Chapter 18

Good morning angel of my dreams, that one who visits me and wakes me with a kiss. You are my life, my sweet hope with you I feel I’m in the clouds every time I lose calm. I love you.


"Xavier........I need to talk to you, it's urgent."I stuttered holding his hands in mine while he looked at me with eyes full of concern,yes ,he must give me his full attention.Because whatever I am going to say....is going to blow his mind away.

Have you ever been nervous, maybe for a presentation, meeting or anything .....just multiply that by a thousand and you would get what I mean.

"Hey hey.. what's wrong are you okay?Are you sick?Did my dad tell you anything to hurt you in anyway?. Love just talk to me-"he rumbled placing his palm on my forehead in check of any fever,if it were another day,in another situation,I would have probably  smiled,but today I just don't feel like it, I feel like I want to rant it all out and run away,hide my face and never to be seen again.

"Xavier ,I'm okay and papa didn't say anything to hurt me,he will never do such a thing ... it's just that...I want to tell you something that has been bothering me...I ....I don't know how to say this, I have been selfish and while you have been all-"

"Rina, just shut up, you don't have to say anything, don't you dare call yourself stupid or selfish,you are nothing like that.....so you don't have to say anything.... I don't want to hear it."Xavier sternly said holding my chin,why can't he just shut up and hear me out?I just want to bang his head and tie him on a chair,duct-tape him and just force him to listen.I pinch my nose in annoyance and push away from his hold.

"Just . Shut.The.Fuck.Up!"I growled making him flinch.

"Xavier this is important, just hear me out please.I need you to do me a favor."he came towards me, looking at me seriously.

"Anything."he said making me sigh out in relief.

"I need you to shut up!(pin drop silence ) Xavier...I l-"I was interrupted by the ringing sound of a phone, not my phone but his phone, perfect timing,just perfect.Can someone please note the sarcasm??

"Angel, just continue with what you were saying."

"It might be important."

"Nothing is more important than you."he stuffed his phone father inside his suit.

"Well,I wanted to tell you that I have fal-just pick up the phone it might be very important."

"Speak!!!!"he growled when he picked up the phone and immediately stood up.

"Sorry angel,we have to finish this later, something very important at work."he ranted rushing inside the house

"But-"just perfect.

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Rina has been acting weird lately, I don't know what's wrong with her! After having that talk with my father she just started acting abnormal,not like her at all.

Before that call I had, it's like she wanted to tell me something important,she was stuttering, nervous and she just cursed at me and I was like wow.

If it were not for my assistant telling me that I had an appointment with the company I  for long had my eyes on,I would have pressured her to continue, but heck that deal was important,if I don't get it,then my rival would...none other than Martin Rodriguez,I totally hate his guts.

I quickly finish the meeting and go back home not to find my angel in our room....

My heart pounded as if it demanded to break free from my chest, what if she wanted to break up with me.....we have no relationship yet..no,it can't be.

I was going hysterical, I could not think straight, I have to find her,she cannot leave me,what if she has, that's why she was nervous,oh no..she has left-

I look all round the house , calling out her name but all I get is a pin drop silence,I miss her voice, I badly want her to respond back to me....in anger and frustration ,I throw down the chairs and turn the tables.

Tears were already threatening to pour out of my eyes and in no moment,I felt a cold substance on my cheek, I will burn the whole world to find my angel.She cannot escape from me,that's a vow I took.

"Sir,what is wrong sir....are you okay."one of the house maids stuttered, running towards me and bowing her head,I don't give the fuck about respect right now.

"Where the fuck is Rina!"I boomed making her cower in fear but whatever she said next made me breathe in relief.

"Sir..she..is..in Levi's room,she was helping him with his homework, maybe she felt asleep-"
I didn't leave her to finish,I ran towards the stairs, taking two at a time,sweat dripping down my forehead and barged on Levi's room,on opening, I find her standing up from the bed,her hand placed tightly on her chest, trying to control her breaths,I startled her, right now I didn't care,all I wanted was her in my arms.

I took two long strides towards her and grabbed her wrists,pushing her to my embrace,for the first time, I craved for her so bad, I tightly held her and kissed her forehead, before placing wet kisses all over her face.

"What's.... wrong... Xavier?"she asked ,her brows raised in confusion but all I did was hug her tighter.

"I thought you left me,you scared me so much.Rina, don't you ever scare me like that!"I growled while she just laid her head on my chest.

"I'm sorry."
"It's okay angel...I love you."I said knowing that she would never love me back, knowing that she will never utter those words that I long to hear and this,to say the truth,hurt me.

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"It's okay angel.....I love you." The way he said it,was not like always,the fun way that always melted my heart, today,he said it full of hurt, I hurt him.I know he wants me to love him back.He doesn't deserve someone like me who is so selfish, although he refuses to think of me that way,the selfish type....but I know that that is what I am... selfish... completely selfish.

Utter silent,pin drop silence,the only sound coming from our breathes,the beating of our hearts and Levi's snoring.How I wish my life was just peaceful, just like Levi's,no responsibilities,no heartbreaks.

"I love you too."I mumbled in  between my breathes, but he heard me, he pulled me away from his chest,his eyes staring directly into mine, pleading me to say it just one more time.

"Yes...I love you so much Xavier,I'm so sorry if I said it too late, but I love you so much and I can't think of my life without you, without the two of you ,I'm hollow...I love you so much."I ranted, finding myself crying hysterically, while he pulled me to his chest, hugging me tight while he laughed, I could feel something cold on my shoulders,he is crying, tears of happiness.

I just professed my feelings and I feel so light, I have been building it all inside me but now I brought them all out and God!I feel relieved.

"Thank you so much,you just don't know how long I have craved to hear you tell me that..I love you so much angel, you are my life and my everything."he wiped away my tears and held my hand, taking me out of Levi's room and to my surprise, not inside our room but outside.

"The whole world should hear this." We were now outside the mansion and at the open space where he screamed.

"My angel loves me!She loves me!"he screamed making me chuckle and then he kissed me passionately, slowly and deeply.

There I got to know , that this is all I want.Nothing more.