Chapter seventeen

MARCUS'S POV


The pain inside me intensified but I gave Chelsea a fake smile. Honestly I was happy for her but a part of was selfish. I wanted Chelsea all to myself.

"I'm happy for you bunny."
She cocked a brow at me in surprise and I smirked wickedly.

"Bunny?" She pressed colly.

"Yeah it's what I'll be calling you from now on. I hope you like it."

She smiled.

" Well it's not that bad," she said quietly.

While shrugs carelessly.

I stared at the dark sky. It was getting very late. I'm sure Chelsea's parents must be getting worried.

"It's getting maybe I should escort you home."
She nodded quietly and said nothing.

Before she could walk away I held her by the wrist stopping her.
"Wait."

She gave me a puzzled look.

"Yeah?

I sighed deeply this was going to sound pathetic but I needed her to spend the little time she had with me.

"Will you spend most of the week hanging out with me? I asked curiously.

She pressed her hands on my chest feeling my heartbeat. Her eyes lingered on mine and she bit her bottom lip.

"Oh are you going to miss me? She taunted and I scoffed.

"In your dreams just answer my question: will you spend time with me?

She pressed her head on my chest and wrapped her arms around me.

"Of course I'll spend time with you."

My muscles relaxed. And I cradled her in my arms tightly.

"I'm going to miss you Chelsea."
She sniffled softly and I kissed her forehead.

"Take care of Chelsea in case I won't be there to say goodbye."

"I'll miss you too Marcus…" she says softly.

"But stay away from other guys. I don't want any other guy touching you. Because you're mine" I mutter coldly and her body stills in my arms.

Her laughter comes out more like a hiccup.

"Marcus, are you jealous? She taunts.

And I ignore her.
"Marcus..." She whines as I forcefully drag her away.

Most of our walk is silent but I ponder on her last sentence that gave me the shock of my life.

Was I jealous?

The mere thought of another guy touching Chelsea sent me over the edge.
She was only mine.

I entwined our hands. She peeked at me through her lashes when our eyes met she blushed. A new wave possessiveness had consumed me and I just wanted to protect Chelsea from any harm.

She was leaving me. I didn't love her but why did it hurt so much? The mere thought of her leaving and going so far away sent me over the edge.

I didn't want her to leave but again I couldn't hold her back from her dreams I didn't have such rights over her.

I would have to let her go.
I still couldn't believe that she had gotten a scholarship from the best fashion school in Paris. I knew she loved fashion but I didn't know that she was that passionate.

The mood between us was intense I needed to get rid of the tension .

We came to another clearing and I released her hand.

"Will you wait for me Chelsea?"
She coolly smiled at me.

"Yes I promise I'll wait for you Marcus" she said softly I nodded sternly.

She happily went into her house and I went home as well.

I'd let her go even if it hurts.

That night I couldn't fall asleep I just kept staring at the ceiling numbly. The girl I had hated had found her way into my heart slowly taming the darkness inside me.

I let her inside my heart and letting her go was going to fucking hurt.

But I'll get over it...maybe one day.

I plugged in my earphones and let my soul drown in the darkness. It felt like I was being reborn again.


I can't breathe (Chopsquad), I can't breathe, 999
Waiting for the exhale
I toss my pain with my wishes in a wishing well
I can't breathe, I'm waiting for the exhale
Toss my pain with my wishes in a wishing well
Still no luck, but oh, well
I still try even though I know I'm gon' fail
Stress on my shoulders like a anvil
Perky got me itching like a anthill
Drugs killing me softly, Lauryn Hill
Sometimes I don't know how to feel
Ring-ring, phone call from depression
You used my past and my memories as a weapon
On the other line, I talk to addiction, huh
Speaking of the devil, all the drugs, I miss them
This can't be real, is it fiction?
Somethin' feels broke, need to fix it
I cry out for help, do they listen?
I'ma be alone until it's finished
This is the part where I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lyin'
I just don't want you to worry
This is the part where I take all my feelings and hide 'em
'Cause I don't want nobody to hurt me
I can't breathe, I'm waiting for the exhale
Toss my pain with my wishes in a wishing well
Still no luck, but oh, well
I still try even though I know I'm gon' fail
It's stress on my shoulders like a anvil
Perky got me itching like a anthill
Drugs killing me softly, Lauryn Hill
Sometimes I don't know how to feel
Sometimes I don't know how to feel
Let's be for real
If it wasn't for the pills, I wouldn't be here
But if I keep taking these pills, I won't be here, yeah
I just told y'all my secret, yeah
It's tearing me to pieces
I really think I need them
I stopped taking the drugs and now the drugs take me
This is the part where I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lyin'
I just don't want you to worry
This is the part where I take all my feelings and hide 'em
'Cause I don't want nobody to hurt me
I can't breathe, I'm waiting for the exhale
Toss my pain with my wishes in a wishing well
Still no luck, but oh, well
I still try even though I know I'm gon' fail
It's stress on my shoulders like a anvil
Perky got me itching like a anthill
Drugs killing me softly, Lauryn Hill
Sometimes I don't know how to feel


The song made me feel like it was seeing through my dark soul. Sometimes it felt like my soul belonged to the devil.
Maybe I had sold it.

Four days later. I had spent most of the days with Chelsea as usual and we were in our favorite hang out.

Somewhere near the river.


CHELSEA'S POV


I had chosen to wear a white tank top with dark denim skinny jeans paired off with black sneakers. I tied my hair in a messy bun a few tendrils cascading the sides of my face.

I kept my lips natural and went downstairs my dad had been less nagging over my whereabouts and it was oddly strange it kinda made me worry.

He was planning something big. I ignored the unsettling feeling in my stomach and went to meet Marcus at our favorite spot. Ever since I told him about the scholarship things between us have certainly been intense. We didn't talk much and everything has been quite awkward between us.

I found Marcus sitting near the lake dressed in a black t-shirt and blue jeans. He looked peaceful for once.

I sat beside him.


MARCUS'S POV


Chelsea sat beside me and I sighed deeply.

"So how do you feel knowing that your long life dream is about to come true?" I asked curiously to try and lighten up the sour mood between us.

She smiled at me.

" It's phenomenal knowing that something I've ever wanted since I was a little girl is finally going to happen. I'm so happy Marcus and I want you to feel the same way one day.

I chuckled.

"Maybe one day" I said quietly.

Chelsea became oddly silent and I pulled her close. I felt her body go tense but this time she didn't pull away.

One of my hands cupped her cheek making her face me. Her eyes met mine eager and curious.

I tilted my head and leaned in closer until our noses touched Chelsea closed her eyes tightly.

I smiled inwardly.

My lips met hers roughly tasting her sweetness she slowly responded to the kiss and I pulled her closer.

Our first kiss.