Pariah

He rushes toward me flinging her arms around me encapsulating me in a hug, A hug filled with false emotions.

Holding my face in her hands she asks me over and over.

*” Are you okay? What happened? They said you fainted?”*

I see Ivar move to the back of the room once more, although he is far away from me I can still feel his burning stare as he watches our interaction.

“I’m okay, I don’t really know what happened”


She turns to Ivar, and his gaze momentarily breaks from my own.

*” What did they say was wrong with her ?”*

**” They said she passed out from exhaustion”**

Exhaustion. If that’s what they told him why was he asking me all those questions. As soon as he finished explaining to her he fixates on me once more.

*” I knew this was all too much for you. You’ve already struggled so much and now look at you”*

“Salvi, I’m fine honestly. I feel a bit dizzy but other than that I’m golden”

I try my hardest to ignore the burning stare.

*” No. I’m not having it you need to rest, we need you at your best”*

“Who’s we?”

I know I probably shouldn’t have asked, but now I know she's hiding something from me, now I know she is working with someone else it's impossible for me to not.

*” Well I mean we, As in the pack”*

She effortlessly brushes it off and continues her facade of playing the perfect caring sister.

“Oh sorry. I must be confused still “

She brushes my hair from my face once more and begins to fiddle with the sheets on the bed.

*” You need rest Sekreta, Ivar and I will leave you to sleep”*

She walks away from the side of the bed and over to Ivar, grabbing his hand and pulling him to the door.

He reluctantly follows, but still watches me.

*” I'll come check back on you in a few hours, and i'll bring you something to eat”*


“Okay”


She ushers them both out and shuts the door, When I hear the click it’s likeI’m finally able to breathe. I lay back and try to go over the events in the library.

I remember reading those huge books and not really coming up with anything. I remember looking at an image but I cannot pinpoint what it was.

As I try to go over the events I get to a certain point in my memory each time where it goes black and I can’t see beyond that point.

I lay my head back in frustration.

“MoodGoddess if there was ever an opportunity for you to show yourself I wish it was now*

*” Why?”*

Ivars voice one again resonates in the room causing me to sit upright, why didn’t I hear him come back in.

*” I asked you a question. Why are you wishing to see the MoonGoddess”*

**AYG69T**

He walks towards me like a predator stalking its prey, bringing my knees up to my chest. I reluctantly answered him.

“I was trying to remember the events and I guess I thought she would help”

*” You thought she would help you remember why you passed out?”*

“Well yes, I mean I have a headache and things are blurry”


He moves closer to me again, dragging the armchair in the corner to the die of the bed. Placing it as close as it will come to me causing me to shuffle back.

*” You see there’s something I don’t understand though Sekreta, I’ve been trying to wrap my head around it”*

I’m trying my best not to show my hands shaking, I know that whatever I say next I have to say with confidence.

*” I’ve been trying to work out why. You see I spoke to Ildi he said you were looking for your family in those books. But your family is Salvi isn’t it ?”*

He must suspect that I’m not convinced or why would he be asking, I just have to answer him cooly and this will all be over, he won’t have to ask again.

“It’s not that Sekreta isn’t my family, but I was ripped away from it at a young age. I guess I just wanted to know who else was out there “

He stands up and grabs one of my arms, forcing it to outstretched so he can see the inner part. He traces his fingers along with the scars, where Arlo had tried to take my blood and mix it.

*” These are from him ?”*

“Yes. These are from Arlo, he tried a few times to take my blood and take my power but it didn’t work”

*” Your blood didn’t work or taking it didn’t work?”*

“Why do you want to know? I mean Salvi said I was safe here, she said I wouldn’t have to talk about this again”

He continues to trace the lines on my arms as if they were puzzle pieces, each time I try to pull away he grabs me tighter.

*” You are safe here, Salvi did not lie.”*

When he meets my gaze again his eyes are black, he is no longer in control. He loosens the grip on my arm and allows me to pull it back into myself as he leans back into the chair.

*” Are you happy ?”*

“ What do you mean ?”

*” Are you happy here ?”*

“I am happy to have found my sister yes, I’m happy to have a friend in your brother”


*” That does not answer the question. Are you happy here, in this place ?”*

“You mean in the house ?”

He nods and watches my face like he’s trying to catch a lie.

“I am happy here yes, however, there is still so much of my life I do not know”

He seems calmer, his wolf seems to want to know me better. He’s no longer trying to catch me out but merely listening to me, it is off-putting and I cannot tell if it is sincere.
*” What else would you want to know?”*

“I would like to know about where my mother grew up, I should like to know how she met my father and where they lived”

He doesn’t say anything, it is like he is waiting for me to continue. I decide it’s my turn to watch for his reaction.

“I should also like to know about mates, I should like to have a love like you and Salvi”

He lets out a low growl and his eyes quickly change back to the deep brown they were before and I know Ivar is in control once more. What is causing him to shift in and out of his own consciousness, it’s like he cannot control his wolf.

*” You would be lucky to have what I have with Salvi, it is a shame your mate will die as a traitor and you will never have the chance”*

He stands up kicking his chair away, the words leaving his mouth full of hatred and spite. Could he really hate me this much, moreover why does he hate me this much?

*” You should sleep”*

With that he exits the room slamming the door behind me, leaving mine to my tears. He really is going to kill my mate, and there is nothing I can do to stop him, I am destined to be alone.

Bringing my knees closer to my chest I sob silently, letting all my emotions flood out of me with each tear. I only have one focus now and it is to escape from this place, I do not know if it will lead me to Artemis but I know that here, I can never be truly happy.

Here I am more caged than I was before. As I continue to sob my head gets heavy and my eyes get droopy lulling me to sleep.

My dreams are seemingly just as chaotic as my mind when it is awake. I am once again in a small dark room only this time it is of my choosing.

I want to be away from the noise, I want to be left alone. I’m laying on the ground letting my eyes aimlessly wonder, staring into nothing.

**You know you cannot lay here forever **

“I am not trying to lay here forever, I am lying here for as long as I need”


**And when will that end, when will you no longer need this darkness**

“When I know what I am supposed to do”

**There are no rules on what should be done Sekreta but your actions can spark knowing**

“Must you always speak in riddles Savea”

**It is not riddles it is fact. You cannot lie here and wait for someone to tell you what to do. You must get up and do it. **


“I am not waiting for someone to tell me, I’m just waiting until I know “

**You are waiting to be told. But news flash we no longer have to wait, we can just do it if we want. You and I both know what needs to be done you are just avoiding it **

“Actually I am sleeping “

**You are hiding.**

“I am not!”

**5K5WVM**

**You are and we both know it. Right now we need to get out of here but until then we must convince people we are not a pariah. We must convince them we are all in, we have to fully commit to everything they do until a time comes where we are able to leave**

“You make it sound so easy. You make it seem as though we will be able to just slip away one day”


**And what’s to say we won’t be able to do just that unless we get out of our own head we won’t ever know will we Sekreta**

The sarcasm in Savea’s voice is enraging, because she and I both know she is right. We cannot sit and wait to be told what to do or wait for the perfect opportunity. We must create one, and to do that we must be trusted by all.

“Fine. I will do my best to blend in and just like with Arlo when the time comes I will leave and I won’t look back”


**I will be there with you every step of the way, even when we get to Artemis**

“I didn’t say I was going there”


**You didn’t need to, she will be expecting you. After all, you did warn her your sister was coming for them**

As she says the words the memory of my conversation with Aria comes flooding back each wave bringing with it a little bit more information until finally, I remember everything.

My hand instinctively goes to my pocket to reach for the book, but it’s not there. I didn’t put it back which means it is on the library floor.

I scramble out of bed, looking around for my shoes when I see the handle on the door move. I’m frozen on the spot, I have to make a choice to stay up or get back into bed and pretend to be asleep.

Those few seconds feel like hours as I scramble back into bed pulling the covers over my body and squeezing my eyes shut.

*” Sekreta”*

The steps get closer to my back.

“*Sekreta are you awake”*

A hand touches my shoulder and gently rocks me awake.

*” Sekreta wake up. Come on I snuck in here to see you”*

I rolled over to see Ildi stood smiling at me.

“I’m awake, I was just dozing”

If the lights were in Ildi would know I’m lying I’m sure I don’t look like I’ve had any sleep whatsoever.

*” Good. I bought you some food”*

He begins to pull things out of his pocket and places them on the bed.

“Why am I not surprised you came here with food”


*” Just shut up and eat, If Ivar catches me in here he may actually kill me. He’s being very weird he doesn’t want me near you anymore but when I asked him why he couldn’t give me an answer”*

“He said that?”

*” Yeah I mean he’s been weird since he met Salvi but he’s even weirder now your here it’s all very odd “*

He shrugs it off, not paying any mind to the words he just said as he digs into the food he bought me.

“What was he like? , I mean before Salvi”

*” He was a lot more fun, i'll tell you that much”*

**RT43VG**


“I feel like a good home story will cheer me up. Would you tell me about where you grew up ?”


That’s a complete lie, I don’t care about that but I would like to know who Ivar was before Salvi, something tells me it’s going to be an interesting story.

*” Yeah sure! I mean it might be nice for you to hear about a life that isn’t all doom and gloom”*
He rolls his eyes at me, mocking my miserable upbringing before he begins.


*A/N
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