Chapter37 Teasing

And I hated that! I hated that even after all this time she still remained in my mind, in my memories. Brielle blinked and shook her head. I wondered what she was thinking about. Maybe how fucked up I am!
"Walter Anderson once said bad things do happen to everyone; bad accidents, bad relationships... but how we respond to them defines our character and the quality of our life. I know it hurts like hell but you can choose to sit in perpetual sadness... immobilized by the gravity of your loss, or you can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift you have - life itself. You are an... amazing guy and any girl would be lucky to have you but you are being extremely unfair to yourself... "
"He said 'Zuriel Richardson' is an amazing guy"?" I teased and she rolled her eyes
"No, I said that but he did say "pain is a part of life, it is what makes us human, it shapes us and helps us just as laughter and love do, you don't have to forget her, but you cannot let it destroy you. Conquer the pain but don't let it conquer you."
The beating of my heart increased as I stared at her in admiration. My hands trembled as I clasped her fingers and gave a light squeeze. She scooted closer and placed her head on my chest. A strange emotion bubbled up inside me. Tonight, something changed. Tonight I realized how lucky I was to have her.
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I'm not ready to accept the reality. That person... meant a lot to me. I can't seem to move on. Whenever I try, I feel like giving up already. I am tired of struggling...'
'He isn't how he seems. He has been through a lot, that's why he made himself like this.'
'Love is the most overused concept in life.'
'I know how... difficult he can be but I've seen the way he looks at you and trust me, you're special to him.'
'What if someone you love hurts you and leaves you in pieces, so many pieces that your hands prick when you are trying to put yourself back together?'
Just take care of him.
2:35 am
I couldn't sleep. I was feeling too restless and too worried. I kept tossing in my bed, irritably. As I lay in my bed in the dark, my eyes wide open, I couldn't help but think about Zuriel.
After my last conversation with Zuriel, about Carly I can't be able sleep on the same room with him, I really need time, I accept this all
and I think if I would told him that I won't to go back and sleep in my room, then he would have been hurt, so when he had fallen asleep, I secretly comes out from his room.