Chapter forty three

KELSEY POV


I was really bad at love and it reminds me of that song bad at love by halsey. It feels like the song is all about me.
I just felt like drowning in my own sorrows and being lost. Lost at sea to finally find where I belong. Maybe I had a future but Marcus wasn't going to be a part of it and that was the most painful part of all.
I could picture a new house and soft giggles being heard outside. I would be in the doorway watching my baby girl play. She would be adventurous just like me she would love to explore just like dora the explorer.

Hmmm. The mere thought just made my heart swell with joy. But I felt guilty consuming me again. Would my baby hate me because I never had the guts to tell her father the truth about her actual existence?

I feel like I'm keeping her father away from her and once she's older she'll eventually find out the bitter truth and hate me.
The mere thought left me in ruins.
Marcus would fight for custody, God is going to take my child away.

No, I couldn't think negatively. Marcus will never know anything about my baby and I'll make sure of it.


MAX POV


I was a bit worried because most of the time Kelsey was too silent. Marcus didn't deserve her especially after what happened today. He just watched be humiliated like she was nothing to him. If he really loved Kelsey he wouldn't have just let her go like that.
Was his company so important that he couldn't spare a few millions just to help Kelsey?

This has rather left me stunned. Maybe the hatred he still has for her is still consuming him immensely.

I care about Kelsey very much and even more than just a friend. I feel attracted to her and she holds a special place in my life ever since I've been stalking her. I just can't get her out of my mind.

I won't tolerate any person who is going to cause her harm and pain. Because Kelsey is my responsibility now and I will take care of her.

I sighed deeply and continued driving. Stressing about this wasn't going to solve the problem. I need to establish a positive vibe especially in front of Kelsey. I want her to forget about Marcus and be strong.


KELSEY POV


Twenty minutes later the car came to a sudden stop. And when I looked out the window I was surprised to find myself at the entrance of my house.
I guess we were finally here.
This was going to be a miserable night. I could feel it in my gut and on top of that I was all alone.

I turned to Max and he seemed lost in thought.

I cleared my throat and our eyes locked.

"Ummm thank you for dropping me off safely Max I really appreciate it."

He gave me a stern nod.

" Don't mention it Kelsey, that's what friends are for. And remember what I said ok don't waste your precious tears."

I nodded quietly.

" Thank you Max for everything."

He got out of the car and opened the door for me. He was such a gentleman he was so polite and sweet.

"Thanks" I muttered as I got out of the car.

We said our final goodbyes and I watched him drive away. I felt alone again. I opened my purse and took out my key. I unlocked the door and went inside.
I needed a shower to wash off the champagne and Tara ruined one of my good dresses.

I took my dress and undergarments and made my way towards the bathroom. I just felt tired and defeated. A shower wasn't going to wash away the shame Kelsey, it wasn't going to numb the pain either. I desperately needed a strong drink to at least numb the pain I was feeling otherwise it was going to slowly kill me.

I turned on the shower and hot water began to cascade down my bare back. It was filling and peaceful. It made me feel relaxed. I washed my hair with my favourite lavender shampoo.
Once I was done I wrapped a fluff towel around myself and got dressed. After that I went to the kitchen and started warming some left over pizza because I suddenly felt hungry.

My heart kept warning me.

"Don't."

"Don't do it Kelsey."

I was looking at the cabinet. It was the one place where I reserved a bottle of liquor. Ignored the warnings and opened the cabinet. But my motherly instincts insisted of warning me they didn't want me to do anything stupid.

Just a sip. I told myself when I opened the bottle. I took a big gulp and placed the bottle on the table.

What was I becoming?

Tears rolled down my cheeks as I ate the pizza. Crying wasn't going to help you Kelsey just go to sleep.
I turned off the TV and got the bottle of liquor and went to my bedroom upstairs.
By the time I was reaching there it was empty. I dropped it and went to bed feeling miserable wishing for this nightmare to end but little did I know that it was just the beginning of my suffering.
I eventually drifted to sleep and dreamt about Marcus. He was marrying that witch.


WEEKS LATER.

The wedding plans started almost immediately and everyone couldn't believe that Marcus and Tara were going to get married. It felt unreal but it was true.
I just wanted to avoid this situation and hide somewhere in a corner and cry my eyes out.
Tara and Marcus started having lunch together everyday. She also got close to him in front of me on purpose just to make me jealous and the worst part is that it fucking worked.

I still haven't told Marcus about my pregnancy. I don't want to seem like a homewrecker especially after the news of the marriage. I'll be like the other woman in their love story.
I caressed my small baby bump softly and almost burst into tears.

I still love him.