My Undoing

The vote was cast and it was unanimous however that did seem to matter to Cynthia, she still protested and argued but it was decided. She would become the queen even if her sisters had to tie her to the seat.

The room around me was buzzing everyone talking over one another in a way that I had not seen before, for the first time since I have been around them it was filled with pure joy and happiness.

They even involve Salvi in the conversation, while they may not trust her they are sure to make sure she does not feel excluded. It is as if the three of them now understood where she was coming from, where her pain and longing to please her father came from.

Eventually, the room quiets down and people begin to filter out, Selene instructs Salvi that before she sleeps she must free Ivar from her clutches. She nods and both Ivar and Salvi follow her to another room. Part of me wishes to go with them, wishes to be with him when her clasp on him is broken.

But I stay seated, I do not know if I can face him. It would be like really seeing him for the first time, we had that brief moment in the water but everything about it makes me nervous.

*” You know you don’t have to look so nervous, he probably won’t bite”*

It is then I notice that not all in the room have cleared and Artemis is seated at the end of the table, her eyes fixated on me and a soft smile playing on her lips.

“I’m sorry I did not realise that you were still here. I zoned out”


*” You know I get why you are scared, I could see it on your face when they left with Selene. You are worried about the man that will come back to you”*

“Is it that obvious?”

*” You have the look of a bewildered teenager who is not sure if she is in love “*

“I am not sure. The moon goddess tells us we should be together but what if that is not the case. What if we do not click at all. What if he doesn’t like me?”

*” Has he not shown you enough that likes you and that he wants you. I mean the man couldn’t keep his eyes off of you the whole time we were in this room. He adores you Sekreta “*

“But he does not know me Artemis.”

*” To him, I do not think that will matter. To him, you are his everything, you were made for him. In time you will see it but up until knowing your view has been clouded, wait until you see him again when things are clearer”*

With that, she stands up and leaves and I am left to sit with my feelings. Opting not to wallow in self-pity and having no idea how long this process is going to take I head to my room. Walking through the house people greet me but I can see a loss on their faces. Many of them have lost loved ones and that is because of me.

I head into my room and straight into the bathroom. Filling the bathtub with water and bubbles is something I have wished to do since I first got here all that time ago. I let the room fill with steam breathing in the lavender scent hoping it will calm, that it will help me to wash off the events of the day.

I don't know what it is that I want any more, now everything has ended or seems to have ended. What will I do next? Now no one is trying to end my life. I should start to live it.

But living it with a mate and no pack, a house to stay in but no home of my own that is not how I imagined my life to begin.

I soak in the tub for what feels like a lifetime until all of the bubbles have almost disappeared and the water has a chill to it.

I hear a soft knocking at my door and it forces me to escape from the water. Wrapping a large towel around myself I headed into the room and opened the door leaving only a small gap to see through.

The eyes I am met with making my heart drop to the pit of my stomach, the world seems to stop moving and I can only see him. I'm frozen in my doorway as my eyes scan every line of his face. Artemis was right, it was not like the other times, something in me was calling to him louder than I had ever heard.

*” I was hoping we could talk”*

Even his voice sounds deeper and more filling now like it was made for my ears only. I don’t reply, I have no words but I open the door a little wider allowing him access to my bedroom.

He takes a few tentative steps inside and waits for me to close the door behind him. I motion for him to take a seat at the vanity table, before excusing myself to put some clothes on.

As soon as I’m in the bathroom again I can hear the sound of my heart beating so loudly it is threatening to escape from my chest. Is this what it is supposed to feel like?. I've seemingly lost all sense as I struggle to put my clothes on the right way.

Stepping back into my room I instantly feel shy and stand with my back pressed against the door wanting to keep distance between us.

“So erm.. You said you wanted to talk?”

The tension in the room feels thick. I can feel my body calling towards him but I try to hold myself back. I have never felt this way around him before.

*” Yes. Well, I guess I just wanted to say thank you for helping to free me”*

“Oh it's .. well it was no trouble at all”
The words fumble out of my mouth and I am surprised he understood any word of it.

“You know .. you erm, you look different now”

His gaze flicks up to meet my own and my breath catches in my throat. The words have left before I can take them back.

“Your breath” My hand covers my mouth and I can feel my skin blush with embarrassment.

Mood Goddess I wish my mouth and brain would communicate sometimes, he lets out a small chuckle and it startles me. Was he laughing at me?.

“You know if you wanted to laugh at me you could have just waited until I tripped over or something you didn't have to come to my bedroom to do that”

He stops instantly and studies my face, it may have come out harsh but I didn't need to be humiliated this situation was already awkward enough.

*” I wasn't laughing at you”*


“That noise you just made would just suggest otherwise”

*” It was… I was laughing at myself. The way you just smiled as you caught yourself saying what you did just took my fucking breath away”*

He moves to stand in front of me, his face inches away from my own.

*” I never thought anyone would have that kind of hold on me, and yet here you are. I've waited for you for the longest time and now you are here it doesn't seem real”*

“I...I.. thank you”
Moongodess Sekreta use your words.

He lifts my chin with his caressing my cheek with my thumb and it sends a jolt running through my body.

*” I have to confess I came here for another reason tonight”*

My breath catches and I hold it, waiting to hear what he says next.

*” I needed to be near you, to be around you.”* He dips his head into my neck and breathes deeply.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't enjoying how close we are, how I can feel the heat from his body and internally Salvi is begging to be let loose.

Something in my snaps back to reality and I pushes him away, keeping my hand on his chest and putting some distance between us. Hurt crashes across his face at my actions and I wish I could take them back.

“I'm sorry, I just. There is so much happening right now and it's not that I don't want to be near you, I do, I mean, of course, I do but this is all new and you've just got your senses back. I just.. I just want to make sure this is what you want”

I wasn't sure if I was talking to him or myself. There were so many moving parts to him and me, and I didn’t have a pack I wasn't sure if I wanted one but he has responsibilities, would they be mine now.


*” I can see the cogs in your mind working Sekreta, just tell me what you are thinking. Lay it all on me”*

Something in me warms his words, I could tell he means it. He is willing to listen to my every worry, my every thought.

“You’re my mate but what if you don't want me? And well you have a pack to go back to if they don’t like me or don’t accept me because of Salvi. I wouldn't blame them I guess and god. What about Salvi I promised to look after her here, if you leave I cannot go with you and I don't want you to leave.What if I’m not enough for you”

I don't get to finish what I’m saying as his lips land on mine and all at once every bad thought and worry I had disappears. I cannot even begin to explain how this feels, the power in me seems to buzz at the surface of my skin calling out to him to run his hands over me.

He pushes my back up against the door and presses himself to me. I kiss him back hoping he can feel everything I feel for him that I’ve pushed down and worried over, hoping that he knows just how much I do want him.

He draws back from me resting his forehead on mine, his body surrounding me in warmth and light.

*” Not enough for me...You are everything to me”*

My knees weaken and I wrap my arms around his neck pulling him to me and kissing him deeply. He has no idea the effect those words have just had, to mean something to someone is amazing. The sister has shown me that it's okay to belong but to be someone everything is all I have ever wanted.

I can feel my worries coming undone with every kiss, with a heavy hitch of breath in my throat as I forget to breathe.We get lost on each other, his hands-on body setting fire to it with every touch. It is enough to tip me over the edge.

*” You know I was planning to wait to tell you this “*

He speaks softly between kisses.

“Wait for what ?” I think I know but part of me wants to hear him say it out loud.

He breaks the kiss and stares at me intently, I can see my own eyes reflecting in his, the feint huh of blue where they were quite obviously glowing before.

*” I’m telling you that I’m staying here with you. I didn't know if you wanted me to but my pack isn't the same anymore, I have decided to hand it over to Ildi. The pack trusts him and he will be a good leader”*

“You can’t do this for me, I won't let you. You are the Alpha you cannot give it up”

*” I can and I have, truth is I have been thinking about it in I’ve spare moment I’ve had since we met in the forest. I want to be with you always”*

There's more that needs to be said here so much more that we need to say that we need to discuss but at that moment he has floored me. I kissed him again pushing him back towards my bed.
Everything just seemed to fit at this moment, I don’t know what I was worried about, life is supposed to be planned out, it should be like this, Unexpected and exciting.


*A/N
Thank you so much for reading, only a few more chapters left in this sequel
and it will be complete !!