Coffee & The beast

I sat up straight gasping for air and still aroused. Is it a dream? Or reality? What do I have to believe now? Tears of frustration started streaming down my face and confusion and anger were swirling inside my head. I had a thousand questions before the dream but now I have a million questions ready to burst.

I never experienced this before, how it feels like a dream and at the same time, it's real. I have felt every single thing in that dream from the cool air flowing through the trees to the scent of the forest to the scent of the presence I felt behind me.

Most importantly the proof that was real is that I'm still aroused and still aching between my thighs. My face is burning with shame and embarrassment for being aroused by someone I don't know and whom I have met for the first time in an illusion? Dream? Or whatever it is.

This place is also tainted by whatever this is and I no longer feel this is a safe place as I didn't get any peace. I stood up reluctantly and just walked into the waterfall not caring about anything. I stood outside the waterfall wanting to wash away everything, most importantly the unwanted arousal and its traces.

I closed my eyes, welcoming the cool water on my body and sighing with the relaxation it gave me. My body and head cooled down somewhat and I walked down the cave and towards the woods to go home.

I no longer care about what is going to happen and what everything is and who the mystery man and woman from my vision are and what connection I have with them. My heart started aching while thinking about the mystery man, I always thought he was something to me and mine alone but seeing him with someone other than me is hurting me more than I can bear.

My body is slumped down and my steps are slow and I no longer have any energy in me. In no time I am a meter away from my cottage and I can see my brothers sitting on the steps of our cottage. Their heads turned towards me when I neared them. They both have concerned faces seeing me wet and dull.

" Are you Alright?" They both asked in unison and stood up at the same time making me cringe physically. Their twin syncing sometimes creeps me out.

" Don't do that to me please!" I gave them a weak smile and walked past them but Eliot stopped me by holding it and stopping me in my tracks.

" You don't feel alright! Why don't you sit with us for some time?" He has concern all over his face and he is the one of the three who knows about my visions he always worries about me getting hurt by them so he is always protective more than Elijah.

" Let her change her clothes first as she can catch a cold with those wet clothes," Elijah said, giving me a cheeky smile.

" Yeah! I will join you guys once I change into warm clothes." I gave them a genuine smile and Eliot released his fingers from around my arm. Spending time with them was my favorite time, but now I don't have a heart to spend because of my jumbled thoughts and confused head and heart.


I walked into our home and my room and took a long breath. I am so tired from the dream and from the vision that I want to sleep but spending time with my brothers is more important than my sleep.

I took out a skirt and a sweater to keep me warm from the chilly air and changed into them. I brushed my hair to not get them tangled. It took me five minutes to wrap everything up and I walked down to meet them in the living room.

Eliot is in the kitchen and Elijah is in the living room selecting something on the television. We mostly tried to not use electronics and gadgets but television is the exception. We rarely use cell phones.

"What are you guys doing?" I asked them, entering the kitchen to check up on what Eliot is doing.

" I am making coffee!" Eliot answered.

" I am skimming through the movies to choose from them," Elijah answered not looking our way but looking directly at the tv.

The heavenly aroma of the coffee instantly relaxed my aching nerves. Eliot brews the best coffee in our home.

I stood beside him while he was pouring the milk into the coffee. He knows very well about our tastes in coffee, so according to that, he will add everything.

" What happened, Aiza?" Eliot asked, making my head whip towards him suddenly.

" Umm, Nothing! Why?" I questioned him, my brows dipping in confusion but I know why he is asking that question to me. I am not my usual cheerful self now and he can easily read me.

" Don't lie, Aiza! I know something is up so tell me what is wrong!" He narrowed his eyes, daring me to lie to his face. How can I tell him what I saw and what I experienced earlier in the cave? I can't tell him that and if I tell him then he will definitely go to our parents and tell them everything and I can't take that risk.

" Nothing happened, Eli! Promise and I'm just tired, that's it." I lied looking into his eyes. I don't want anyone to get into all this and get hurt.

He sighed and thankfully didn't poke more. He handed me the coffee mug and took his and Elijah's mugs and left the kitchen.

" Did you choose the movie?" I asked, plopping on the couch next to Elijah and Eliot joined us handing Elijah's cup to him.

" I am confused about what to choose," Elijah said, still skimming through all the movies.

" Umm, why don't we watch……" I was cut off by my crazy brothers who startled me with their synchronized No.

" No"
"No" they both yelled.

" What the fudge! Why are you guys yelling?" I placed my hand on my heart to calm my racing heart.

" We don't want to watch the same movie for the thousandth time, Aiza!" Elijah groaned and Eliot agreed.

" How are you guys so sure that I was going to suggest the same movie?" I rolled my eyes at them. They seriously need to grow up.

" We know you so well dear sister and you were going to say Beauty and the beast again after seeing it 900 times," Elijah said, shuddering like he can't stand the thought of the movie.

" What is wrong with that movie?" I pouted, crossing my arms. They clearly don't know how good that movie was. I cried every time while seeing the movie and it was my favorite one.

" Everything is wrong with that Movie, Aiza! And we have seen that so many times and now we can't watch that anymore." Eliot grumbled beside me.

" Please! I want to watch that movie again!" I pouted using my puppy dog eyes and this will always work. I heard groans from my left and right but at the same time, Elijah clicked on the Movie Beauty and the beast, a happy squeal came out from me making them chuckle.

I always win against my brothers because they let me win. They look big and intimidating but they are warm bears who love me so much that they think first about me than themselves. Sometimes I feel guilty about not sharing everything with them but it is best for them because they always protect me from the bad. It is my responsibility to protect them too.

It's been so long of us being together like this watching tv and bickering in between. The three of us sang along belle and cried while the villagers attacked the beast and cheered when they got their happily ever after.

In all these moments the beast reminded me of someone who brought back the ache in my heart but I just nodded my head to clear the thought of the mystery man from my head and concentrate on the moment I am living,laughing, and fighting with my brothers in our home.