Chapter 20

How can I explain my feelings to you. Its pain, its numbness, its like I can see only one thing, hear one thing and think about one thing. That is you.

"Love where are we going to?"I ask anxiously, grinning from ear to ear while Xavier looked at me in adoration.

We were at the back of the limo when Xavier gently grabbed me by my hair and kissed me deep and hard.

"Xavier..... the.. driver..is watching."I tried to say through the moans and kisses while he pressed a button without breaking the kiss,a headboard appearing that separated us from the driver but he will surely hear my moans?

"It's sound proof,he can't hear us and what if he hears us, it's none of his damn business."he said nonchalantly kissing me from my jaw to the neck while my attempts in stifling a moan was unsuccessful.

"I .... can't get enough of you..."he said through moans while he was sucking my spot.

The car suddenly stopped and Xavier cussed making me chuckle.I brushed my hand through my hair and reapplied my lipstick since Xavier ate it all.Hehe.

"Here, I would have to blind fold you."he said smirking.

"Blind fold me..heey I want to see."I whined.

"No miss noisy.. it's a surprise."he kissed me on my forehead and blind folded me.

"Xavier if I fall...I swear I will have your head!"

"It's okay love I'm here... nothing will happen to you ..do you trust me?"he asks his breath fanning on my neck.

"With all my heart."I whispered softly as he took my hand in his.

"Are we there yet?"I anxiously ask chuckling.

"Yes babe....I'm going to remove the fold now.

He removed the fold as I squirt my eyes to adjust to the light and the view infront didn't fail to take my breath away.

A dinner table set viewing the beach that's why I felt a kinda cold breeze, Xavier has a spare jacket on his hands and he covers me with it.

He offers me a seat and plants a kiss on my cheek as I go crimson red while  he chuckled and goes to his seat.

"It's beautiful."

"Very beautiful.."Xavier trails softly looking directly into my eyes,I could see the sparks in him,he looked at me with so much love,as if I was his everything...I want to be with him forever,I want him to be with me always.

Xavier holds my hand across the table and slightly squeezes it giving me that one smile that could bring me to my knees.

"Honey.........There are so many things I would love to say to you. So many things I would love to share with you. But for tonight let’s get lost, take my hand, look into my eyes, don’t be afraid to fall for me. For I have already fallen for you."he slightly kissed my hands making me shed a tear,I suddenly became so emotional that Xavier had to come from his seat and embrace me.

"Shh....You are wonderful and satisfy my life with this beautiful feeling, since I saw you I liked you and you caught me between the walls of your heart, you are beautiful and do not know how I adore,angel I love you so much that I don't know..I can't express it, don't shed your tears love cause I heart and adore you and never will I let you go cause you are mine."he kissed my cheeks and tears before slamming his soft lips onto mine, devouring every inch of my mouth,a toe-curling kiss,deep and passionate.

"Xavier...I never believed in love, I have gone through alot in my life that I gave up on love and trust..the only love I know was only from Alex and mama Cecilia.. but when you two came into my life and you broke down the wall that blocked me from understanding what true love is.How hard can be as simple as the heart and mind are in sync, I love you not only with the heart, I also do it with the mind. Thanks for being my great love Xavier.. I love you so much."I hugged him and laid my head on his shoulders, taking in his intoxicating cologne .....I never thought I would one day proudly say that I love this arrogant billionaire who was so possessive of me at first...I always wanted to hide from him.He made my heart beat, goosebumps all over my body and my breathing hitched!

Xavier made me taste everything prepared by the chefs,made me drink one of the most expensive of wines and the most silly think he made me do was dance to thinking out loud by Edd Sheeran..... hehe.I never knew he could sing, because with every step of the way during the dancing,he sang out to me with so much emotion,as cliche as it may sound but the only sound I could hear was his voice.....his voice was just perfect bringing a smile to my lips but everything had to stop when flashlights blocked my eyesight... paparazzi!!

Xavier grabbed me by my hand  and pushed me onto his chest, hiding my face from the world to see while he cursed in Italiano,he made it out of the place  and through the media personnel who were trying real hard to get a good glimpse of my face.

"Mr Montez,is she your new catch?"i could hear the voice of a lady but Xavier only sneered.

"Please ma'am show us your face."another one pleaded.

"Mr Montez,mr Montez please tell us is she your fiance?"

"No comments."Xavier said in a stern voice and I could picture him gritting his teeth,but then a guy spoke up making Xavier to stand still but still h my face  protected on his chest.

"Is she one of your whores?Those one night stands Mr Montez??"I could feel things going in a slow motion and the temperature weirdly rising up.

"What the fuck did you say huh!"Xavier growled making me flinch,I tried tugging on his shirt to calm him down but he shoved me inside the car that his body guards had arranged, locking it,thank goodness the windows were tinted,they could not see me but I got to see everything happening outside.

Xavier grabbed the reporter by his collar and leashed out a punch making him stagger behind while I gasped in terror, I have never seen this side of him before, totally furious and almost the replica of the devil himself,I was afraid of him getting into trouble because of me, Xavier went on throwing punches onto the guy,I bet his nose was broken.

Some reporters tried calming him down while others saw it as a top story in which they directed their cameras to the scene.

I tried getting out of the car only to find it locked , looking through the mirror to find the bodyguard also the personal driver looking straight my way.

"Unlock this fucking door!"I shouted but this guy didn't even react but shrugged his shoulders and nonchalantly said.

"Boss's order ma'am,I'm sorry but it's beyond my control."

What the fuck,how can opening a simple door be beyond someone's control? Give me a break.Douche.

I did what I had to do ...I screamed out his name.

"Xavier!!!!!!!!"thankfully he stopped and looked towards my way...our eyes locked, although he could not see me.

"Listen the fuck up..... nobody disrespects my woman and gets to go away with...hell no...it's none of your fucking business who she is,she is my angel,my fucking queen,my own damn business and that's nothing, absolutely nothing that concerns you...and as for you."he pointed his finger towards the man laying on the ground.

"I promise to fucking deal with you and for the rest of you,try and do the same shit and I will keep my damn promise to fucking destroy you."he growled making the reporters bow their heads in both fear and embarrassment.

He entered the car and pulled me on his laps, burrying his head on the crook of my neck and I could feel something cold upon my bare shoulder.

"I'm sorry you had to see me this way...I'm so sorry angel."he mumbled softly while I caressed his back in a soothing motion.

"It's ok Xavier...I would still love you no matter what." I reassured him kissing his hair.