Chapter 8

Randhir PoV:

We both went to a restaurant for the dinner.

"What do you prefer to eat?" I said.

"Anything," Sakshi said, as she got mood off with my words.

"I never heard a dish with that name," I said trying to pose a joke but failed miserably.

Sakshi didn't even smile. I understood that she didn't have mood to come for this dinner. I ordered the food for both of us. I noticed that she had very little food.

"Are you ok?" I said.

"Yes, I am," Sakshi said but I found something wrong with her.

We started to our home. On the way, Sakshi slept leaning on my shoulder. We reached home and I tried waking her up but found her in a deep sleep. I lifted her in my arms and took her to our room. I removed her jewellery and covered her with a blanket.

I never saw Sakshi getting tired so soon. She was always so active and energetic. But now she is so dull. I think I should take her to the hospital tomorrow. The next day, Sakshi woke up and saw herself sleeping on the bed and covered with a blanket. She looked at me.

"Get ready. We are going to hospital," I said and Sakshi looked at me shockingly.

"Hospital?? But why?"

"Nothing, get ready fast," I said.

Sakshi got ready as soon as possible. I took her to the hospital. The doctor tested Sakshi.

"Congratulations, Mr. Randhir. Your wife is conceived. But as you said she is really so weak. I will prescribe a few medicines. Use it regularly. But natural diet helps more than medicines. Don't give her stress."

"Thank you, doctor. Thank you so much. This is the best news I have ever heard. I will take care of her," I said.

This is really a great news because now this relationship became more strong. I am happy because now Sakshi can't leave me at least for our baby.

We reached home and Sakshi went to her room followed by me. I can't stop myself anymore. I hugged her and kissed her on the forehead.

"Thank you, Sakshi. You can't even imagine how happy I am. I love you."

Sakshi didn't say anything and I couldn't find any happiness in her. I left her and went to the office. Afternoon I came back with the fruits and other natural nutritious foods for her. But I saw Sakshi with her luggage trying to leave me. I grabbed her hand and took her to the room.

"Where are you going?"

"I am leaving. I don't want this child. I want to go for abortion," Sakshi said, hurting me.

I slapped her hard. She fell on the bed. I saw bleeding from her mouth. When I heard the news that she got conceived, I thought I shouldn't hurt her anymore but still she is testing my patience. I went near her and caught her hair.

"Look, you are not allowed to do what you want. You must follow what I say. I want our child to be safe. Not opting for abortion, even if anything happens to child by mistake, that will be your last day. Take care. I don't care whether you will leave me or die after giving birth to my child. But till then you must take care of youself for my child. Did you get it?"

"Who knows whether it's your child or not? I always seduce men and have many affairs. So, this child may notbe your child," Sakshi said with tears.

Sakshi:

I know this time I have really crossed the limit. Now he will kill me for my words.

Randhir came to me. I closed my eyes scared of his anger.

"Open your eyes," Randhir said.

I opened my eyes.

"You asked me who knows whether it's my child or not. I know it's my child. It's our child. I have intentionally tortured you to take revenge for what you did in the past but I never have doubt on your character. I don't know why you left Ajay. I don't know whether you love me or not. But I am sure that you respect our marriage. You can never do anything wrong after our marriage. I trust you to that extent still I doubt you in several aspects because of which I curtailed your freedom," Randhir said.

I didn't hear anything except the three words I trust you. His trust that too after my betrayal means a lot to me. My eyes filled with tears. I hugged him and rested my head on his chest crying. He didn't say anything. He caressed my hairs. I cried my heart out. I felt relaxed. I looked at his eyes.

"Can you please give me one last chance to be a loving wife to you? I promise I will never leave you," I said.

Randhir looked at me. He left me and went from my room.

"Randhir, please..."

He left without listening.

Randhir:

I can never forgive you, Sakshi. You broke my heart. I can't leave you. But I can't love you too. Even if I forgive, I can never love you as before. I can't hate you too. You made my life a hell. I trust your character. But not your love.

I took wine bottle and broken it.

No, I shouldn't drink. If I lose control over my anger, I may harm Sakshi. She is already weak. I shouldn't hurt her. Whatever she did in the past, now she is carrying my child. I should take care of her.

I sat on the chair and tried to sleep. Sakshi came to me and sat on the floor keeping her head on my lap.

"I am sorry, Randhir. I did a big mistake. But really at that time I didn't know the value of love. I realised what is love and your importance in my life after leaving you. I thought to come back to you. But I felt I can't show my face to you. So I didn't come into your life after that. But you searched for me and married me. I know still you love me. But your anger is dominating it. This child is a new hope in our relationship. Atleast for this child you will take care of me. Before our child comes to this world, I will win your love. I love you."

She slept on my lap. I didn't move as I don't want her to know that I am awake. I tok slept unknowingly.

I woke up and surprised to see Sakshi still sleeping on my lap. Just then I realized that she sat on the floor. In sleeping posture, she is really so cute. One of the things which I like the most is to admire her beauty. After all I can do it because she is my wife. I really wonder still she is a child and now she is going to become a mother for my child.

How hard I try sometimes I can't control my love for her. I want to be harsh. I want to hate her. But it's the toughest thing in my life to do than anything else. Even now I failed to hate her. Seeing her sleeping in my lap made me to admire her beauty. I bent slowly and kissed her on the forehead. She woke up.

"I..I..am sorry. I mean I didn't want to be alone. So I came to you and...."

I understood she is finding excuse for sleeping on my lap. But I don't think it's necessary. Because she is my wife. She can come to my room anytime. I noticed that her eyes are so red. I think she cried a lot. Maybe because I didn't answer her when she asked for forgiveness. Should I trust her? Should I love her one more time? But what if she breaks my heart again?

I kept all my thoughts aside for sometime and lifted her in my arms. I took her to bedroom and dropped her on the bed.

"Take rest. Now that's what you need the most," I said.

But I know that's not what she want. She want love and care from me. I thought to leave the room but she held my hand.

"Please, don't go. Sit here."

I unintentionally nodded and sat near her caressing her hairs. She held my hands tightly. After sometime, she slept peacefully. I laid beside her and went into sleep.