Indifference & Tears

I was not in my senses the second I step my foot outside the doors of the library. Something or someone consumed my senses and I didn't even what I was doing till the moment my lips touched his. Tingles shoot through my entire body and I felt myself moving my lips with him, I have never felt these feelings and emotions.

I can hear his grunts and moans mixed with mine. I can feel flowing around us and my body is flying in the air as I can feel no ground beneath my legs.

I can feel myself getting short of breath but I don't want to stop the kiss as I was feeling other emotions than the pain from him and his actions. our bond dancing happily around us and buzzing like a fierce current stopping everyone and everything from approaching us.

He tastes like sin and forbidden, I don't want to be away from him. I am loving the feel of his arms around me and the feel of his body pressed with mine.

We begrudgingly leave each other's lips and I gulped a long breath of air filling my lungs but we are still in each other's arms and our bodies still pressing into each other without any gap. He has this soft look in his eyes that I hadn't seen before and his lips were swollen and I am sure mine looks the same. We are still in a daze looking at each other devouring with looks.

I opened my mouth to say something but he didn't give me any chance to me before he took us down to the ground and pushed me like I am burning him. His beautiful wings retracted back and his face changed into a soft expression from a hard one where there is blankness and nothing.

How can someone change like this? A second before he was looking at me like I am his everything, his kiss is confessing everything his lips were not. We are maybe strangers but I can read him very well even his expressionless face. He is regretting everything, from the moment he took me in his arms to the kiss.

One of the guards rushed toward him and bowed to him.

" Your Majesty! The enemies had ran away and everyone is safe, some of the guards and maids were injured and we took them to get them treated." He rushed out the words making me take a relieved breath. I am so thankful that they ran away and that most of the people were safe, now I can go to Emily and show her myself that I am fine and not dead by some crazy ass people.

" Okay, you are dismissed!" He turned towards me with a hard face looking at me with indifference. If he is going to treat me like that then I am not going to give him the satisfaction of seeing me breaking down.

" Aiza!" My body stilled hearing my name from his mouth. He knows my name! Hearing him say my name did things to my body and heart. He is playing with me, kissing me first, and calling my name. I am not going to let him play with my heart and emotions.

" Yes, Your Highness!" I acknowledged him bowing my head. He clenched his jaw and palms. Why is he angry with me for calling him that? He is a big baby with all types of moods and I can't seem to predict which mood he is in.

" What were you doing back there?" I don't have an answer for that as I don't even know what I was doing. I lowered my eyes to the ground not knowing what to answer. I can't say that I don't remember much about it and at the same time I can't stay quiet for a long time.

Before I can answer anything to him I heard footsteps approaching us and turned my head towards him to see Damien running towards us. I looked at him pleading with my eyes to get me out of this situation.

" Aiza! Are you alright?" Damien moved toward me placing his hands on my shoulders and checking for any injuries. We turned our heads hearing a low growl from beside us to see his eyes glowing red and he gritted his teeth in anger. I don't want to see his mood swings now, I turned towards Damien and answered.

" Yeah, Iam fine! What about you?" I checked his face and body to see if he is injured but other than the blood on his clothes and hands he looks fine and from the looks of him he fought everyone without getting injured.

" Emily is looking for you and she looks terrified, please go to her. I took her to your room." My stomach churned hearing his words. I was being selfish towards my friend. I was the reason she was terrified and I know how Emily overthinks everything and I threatened her too. Shame and guilt consumed me at my behavior and my reckless behavior but I am not regretting what I did.

I ran towards the mansion without turning back or looking at him. I don't care what he thinks or the punishment I will receive for disrespecting the king and running away without his dismissal but I don't care, my friend needs me and I have to apologize to her.

I forgot that teleporting to our room will save me time but my head is so messed up that I can't think clearly. I just need to be in front of Emily and apologize to her for my stupid behavior and I hope she forgives me.

I was standing in front of our room and I can hear her soft sniffles through the door which made me angrier at myself for making her cry. She was nothing but a sweet and supportive friend and I hurt her by acting careless. I opened the door and there she is sitting on the ground and crying into her hand. Her body shook with her sobs and seeing her like this made me want to beat myself up.

My body guided me towards her and I took her into my arms and I started crying with her for making her feel worried and afraid. I know she is blaming herself for not stopping me and I know too that if something had happened to me then she would have never forgiven herself.

" I am so sorry, Emily! I am so sorry!" I apologize in between my sobs and she just held me tight with the fear of losing me.

" I..I…was so worried that something will happen to you! D…don't scare m..me like that." She said in between her hiccups.

" I am so sorry! I will never behave like a careless person and will always listen to you." We were both crying in each other's arms not ready to leave each other. She is practically my sister and I know she loves me too much to see me getting hurt.

We both sat there on the ground holding each other till our cries stopped. It was a long day filled with blood and tears. I hope tomorrow brings something new and good in our lives.