Chapter44 Too personal

Please stop!
"I'll see you around. If you want to see me, I am available till next week. It's been nice meeting you." She didn't wait for him to answer. He was clenching the fork a bit too tightly.
"Hey, just ignore her, 'kay?" I placed my hand on top of his and squeezed it lightly, letting him know I was there for him.
He bowed his head and a small smile bloomed over his face. When he looked up, it nearly took a breath out of me. My throat tightened with an unknown emotion. I could see his mouth moving but could not hear a word. I was well aware of his deliciously spicy scent that surrounded me, even though he was sitting across the small table. I could feel his body heat burning through his clothes and reaching out to entangle me.
This is not good.
"I need to use... excuse me." I looked around for the restroom.
"Sure." He answered.
I fled to the toilet and stood near the sink. I rested my hands on the cool tiles. What was that? It can't be what I'm thinking. I can't... Don't say it. Don't say it. Don't think about it. I shook my head at my red cheeks and dazed eyes.
"You like him...?"
Jesus, I nearly had a heart attack. I saw Natalia's reflection in the mirror. I turned around and she took a few steps towards me. Uncomfortable at how close she was, I took a few steps back.
I looked at her and shrugged. "He is my husband ." Something sparked in her eyes and I instantly regretted telling her.
"Your eyes say something else. Don't be offended honey but I must agree you are different than his usual taste." She walked past me and fixed her hair. I turned around, facing the mirror and applying a coat of lipstick.
"My eyes say, you should have gone easier on the mascara. None took sweets, I know what I'm doing." "I replied, pretending to be unaffected whereas my heart was galloping.
You insane psycho!
"Be careful darling, when you try to fix a broken person, you may cut yourself on their shattered pieces! Sophia was, is, and will always be the most important person in his life. Don't you ever, even for a second, think you can replace her. If I couldn't, there's no way on earth, someone like you can." Her whole posture was still, yet her words were venomous.
I twisted my neck around so fast that I was certain I'd be feeling the effects of whiplash later. She walked out with a satisfied smile on her face.
I went back to the table, her words still stuck in my mind.
"Do you mind walking? It's not far, and we can walk along the beach." He asked as he paid the bill, leaving a hefty tip.
I shook my head. "That sounds nice."
A few minutes later, we were walking along the beach in the moonlight. I had my heels in my hand. It was the most relaxed I have ever been with him.
"I was thinking." I hesitated.
"Uh-oh." He grinned mischievously.
"If you really love Carly, why would you sleep with other girls, I know you didn't consider me a your wife and I can understand that too, because you're forced to marry me ?" I blurted.
It was bugging me a lot. If he really loved her as he claimed, than why would he ruin the time he spent with her with some meaningless one-night stands? He shook his head and pressed his lips together, as if he didn't want to tell me.
"I'm sorry, that was totally personal. You don't have to answer me." I added quickly. I watched as his expression softened a little.