Chapter 21

Randhir behaving normally with me as if nothing happened.He is caring for me and baby. He is not at all serious with me.

His behaviour is killing me with guilty. I should have said him everything before our marriage or atleast after marriage. I really broke his trust. But still he forgave me even without compelling me to tell about my past.

"What are you thinking so seriously, my dear wife?"

I looked at him and smiled to hide my feelings. Is it really true that I love him? If it's true how can I hide my past from him? He is my husband and he has the right to know about me. But I am hesitating to share it with him. I am unable to look into his eyes atleast. I didn't deserve his pure love and forgiveness.

Sometimes forgiveness is more painful than rudeness. I have to be as honest as he is to me. I must tell everything to him. Only then I can move freely with him. Till then I can't.

He patted on my shoulder.

"Are you ok?"

"Yes."

"Your phone is ringing from a long time. But you are not receiving the call."

He handedover my mobile to me. I looked who's calling. It's Ajay. I am scared seeing Randhir.

"I..I am really... not in touch ...with him. I am not talking to him from 4-5 months. Please, trust me."

Randhir looked at me seriously.

"I didn't ask you all that, Sakshi. I trust you. I still feel guilty for doubting and talking so rudely blaming you and your character. Don't make me to feel more guilty by getting scared of me. You can talk to Ajay or anyone. Be as you want."

"Are you angry at me?"

"What?"

"Then why are you saying that I can do whatever I want? I...."

"I am not angry with you. I am saying you can do anything because I trust you. I know you won't hurt me anymore."

I hugged him.

"I am sorry, Randhir. I thought to tell you about Aayudh before our marriage. But I got scared seeing your behaviour on our engagement day. Even after the marriage, I tried to tell you. But you doubted me everytime and just for talking to someone in the wedding party, you became very angry and punished me. So I thought if I tell about my marriage, you would kill me."

Randhir PoV:

I remembered the incident where I burnt her tongue for just saying hello to my former business partner. I didn't understand how I lost my sense at that time. I am so rude to her. If I am that rude though she didn't do any mistake, how can she expect me to understand her when she tells the truth about her marriage.

It's all my fault to suffer her that much. I insulted her many times. Everytime I pointed towards her character and blaming her saying that she seduces every man with whom she talks. Now I really feel guilty for my words which I spoken to her in anger.

She really loves me. If not there is no need to stay with me bearing my torture. She even bore torture and insults of Sneha for me. She worked as a maid in her own house. How could I be so stupid to her?

She betrayed me before the marriage. But there is no need to hurt her that much. I should have given at least one chance to her to rectify her mistakes. Atleast from now, I will try to keep her happy. But, first I must solve this problem of Sneha. I don't understand why Sneha is so silent and caring for Sakshi. She may be planning something. Because of her, I can't speak or apologise properly to Sakshi. I need to know about Sneha. Why she wants to take revenge on Sakshi? I should know the reason, only then I can save Sakshi from her.

"Randhir, I need little time. I will tell everything to you. Can you please give me some more time?"

"It's ok, Sakshi. Take your own time. You can tell me only when you feel confortable to share it with me. Whether you reveals it or not, my love for you won't change. I can assure you that."

"May I come in Mr and Mrs. Randhir?"

We both looked at the side where the voice came from. It's Sneha. We broke hug and got away from each other.

"Can't you knock the door before coming?" Randhir shouted at her.

"I should have knocked it but I think you both are not in a mood to listen to the sound of knocking of the door. You are busy in romancing."

"Aft all I am romancing with my wife and not with someone else. You better realise it."

"Did you forget the promise you gave to me? Randhir, Tell me when is our marriage?"

Sakshi looked at me with fear hearing about her marriage with me. I took her close infront of Sneha and hugged her from the side.

"She is my wife. I am not going to leave her at any cost. I know how to save her. Do whatever you want."

"You may not leave her. But I don't think Sakshi will accept you after seeing this video "

She showed a clipping to us.

Sakshi PoV:

I was shocked, looking at the video. I can't see video properly as my eyes filled with tears already. How could Randhir do this to me? How could he betray me? Is his love an action? I looked at Randhir.

"It happened when you left me, Sakshi. To forget you, I chose to destroy my life."

"Get lost from here right now, Sneha," I shouted at Sneha.

Sneha went out. I sat on the floor. The scenes in the video started appearing infront of my eyes again and again. Randhir was in the drunken state with girls in the bed. I want to kill myself. Randhir didn't speak even a word to me. Whole day we both stayed in the room itself without talking to each other.

Just my one mistake spoiled the life of two persons. I spoiled my own life and his too. I thought I can rectify the mistake but now I realised it's too late. Should I accept him? Should I forgive him as it's all because of me? Or should I leave him not because he did wrong but because I am the reason behind it?