Chapter 57 Drowning in myself

Brielle POV
One month later,
I walked around the garden of our neighborhood, from my grandpa's home, for some fresh air.
Finally, I did what I wanted to do for so long.
I sold my dad's company, as I didn't have any interest in business. I was just so hurt from their death that I thought that I should do whatever they wanted me to become. I thought that dad wanted me to become a businesswoman. That's the reason I married to Zuriel to save my company, but a week before everything changed in my life.
Flashback
I was walking in the hallway of my grandpa's mansion when suddenly my eyes stopped at my mom's room.
My grandpa brought my dad and mom's belongings to his mansion and kept them in my mom's room.
I quickly went towards my mom's room. It was the place where my mom used to live when she was a teenager.
I smiled when I saw all the pictures of my mom, of her teenage gears around the wall.
I'm nothing in her competition. She was not only so beautiful but very intelligent and smart too, which I've never been.
But I'm trying. I'm trying to become a business magnate like my dad wanted me to become.
I looked around and winced when an object fell on my leg, making me whimper. What was it?
It was an old-looking dairy.
I quickly took it and was about to keep it back, but stopped immediately when I noticed a page which was about to fall.
I took the page and unfolded it. My body paused when I read what was written on it.
In honour of my bride
Hello, Bri, how are you? When you grow up, I want you to become what you have in your heart, what is your true passion. I never want you to force yourself to become someone you don't want to. Yes, I want you to become a successful businesswoman, but only if you also have an interest in the business field. If not, then I will be very unhappy and sad if you didn't follow your dreams.
become, "
Love your dad.
Flashback ends.
present
I sat down on the park's bench and looked at the people walking their dogs. My phone rang, and it was Zuriel.
I was planning to decline his call, but that would mean we're dragging what's broken and it's better we get this over with quickly.
"Bri," His voice was husky and nervous.
"Yea," I said as I looked nowhere in particular. I didn't sleep well last night. I was exhausted.
"Can we meet now?" He asked.
"I'm in my neighborhood's park," I said.
"I'll be there." He said.
He showed up in fifteen minutes. He came and sat beside me. It made me feel uneasy.
We sat there quietly for some time. None of them say anything.
"Let's get this over with," I said, nodding my head like I was explaining to myself.
He looked at me with confusion.
"Let's get divorced," I said, with an impassive voice.
His eyes widened in surprise.
"Bri," he said.
I shake my head. "That's what you're here for, and me too," I said with a small smile. That's why I didn't want a relationship. It gets messy. "
"But Bri," he said.
And I stopped him from saying anything else by showing him my hand.
"Bri, I can explain," he said desperately.
"There is nothing to explain. That day when I confessed my love to you, you just ran away and ignored me like I was a plague. You made excuses. You have never returned home since that day. I used to wait for you, to ask you what the actual problem was. Why did you behave like that with me, after knowing that I'm in love with you, but you know what, it's okay," I stand up smiling sadly.
He looked at me, pleading,
"I'm so sorry for whatever I didn't do with you that day. I'm so sorry. I've made a terrible mistake," he said.
"We all do that, nothing new in it," I shook my head, "but the only thing that matters is that we can make everything right again by accepting them; I know you did, but you know what, it doesn't matter now."I smiled and was about to go away from him, but he grabbed my hand to stop me, but I jerked away from his touch.
"Please don't leave me, I'm so sorry," he said. His eyes had so much pain.
"Please, we're over," I said and pulled away from his arms.
And I walked away from him.
I just can't take it anymore.
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As I entered Grandpa's mansion, I paused to see Ivaan sitting on the couch watching the TV.
As soon as his eyes fell on me, he quickly stood up and approached me.
I've never seen him since that day after Uncle showed us pictures of Carly and Zuriel.
I was shocked, seeing him after a long time.
"Are you alright?" he asked me, and now everything has come upon me.
I shook my head and fell on my knees crying. He quickly hugged me.
He makes me sit on the couch looking at him nervously.
"Let's go to the beach," he said suddenly, and I looked at him.
I nodded and we sat in his car. As soon as we arrived on the beach, I smelled salty and fresh water.
It's so refreshing after a long time. I was feeling suffocated around me because of whatever was happening around me.
First, I witnessed my first love betray me.
Second, the shocking truth is that my dad wanted me to follow my dreams.
The third one, finally, I sold my dad's company as I was never interested in business since starting
"You did good," Ivaan said, making me look at him.
"What?" I asked him.
"Selling your dad's company and finally living your life," he smiled, and I smiled sadly.
"Is everything right between you and Zuriel?" he asked me.
"There was never a 'thing' between us. No, it doesn't matter that everything was right or not, actually we are over, soon getting divorced," Even if I act nauseous, as if I'm about to puke here, I said.
If I thought this much, imagine how much worse it will be when it happens in real life.
"Oh, but you guys look cute together, not at first, but eventually I've started shipping you both," he smiled.
"Didn't you have him?" I asked him.
He looked at the waves of the sea and shook his head.
"There was no reason to hate him when it wasn't his fault; I'm the one who snatched the girl he loved for my benefit," he said, and I looked at him skeptically.
"Dad wanted me to defeat Zuriel." When we were in high school, in a baseball match. Zuriel's dad was already very successful in business, which always makes dad so jealous. He wanted me to break his son. That's why he wanted me to make Zuriel's girlfriend fall in love with me and break up with him, just before the day of our final match, which could distract him. It happened too. He was this much disturbed and broken, he lost the match, and he even was in trauma," just as Ivaan said their words to me
I quickly stood in front of him, "How can you be so mean?" I shook my head. I'm very disappointed with him.
I know the pain of betrayal. Although I love Zuriel, that doesn't mean that I will enjoy seeing him go through the pain of losing the love of his life, just because it's not me, but someone else.
"I know Bri, and that's the reason. Carly was not with me. I know very well she can never be with me now again," he said, looking down.
He was also broken like me.
"So, you fell in love with her by pretending to be in love," I said, and he nodded, smiling.
"I will bring something to eat," he said and went away.
I was humming my favourite song, looking at the sea waves, when suddenly my eyes stopped at the small boy, around five or six years old.
His toy ball went around the sea, and he was running to catch it on the deeper side of the sea.
I called out, and ran behind him to stop him. He stopped looking at me. He was grinning.
I gestured for him to come back. He pointed at the ball.
I quickly went there towards the deeper side of the sea by swimming and managed to take his ball and throw it towards him. I gave him a thumbs up.
But soon the happy expression of that kid changed into fear as he looked behind me.
I turned around and gasped, but soon everything around me became blurry; water just went inside my nostrils, my eyes, and my throat.
I could hear the sound of people creaming, but I felt nothing but numb.
But then, panic comes to me when I realise that I will never be able to meet Zuriel again. Am I dying? If I died, then how will I tell Zuriel that I still love him so much and want to give him another chance?
I tried to swim, but the waves of the sea were jerking me towards them inside more. Soon my eyes closed and darkness spread around me.