Chapter38 Mind vs Heart

After my last conversation with Zuriel, about Carly I can't be able sleep on the same room with him, I really need time, I accept this all
and I think if I would told him that I won't to go back and sleep in my room, then he would have been hurt, so when he had fallen asleep, I secretly comes out from his room
Well duh, who else am I supposed to think about? Who would've thought Zuriel Richardson had been in love and boy did he fall hard for that girl.
Carly
And wait, My brother Issac, he's also talking about Carly, whom he loves
Man, it's freaking hot love triangle but love square
I quickly sat up on my bed and put my hand over my mouth
Shaking my head, should I laugh or cry on this
Even thinking about her made my mouth bitter and I barely even knew anything about her. Why did I have a feeling that she used Zuriel to gain something? But what? Maybe, I should just try to sleep!
3:27 am
I wonder where she is. How is she? Who is she with, if anyone? Why did she leave him? From what I had gathered, he was an ideal son, friend and no doubt he would've been an ideal boyfriend too. Then why? What happened? What if it was Zuriel's fault? What if he always had anger issues and she had just had enough of it?
A part of me wanted to ask him so badly but the other part knew I would be pushing my luck if I did. He disclosed his past to me without even realising that he was telling me so I wasn't going to rub it in. I could tell it was hard for him to tell me and I didn't want to be nosy by questioning him. Maybe, I shouldn't rush it even if it takes months for him to tell me more. But he did say she has returned.
I hadn't even seen him doing any work or asking me to schedule any appointments. He was just escaping from a reality that he wasn't ready to face.
I seriously needed to sleep otherwise I would look dead tomorrow.
4:48 am
Zuriel revealed that he was still in love with her. Did it hurt that he still loved her? More than it should. It hurt knowing he would never love anyone the same way he loved Sophia, but at least I knew what to expect.
Did I?
Had I fallen for someone who didn't fall for me? 'Don't be stupid, I barely know him.' It never occurred to me that there might be people in this world whose love was not returned. One of them was Zuriel. Nothing hurts more than loving someone who doesn't love you back. Can you ever be in love with someone whose heart belongs to someone else? More importantly, how can someone still love someone after what they did?
Maybe, but I still didn't know the whole story. Sure, he could be overwhelming but the amount of care and love he showed for his special one was moving. If you meant something to him he would leave no stone unturned when showing how much he cared about you. Carly butchered who he was and left him, taking his soul, a soul who once knew how to live and love. She made him bitter and cold and the worst part was, it was the people who loved and cared for him, that were suffering the most. He was aware of how he acted, but he had his walls built so high that was impossible for anyone to reach him.
I had always considered myself a non-violent person, but people like her made my blood boil. I groaned and shut my eyes tightly. No. More. Thinkingù! I couldn't believe I had spent an entire night thinking about his past! My mind was telling me not to judge her so quickly since I only knew one side of the story. It took two to tango, so maybe it wasn't entirely her fault? This was something that I couldn't agree on. I put my hand over my head and groaned.