi than me," Randhir said.

"She is so sweet. We love this new di so much," the children said, making me smile.

"We shouldn't trust anyone and love that easily. There will be a few people who breaks our heart by pretending love towards us hiding their true intentions," Randhir said and tears occupied my eyes. He snatched the pipe from my hands and gave it to them.

"Change your dress and come. We are leaving now."

I have changed my dress and got into the car. Randhir started the car.

"How did you promise them that you will come every week there? Do you think I will permit you?"

I leaned on his shoulder and kissed on his cheek. He is surprised.

"What are you doing? I am driving. If anything happens to my baby; I will kill you."

"I love you, Randhir," I said.

"We will go every week to the orphanage. Now stop your drama," Randhir said.

I don't know why but now his words are not affecting me. I just smiled and leaned my head on his shoulders. We reached the home. Still he is not talking to me properly.

"I am sorry for behaving like that with my parents."

Randhir looked at me but didn't say anything.

"Please, talk to me," I requested Randhir.

"Ok. But on one condition."

"What?"

"You should apologise your parents."

"Sure, I will apologize them for hurting them," I said.

Randhir came to me and gave the necklace to me which he brought for my birthday.

"I think you deserve it now," Randhir said.

"Help me to wear," I said.

He took the necklace and made me to wear. He slowly touched my back making me blushed. He kissed me on the back and then turned me towards him. He looked at my lips and I closed my eyes. He slowly kissed me.

"You are looking beautiful today."

I just hope he should be like this loving me forever. But I know he won't give this love to me until he trusts me. And I don't know how to make him trust me. He kissed my back again and I clutched my sari.

"I missed you so much," He whispered in my ears.

"I too missed u."

"Why didn't you call me at least once?"

"You didn't gave my mobile to me."

"You can call me from the landline."

"I called twice from there but you didn't pick the call. Why don't you call me at least once?"

He kissed my neck. I bit my lip. His touch makes me senseless making me forget his anger and rudeness.

"I came everyday to see you but you didn't see me. I love you, Sakshi."

Randhir kissed my cheeks and lips. I blushed and he took me to the bed in his arms.

He touched my face with his hand. He slowly rubbed his finger over my lips.

"Do you love me?" Randhir said.

"Yes, I love you so much."

He slowly moved his hands on my belly. He removed my sari aside. I hugged him clenching his shirt.

"Will you love me even if I lose all this wealth and status?"

"Yes, I love you and will love you forever even if you lose everything. That's why I cancelled my marriage with Ajay two years back and came to you. But I went back as I couldn't face you."

He slowly removed his hands on me and broke the hug. I looked at him.

"Now tell me why did you leave Ajay?"

I understood till now he made me senseless to make me tell him the truth. I got off from the bed and tried to go. He pulled me towards him. I fell over him and he smiled looking at me. His smile is so cute. He is really handsome. I stared at him for sometime. He kissed my lips slowly.

"I will make you to tell me the whole truth very soon, sweety."

He kissed me again and made me to lie on the bed. I lowered my eyes with blushing. He started kissing me again.

"Switch off the light, please." I said.

He smiled and switched it off. I felt his love today. I didn't know but felt a change in him. Did he know the truth? Did Ajay tell him what happened and why I refused to marry him? Did Randhir come to know that I was the one who cancelled the marriage with Ajay? I felt his love and an unintended smile flashed on my lips. He left me after sometime.

"I love you, Sakshi. Good night."

"Love you too. Good night "

I turned another side to sleep but he turned me towards him and hugged me. I blushed and hugged him back.