Chapter 20

Another month too passed by. The doctor gave delivery date to me. Randhir didn't show up till now from that day. I didn't understand why fate is playing with my life like this. Only once I said him to go away from me. But from that day, he started going far and far away from me. I am thinking about him and suddenly I got pains.

I didn't know what happened next as I lost conscious. When I opened my eyes, I saw Randhir infront of my eyes. He came near to me and sat besides me.

"How are you?"

"Fine. Baby?"

"Doctor is checking."

"Did you see baby?"

"Hmm."

He did not talk properly to me. I turned my head from him to avoid tears from him. Suddenly I felt his touch. I looked him. He sat on the bed and kept my head in his lap caressing my hairs. He bent down and kissed my forehead.

"I missed you so much, Sakshi. Two months are more than enough for me to know that I can't live without you."

I hold both his hands and kissed them.

"I am sorr..."

"Do you want me to say these words? It never happens. Now I will see who will save you from me. Tomorrow we are going home."

Should I be happy for going to my home? or sad as new kind of torture is going to start again? Suddenly I heard baby crying. I looked at the entrance. Nurse gave baby to Randhir. He kissed baby. I am about to take baby from him.

"Don't touch my baby. Till you accept your fault and reveals the truth, you should never touch our baby."

He took away baby from me. Next day he took me home. Randhir took me to the room and told me not to do any work till I recover. Sneha started caring for me. Randhir didn't really mean to say I must stay away from baby. He himself gave baby to me. She is so cute like angel. I forgot my grief to some extent, playing with her.

The only thing which is hurting me now is ignorance of Randhir. He is not talking to me unless I speak to him. His rudeness is better than this silence. Because at least he showed his anger at me at that time but now there is no emotional relationship existed between us. I want to meet my parents once. He is working in our room and I laid on the bed making baby sleep. Baby slept after sometime. I went to Randhir and stood in front of him. He looked at me.

"Did you have something to say?"

"I..I want..to...go to my maternal home."

He kept his face seriously.

"I mean only for two hours. I will just meet them and come back. That too only if you permit me."

"You can go anywhere at anytime. I don't care. From now, you no need to tell anything to me. Do as you want."

Till now I felt as if I am in a confinement as he didn't permit me to go anywhere. But now he said I can go anywhere. None of them gave happiness to me. If he said those words with love and trust, I would have felt happy.

I wiped my tears.

"Ok. Thank you. I am happy that I got freedom at least now."

He looked at me shockingly. I went off and slept. Next day I woke up and waited till evening. In the evening I went to a bar. If Randhir is not going to care then I no need to change. Sakshi Arora will be back again. After one hour, I lost control over me and started behaving madly with alcohol affect.

I noticed bar manager calling Randhir. Within fifteen minutes, he came there. Seeing him, I was afraid of him. He came near to me. He looked at me and I gulped with fear. He grabbed my arm and took me to the car. He threw me in the car and we reached home. We went to the room and closed the door.

"What's the hell are you doing there?"

He raised his hand but dropped suddenly. I composed myself to answer him.

"You said I can do whatever I want. I no need to change if you are not with me."

He held my wrist tightly.

"It doesn't mean you can cross the limits. Still you are my wife and will be my wife forever. Just remember that before doing anything. Otherwise it will be necessary for me to teach you how to behave."

I smiled hearing his words. He looked at me confusingly.

"Are you really drunk?"

"Ye....Yes."

He kept his hands on my waist and pulled me to him. He kissed me slowly and then he bit my lower lip. As I opened my mouth to scream, he met my tongue with his. I closed my eyes. He deepened kiss. I encircled my arms around him feeling unknown happiness. Slowly tears rolled in my eyes as I felt time should stop at this moment.

He left me. I bent my head with shyness.

"You are not drunk."

I looked at him. So till now, he didn't kiss me with love but tested me whether I am drunk or not. All of my happiness vanished. I turned back to go. But he again pulled me towards him and kissed me with same intensity. My eyelids closed. I totally gave myself to him in that moment.

"You acted as you are drunk to make me say that you are my wife. Ok, tomorrow we will go to your parents. You can do anything you want except making me angry by degrading my respect in the society."

I nodded. He sat on the bed and asked me to sit beside him.

"Why did you marry Aayudh, when you love me this much?"

I didn't answer anything for sometime. Then I spoken what's in my heart.

"I can say only one thing to you. My heart, my soul and my body belongs only to you. Every right on me is only your's. I didn't accept anyone till now as I accepted you. I didn't lose my virginity before marrying you."

"Sakshi, I am not angry at you as you married someone before me. Even if something happened to you, still I am ready to accept you because I love you. But I want to know the truth. Only then I can save you."

He cupped my face.

"Do you really love me?"

"Yes."

"Then tell me the truth which is making you fear for. I promise I won't be angry at you after knowing your past. If love is not the reason for marrying him, is it fear the reason behind your marriage?"

He hugged me from the side.

"First relax yourself and try to trust me. I may be your husband now but we are friends initially. So tell me your past as a friend. I promise I won't leave you."

I am unable to decide anything.

"Ok. You no need to tell anything to me. I love you. I want you and baby to be happy forever. So, I decided to forget it and move on. I didn't want to hurt you anymore."