Chapter 36

Randhir PoV:

I went to hospital to see Sakshi. She is in conscious. Her shoulder has a bandage. It didn't seem as accident to me. Something is fishy. However, I went to her and sat on the chair beside her. She noticed me the moment I entered into her room, but she didn't say anything. I touched her forehead and caressed her hairs.

"How did it happen, Sakshi?" I asked slowly.

"Small accident," she said.

"Whatever, you are fine, that's enough for me," I said and went near to her face to kiss on her forehead. But she turned away her face.

I stopped kissing her. The doctor came to check her.

"How is she, doctor?"

"She is fine. But need rest. I will discharge her after a week," the doctor said.

Before I say ok, Sakshi started speaking.

"No, doctor. I need to go home. I don't like to stay in the hospital," she said.

"It's ok, doctor. I will take care of her," I said and the doctor asked me to complete the formalities.

I took her to the home. After sometime, I went to her with the dinner. I made her to sit on the bed slowly making her to lean on the pillow which I placed on backpost of the bed. I tried to feed her.

"I can eat," she said.

"I too can help you to eat. Don't behave as a kid, Sakshi" I said slowly feeding her again.

"Please, I want to eat by myself. I don't want any care or love, Randhir. Because I am not expecting that from anyone now. However I can manage because I learnt to manage everything by myself from very tender age. No one cared for me till now and I didn't want anyone's care too. Leave me, please," she shouted.

My eyes filled with tears understanding her pain. She became emotionless and insensible because of me. I want to bring back my Sakshi who smiles, loves and enjoys life. I made her a lifeless human with my words and torture. She is not ready to believe me and I am not ready to leave her. I want to make her happy.

I didn't say anything and gave plate to her. She is unable to hold the plate and eat by herself. She is trying hard. Finally she tried to move her injured hand. I took the plate from her.

"Enough. Eat now. I have to feed baby too," I said keeping food in her mouth.

She ate calmly without fighting. I gave her water and tablet. She took it. I kept plate aside and she looked at me. I cupped her face and kissed her on the forehead. She looked at me seriously.

"I love you, Sakshi. I will surely bring back the smile that missed on your face. I will do anything for that," I said.

She didn't show emotions. I decided. I can't sit idle and see her going away from me. I will work on making her happy and gaining her love. I fed baby and laid down on the bed beside her. She gave questioning look to me.

"What?" I asked.

"Why are you sleeping here? We are not using the same room from many days, right?" She asked.

"You are not well, Sakshi. If you need anything, it will be a problem. So I will sleep in this room till you recover," I said.

"I can manage," she said.

"I am tired. Good night," I said and acted as if I am asleep.

I slowly turned towards her and placed my hand on her waist. She tried to take away my hand. I hugged her and tightened the grip without touching her injured hand. She is trying hard to get out of my grip by pinching my hand. I smiled. As she is not facing me, she can't see my smile.

Suddenly she started coughing hard. I got up immediately and gave water to her. She looked at me.

"Are you ok, Sakshi?" I asked with concern.

"I am perfectly ok. I will be more fine, if you stay away from me. I know you were not asleep and intentionally hugged me. Please, leave me. I want to be alone. Your closeness is making me suffocated. I can't even breathe when you are with me. I am dying every second when you are around me. I didn't even thought to inform you about accident, but driver informed you without telling me. I hate you and your presence. I am staying here only for my Nimagna (baby). Please leave me alone," she said with tears and joining her hands.

She is in pain as her hand got hurt as she moved it.

"Sakshi."

"Get lost from here," she said.

"I will sleep on the couch. You are not well. If you need anything or baby requires anything, it will be a problem," I requested.

"Why can't you understand that you are my problem?" she said seriously.

I lost my patience now.

"Shut up, Sakshi. I am your husband, not your problem. I agree I hurt you in the past but asking me to go away when you are unwell is really ridiculous. Ok, I will stay away from you. I won't touch you. I am sleeping on the couch. If you want anything, call me," I said seriously and settled on the couch.

How to make her forgive me? How can I win her heart? How to make her accept me as her husband? I want to give her my love, care and make her happy and peaceful. But she is hating me. Hating me to the extent which can kill me. I can't bear her anger but not hatred. I love you Sakshi. I will surely try to win your heart again.

I looked at her. She is sleeping. She is so cute as an angel. I want to kiss her immediately but controlled myself. I slept seeing her innocent and lovely face.