CHAPTER THIRTY EIGHT

KELSEY POV

It felt like the world was spinning around me. This couldn't be happening to me no. I refuse to accept this.
I wasn't ready to become a mom of course I wanted kids in future but I just didn't expect to have one this soon.
How the heck am I going to parent a child?
Maybe something is I need to get an appointment and go to the hospital and confirm. With crazy hectic hours of work and a child running around the house will drive me nuts.
I clamped my hand over my mouth.
Marcus is the father of my child.
What do I even say to him at this point?

"Kelsey are you okay?" Sasha asked when I still remained silent, still recovering from the shock.

I shook my head negatively.
I blinked several times just to make sure that I wasn't dreaming.
But no this wasn't a dream I was actually pregnant and worse for my so called boss Marcus Devon.
I'm not going to tell him anything he'll try to take away my child.
I felt protective over my unborn child.

"Pregnant?" I repeated when I finally stopped overthinking about everything.
When I turned to Sasha she just nodded and gave me a small smile and gave the test results.

Each of the pregnancy kits had two lines.

Shit.

I slumped on the bed looking at the ceiling and touched my flat stomach. Sasha slept beside me and there was silence.

"I know it must be hard to take in Kelsey but think about everything carefully and make the right decision."

" Yeah you're right. I'll think about everything and make a decision concerning the pregnancy."

We stayed silent for five minutes.

" Are you going to tell Marcus?" Sasha asked curiously.

" After everything that happened I don't want Marcus near me ever again."

" I'm not going to tell him anything.

Sasha sighed softly.

"Are you sure?" She asked once more.

Marcus didn't deserve any explanation from us because we broke ties and I want nothing to do with him. He can continue having his affairs with any woman he likes. I'm done with him.

"Yes I'm sure if I keep the baby I don't want Marcus involved in our lives."

"Alright Kelsey" Sasha glanced at her wrist watch with a frown on her face.

"My shift will be starting in less than thirty minutes. I have to go or else my boss will give me an earful."

She hugged me goodbye as I walked her towards the door.

"And don't hesitate to call me if you need to vent or need someone to talk to. I'm always here for you Kelsey, remember that" Sasha said softly.

I nodded quietly.

" Thank you Sasha."

Once she was gone I felt lonely again. It felt like the room was getting smaller and my world was breaking.

I took a deep breath and went to the kitchen. I suddenly gave something spicy.
I made myself some spicy stir fry with noodles.

I gave myself exactly 24 hours to make a decision tomorrow. I would have to make up my day so today I'll think about everything and look at my options.
The thought of aborting the baby gave me chills. I was not going to let anyone hurt it.
So option one was cancelled.

I'm not aborting the pregnancy.


Option two was to give birth to the baby and give it up for adoption.
But was I even strong enough to go through that traumatic experience?
No.
I can't give my baby to someone while I'm still fit and strong and very much alive. I can't bear the thought of my child calling someone else mommy.
Option two was cancelled and that left me with option three.

Keep the baby and love it with all I have.
I wasn't ready but what's the worst that could happen? I already know the basics and my mother did a good job with me and I turned out just fine.
I won't let my baby be exposed to any toxic people I would love and protect it.

I was going to become a single mom at twenty four. I'm sure I can handle this.
But I'll need a job and that only means one thing. I would have to go back to work whether I liked it or not I needed to do it for the baby's sake.
Later that night I texted Sasha and told her everything.

"Are you going to keep it?" Sasha asked curiously.

And I sent her a quick text.

"Yes I want to keep the baby and raise it."

" Aww I'm going to be an auntie soon so let's talk baby names."

I burst out laughing.

ME: Seriously?

SASHA: Heck yeah! If it's a boy and handsome like his father we'll name him Aden or Liam.

ME: And if it's a girl?

SASHA: Hold on let me brainstorm some names.

ME:Okay.

A minute later.

SASHA: I like Kisha and Ciara.

Those were all cute names and I liked them.


ME: I love the names. I'll choose from one of them.

SASHA: Yay that's great now get some rest Kelsey and that's an order.

ME: okay Ms. Boss lady goodnight.

SASHA: Goodnight Kelsey.


I placed my phone on the nightstand and drifted to sleep.
Tomorrow would be a new day and I would start again and work hard.
That night I couldn't fall asleep. I kept shifting in my bed, unable to sleep.
I kept questioning myself if I had what it takes. And after a lot of thinking I decided to work for Marcus Devon again.

Weeks later.
The next morning I skipped my coffee routine since the pregnancy book I recently purchased had advised pregnant women to cut back the caffeine.
I arrived at work early.
Everything felt the same and nothing has changed. Apparently Marcus had told everyone that had fallen sick and traveled abroad for a second opinion.
Everyone at work kept asking me I was okay now and I played along.
Marcus was surprised to see me.
We just looked at each other and said nothing. I haven't talked to him for weeks ever since that unfortunate incident happened.

As the weeks passed by my hormones were taking a toll on me both physically and emotionally.
The nausea had also gotten a bit worse but I managed to compose myself in front of Marcus and everyone.
I wanted to keep the pregnancy a secret. I knew that I couldn't hide it forever and it would eventually start showing but I will tell him when I'm ready but for now I won't.
My pregnancy was now only 12 weeks when the doctor confirmed at the hospital.
My little baby bump was growing but I managed to hide with oversized coats, loose dresses that didn't clung to my body and work pants.

I immediately felt the urge to vomit and rushed to the bathroom.
Once I was done I rinsed my mouth with some water.
I pulled up my blouse and stared at my small baby bump. A smile curved my lips.
Just then the door opened Jane stood frozen.

And I quickly covered my stomach.
Oh no.

"Kelsey are-are you pregnant?"