What We Wanted From You

Waiting with bated breath the door finally opens and Salvi comes in, her not so quiet footsteps indicate that she is coming closer to me.

I squeeze my eyes shut as my back is facing her hoping she doesn’t notice I’m awake. I’m not sure what she has come in for. I thought it was to wake me up but I can hear her playing around with the things on the side.

Half opening my eyes I can see the shadow in the dark but whoever they are a lot bigger than Salvi. Wearing all dark clothes. They turn to face me and me once again I shut my eyes, listening to them get closer to me.

I hear their hand on the bed running from the bottom getting closer to me, the feeling makes me shudder. It's like an icy chill has blown into the room.

*“I know you awake, you can open your eyes”*


The sound of Ivars voice resonates again in the room again, when will this guy leave me alone. Sitting up and pulling the covers around myself I face him.

“What are you doing here again? Didn’t you question me enough earlier”

*“Obviously not, or I wouldn’t have come back would I?”*

He edges closer to me again but I’m running out of space to move back on this bed.

“I don’t understand why you keep coming in here to question me. I have nothing to tell you that Salvi probably hasn’t already shared”

*“You don’t get it Sekreta, I want to know everything there is about you”*


He moves closer again, our faces are so close now I can feel the heat of his breath on my skin.

*“I want to know what you like, what you don’t like, what your favourite things are. I need to know”*


“Why, why do you need to know all of this “


*“I just need too. Fuck. Will, you stop being so stubborn”*

I see anger flash in his eyes and he reaches out gripping one of my wrists in his.

“Ivar gets off of me, I don’t want to share these things with you. I hardly know you”

He doesn’t let go, instead, he grabs my other wrist. Now holding them both in front of me. I struggle and try to pull away but it only makes him grip me harder. The feel of his skin on mine is burning, it's like someone has poured boiling water on me.
“You’re hurting me. Get off”

Pulling my arms away from him seems to make him angrier, and then I feel it. Like an electrical current, a surge of power comes through me and the sound of Savea’s voice takes the president over my own as she moves the forefront of my mind.

**GET OFF OF ME!**

The anger in his eyes disappears as he stares at me now.

*“Sekreta”*

**I SAID GET OFF OF ME, AND MY NAME IS NOT SEKRETA!**

Savea’s tone has changed and Ivar loosens his grip bowing his head at us like he has been forced.

*“How are you doing this”*

He strains as he tries to get out the words.

**YOU DON'T KNOW THE HALF OF WHAT WE ARE CAPABLE OF, YOU THINK YOU CAN TREAT US THIS WAY BECAUSE YOU ARE AN ALPHA**

The sound of the door brings us Savea crashing out of her trance as Salvi rushes into the room.

*“Sekreta you need to calm down. You’re going to kill him”*


I face her and her eyes are glowing red.

*“Sekreta stop. He might not be able to take you but I sure can. Now calm down”*

**I am not Sekreta. And you are nothing”


With that I push forward taking over once more, Savea cannot talk to her this way. I haven’t decided how I feel about Salvi, but I do know that she has fed us and kept a roof over our heads.

My breathing steadies as I internally fight with a very angry Savea, she does not want to let me take over. My body tenses at the struggle but I see Ivar’s head lift back up, his body becomes less rigid and I know I’m winning this fight against her.

*” Sekreta. You have to keep fighting her and come back”*

Salvi takes my hand and places the other on my cheek forcing me to look at her.

*” You have done great, you bought out your true power but you need to pull it back in”*

A few moments later my senses return to normal and I’m left in the room to face the two of them.
“I’m sorry I don’t know what happened, I’m sorry”


I can’t help but let the words escape my lips if I truly asked myself I wasn’t sorry for forcing Ivar off of me, I wasn’t sorry for showing him that I was stronger than he thinks.

Apologising just seemed logical.

*” Sekreta, it’s fine. I promise you, what you did was amazing. That’s what we wanted from you”*

“What are you talking about, what did you want from me ?”


*” We wanted you to get this angry when the training wasn’t working in bringing out your anger. I needed to try a different tactic and Ivar gave me the idea”*

“What are you saying?”


*” I’m saying Ivar and did all of this to bring out your true power. You have no idea what you really are capable of”*

She moves closer to me, her eyes wide and full of wonder like I am the most precious human on the planet.

“You planned this?. You planned to have him do this to me, to make me feel like he was torturing me”


I feel sick to my stomach at the length she is willing to go to get me to do what she wants.

*” Yes and what’s even better about this is that he only had to do this once, and he managed to bring it out of you first time”*

She turns and throws her arms around him, he hugs her back but his eyes stay fixed on me. What did she mean only once, does she not know about all the other times he has bothered me. Or when he came to my room after I just got out of the shower.

As if Ivar sensed what I was thinking he glared at me other her shoulder, I don’t know what to think about any of this. Why wouldn’t my own sister be patient enough to just wait for me to get there in my own time?

**She doesn't care about us Sekreta, she is in this for herself**

“You might be right Savea, but we can’t just leave”


It's a discussion we have had over and over.
Should I leave?
Should I stay?
Is she genuine?
Does she care about us as she said?


I don’t think I’m going to get the answers I want, If I want to survive and be truly free, then my options are limited.

*” You are so powerful, Sekreta. What you did to Ivar was amazing”*

“I didn’t do anything to him. It was a fight or flight response”


*” But you fought. And I mean to make an Alpha bow. When we face those sisters they are going to have no idea what they are up against”*

Her face is practically glowing with Joy as she speaks.

“But I could have gotten hurt Salvi, If I hadn’t had fought back then he could have really hurt me”

*” Sekreta Honey”*

Her tone changed and she told her head most condescendingly.

*” If he had hurt you, I have no doubt you would heal in no time”*


She moves closer once again, sweeping a stray piece of hair from my face to look down at me.

*” you are a werewolf after all, and besides you have been through much worse haven’t you. Any injury would have been mere scratch compared to what you have dealt with “*

With those words, my mind is made up. I need to get out of here and get away from her, sister or not whatever her intentions are. I don’t think they have my interests in hand.

If she was willing to let Ivar hurt me and simply shrug it off then what would she do next, what would she do to bring out my anger, to make me use my powers like today again.

Powers that I didn’t even know I had, that I don’t even know how to use. She tries to pull them out of me, she is no different from Arlo.

Ivar too, what is his deal? If all of these times he has cornered me have been kept secret from Salvi then what is he doing it for, today alone it has been twice. At what point am I going to wake up and he is standing over my bed watching me.

I am not safe here, I was never safe here and I see that so clearly now. The first chance that I get I’m gone, I don’t have to subject myself to being a plaything or being a weapon.

Salvi continues talking, she's ecstatic like she has just won a prize but I’m no longer paying any attention, all I need to focus on is getting out of here.

**We could go tonight**
“How Sav, how will we get away and more to the point where will go ?”


**Artemis. We go to Artemis, she will help us**

“But in 2 days Salvi will be there anyway. That’s not getting away from Salvi Savea”


**Your right it isn’t but we will be safe with her. Will you please just trust me on this **

It’s not like I have the luxury of being able to pick and choose where I go and I suppose Artemis’s house is as good a place as any.

“Okay. We go to her, but we need to get there before which means we need to leave tonight”


**We will, as soon as it gets dark we will go. We are good at hiding Sekreta, we won’t get caught**

Salvi finally finishes begging herself up and talking about how amazing this fight is going to be before she gives me a short and sharp hug, tells me to get some rest and swans out of the room. Ivar followed closely behind.

Before he reaches the door I can’t help myself but ask him.

“Why didn’t you tell her the truth”


I guess now I know I’m leaving I have nothing more to lose. He turns to face me, his eyes dark once more but again he looks as though he is struggling internally.

*” I can’t tell her”*

“What do you mean you can't. It's all part of your master plan, after all, isn’t it? Get Sekreta to go crazy so we can see how powerful she is. I have to admit scaring me into anger was a bold choice”


*” I scared you ?”*

He almost seems shocked but I laugh it off, I won’t fall for this weird game he is playing.

“That was the point wasn’t it. So I suppose really you should give yourself a pat on the back and say job well done. You succeeded”

Once again a different emotion flashed across his face, it's almost as if he is hurt by my words.

*” I never.. I mean I didn’t want to”*


“You didn’t want Ivar, you didn’t want to tell Salvi that you’ve been practically stalking her sister this whole time and that your marvellous idea was one you had already been actioning? I can see why that would make her upset”

He lowers his head and exits the room like a wounded puppy and I feel pride swell in my chest for standing up for myself. All I need to do now is get away from here, I let my mind play out every possible plan to leave. Like every other night here it been an eye-opener but at least I know where I stand.


Shifting in my seat I feel the hard corner of something press into the small of my back. I remember the book, I don’t want to alert Ivar to it but I will be leaving with that tonight. I know it holds more questions than answers but I have a pull towards it that I’m unwilling to break.