CHAPTER FORTY

RONNIE POV

I wanted to see what the world had to offer me but I guess I was just naive. The world was just trying into a bad place like an eager child. I ignored the warnings from my parents. I wanted to be comforted by the man I claimed to love by being someone I wasn't.

I watched the clouds and wished that I could be a part of them at least they didn't have to worry about getting heartbroken.
I needed to be alone; it's the only way I could part with myself. I kept this secret to myself for a long time. It was eating me from the inside. I couldn't even tell my family about it or even look my parents in the eye. They would figure out my lies in no time and what will become of me when Res finds out that I've been deceiving him?

I swallowed hard when I pulled over and got out of the car. From where I stood the road was deserted and I couldn't see anymore around.

I clung to coat tightly as I began walking towards the beach watching the waves crashing against one another. Tears rolled down my cheek and I wiped them away, staring ahead like the ocean would give me all the answers I needed to know.
I slumped to my knees and cried out in pain releasing all the heartache I felt inside.

"Ron."

His voice echoed inside my head whenever he called me by nickname.
I wish he would forgive me for what happened between us years ago, maybe I wouldn't be so miserable.

"Is it too late to redeem myself?"

"I can't go back home feeling this way, I'll only need to be a shity princess."

"I can't take over the throne, I don't deserve it, I'm not even their biological daughter."

I could hear footsteps behind me. My eyes widened in shock, maybe the voice I heard wasn't entirely in my head.

"So this is where you came to hide from me."

I got up and found Res staring at me.

I swallowed hard.

My lips were still trembling.

Did he hear me?

"What are you doing here?"

"How did you find me?"

He walked towards me pointing at his motorcycle which was parked a few metres away from my car. That was strange because I didn't even hear him pull over.

"Isn't it obvious Ronnie? I followed you out here but I have something to ask you."

"What were you doing at the club kiss? I saw you coming out of the club in a hurry."

"I wanted to see someone."

"I don't believe you."

"What are you hiding?"

"I don't think that it's a coincidence that you came out of that club and there's a girl sharing the same nickname as you."

I found myself walking back. My feet were already in the water. There was no other place to hide because Res had already figured out the truth.

"You've been lying to me."

"No Res…"

I shut my ears tightly and at a distance I heard sirens. It felt like the walls around me were closing in. I could hear voices around me when I opened my eyes. Everything looked blurry.

"She's waking up."

"We need to take her to the hospital."

I tried to move but my body wouldn't cooperate with me. I felt someone carrying me placing my exhausted body on a stretcher loading me on the back of the ambulance.

"Res…"

I looked up only to find the paramedics watching me closely.

He was here. I ran into the water trying to get away from him.

When I opened my eyes I found myself lying on the hospital bed. I let out a gasp when I realized that I was actually in the hospital.

"Ronnie."

My parents.

I looked away, refusing to meet their gaze.

"I'm really angry with you Ronnie. I don't know whether to comfort you or scold you. '' Lisa muttered quietly.

She was the strict one.

She was my second mother since I had two mother's actually.

"Why would you want to take your own life?" Karliah asked angrily.

She was my second mother. I had two lesbian parents who were both royal.

I couldn't find the words to even explain myself.

"You could have died, is that how you'll waste your life?"

"You've been missing ever since your graduation and you refused to come back home with us. When we finally found you were half dead Ronnie."

"Why did you want to commit suicide?"

Karliah placed a comforting hand on Lisa's shoulder.

"Let me talk to her alone."

Lisa scoffed in annoyance and left the room.

I broke into angry tears.

"You should let me die."

She sat beside me.

"What's really going on?" She asked curiously.

"I'm not talking to you as your mother but as a friend who cares about you."

Many thoughts rushed through my mind when I thought about revealing the truth. Res would find out and I would only end up pushing him further away.

"I couldn't tell you even if I wanted to."

"I got involved with a bad crowd mom. I've fallen so deep in my grave and I don't think there's a way out."

She grasped my hand gently.

"Don't talk like that, there's always a way out, every question has a solution."

"If you don't feel comfortable talking to me or Lisa you can always talk to a shrink like you did in the past."

I nodded quietly.

"But promise me one thing."

"What is it?"

"Don't ever think about taking your life ever again."

"Okay."

"But I don't really remember what happened to me."

"I remember going at the beach so that I could vent the anger I had but after that I saw Res."

She cocked a brow at me.

"Res?"

I nodded quitely.

"Res was never at the beach honey you must have been hallucinating."

"Did you take drugs before you went at the beach?"

My lips suddenly went dry when I tried to remember what really happened that day.

"I took some sleeping pills."

"I thought they would help me sleep."

Karliah sighed softly.

"You fell asleep in the water?"

"I don't know."

"I don't want you taking any pills unless it's prescribed by the doctor or your new therapist."

I nodded quietly.

"Did you have another fight with Res?"

I looked outside the window.

"I don't want to talk about Res."

"Okay then but once you're discharged you're coming home with me and Lisa I don't want you staying by yourself."

"I can't go with you."

"I'll see a shrink if you want but I'm not coming back home."

"Ronnie."

"I've made up my mind."

The door opened and the doctor walked in for my checkup.

Res was here and I couldn't leave him alone. I wanted to stay by his side even if it meant that I had to deceive him.

He was the reason I chose to stay behind.

He was the reason I had sleepless nights.

His images continued to haunt me every moment I closed my eyes.

I saw him everywhere like a ghost. It was driving me crazy. Maybe that's why I took the pills. I wanted him to disappear.

I wanted to die thinking about him even in death.

Maybe that's why I saw him when I was drowning.

Karliah kissed me on the forehead and left the room. I bet that she went to tell Lisa the bad news.

TATIA POV

I couldn't let him stop me from finding my father so I locked him inside. He kept pounding on the door but I ignored and walked further into the hall.

A few drunk guys whistled at me.

"Hey doll face, why don't you come over here and we'll show you a good time."

I rolled my eyes at him.

"Sorry but I'm not interested."

One of his friends got up blocking my path.

He smelled like he hadn't taken a shower in days.

"No one rejects my boss, little slut."

I swallowed hard when he grabbed my wrist, dragging me towards his boss.

"Hey let me go."

"You're gonna wish that you never messed with me."

I looked around the club but I couldn't see anyone. I began regretting locking the bouncer outside.

"Help!"

They both laughed at me.

"No one is going to hear you little girl just relax. I'll be gentle and it'll be over soon."

"They'll be in pain but the pleasure will stay."

I knew what he meant.

He caressed my face and spit at him.

He glared at me.

"You little bitch!" He snarled as he raised his hand to slap me but someone held his hand stopping him.

I let out a gasp.

He grabbed the guy who wanted to slap me and held him by the collar shoving him against the wall.

The other man ran away.

"What the hell is wrong with you?!" My hero shouted angrily.

"This is a kid you were going to hurt!"

I looked away when he began beating the guy. I was still a little shaken by the incident.

He held me by my shoulders tightly.

He looked furious.

"What were you thinking kid? Sneaking into a nightclub barely dressed!" He yelled angrily.

I broke down crying.

"I just came to look for my dad…" I sobbed tearfully.