Chapter twenty one

MARCUS'S POV


She had betrayed me.
Everything was nothing but a fucking lie.
I slumped to my knees pathetically and scaremed.

I fell in love with her.

When I glanced at my phone the screen was broken and the darn thing kept showing her pictures like it was mocking me.

The pain in my chest intensified.
I tossed the phone across the wall and it broke apart and went off.

I poured out my feelings,my dark past and the demons inside me. I still can't believe that I fucking trusted her.

She played me and I fell for it like a gullible idiot I was.

Someone kept knocking on the door calling out my name,but I couldn't hear anything the demons inside me had taken over and they were pissed.

I kept throwing things against the wall.

My demons were on a rampage.

The lyrics inside me kept mocking me.



Hate me, hate me, still tryna replace me
Chase me, chase me, tell me how you hate me
Erase me, 'rase me, wish you never dated me
Lies, tell me lies, baby, tell me how you hate me
I bet you don't kiss her with your eyes closed
I bet you're still walkin' on a tightrope
Miss me so much, you've been goin' psycho
You ain't gotta say it, baby, I know
It's a thin line between all this love and hate
And if you switch sides, you're gon' have to claim your place
So baby, this time you're gon' have to seal your fate
Yeah baby, this time you're gon' have to seal your fate
And tell me how you hate me, hate me, still tryna replace me
Chase me, chase me, tell me how you hate me
Erase me, 'rase me, wish you never dated me
Lies, tell me lies, baby, tell me how you hate me
Hate me, hate me, still tryna replace me
Chase me, chase me, tell me how you hate me
Erase me, 'rase me, wish you never dated me
Lies, tell me lies, baby, tell me how you hate me
Hate me, hate me, tell me how you hate me
Tell me how I'm trash and you could easily replace me
Tell me that I'm strung out, wasted on the daily
Prolly 'cause there's no one around me numbin' all my pain
Prolly 'cause there's no umbrella to shield me from all the rain
Probably because you're the one playin' the mind games
You hate me because I don't let you play no mind games
They give me migraines and damage my brain
Date me, break me, easily replace me
Hopefully you see it clear, hopefully it's HD
Bet you wonder why the last few months I've been spacey
In your head, I sing
And tell me how you hate me, hate me, still tryna replace me
Chase me, chase me, tell me how you hate me
Erase me, 'rase me, wish you never dated me
Lies, tell me lies, baby, tell me how you hate me
Hate me, hate me, still tryna replace me
Chase me, chase me, tell me how you hate me
Erase me, 'rase me, wish you never dated me
Lies, tell me lies, baby, tell me how you hate me
It's a thin line between all this love and hate (Okay)
And if you switch sides, you're gon' have to claim your place (Okay)
So baby, this time you're gon' have to seal your fate (Okay)
Yeah baby, this time you're gon' have to seal your fate
And tell me how you hate me, hate me, still tryna replace me
Chase me, chase me, tell me how you hate me
Erase me, 'rase me, wish you never dated me
Lies, tell me lies, baby, tell me how you hate me
Tell me how you hate me, hate me, still tryna replace me
Chase me, chase me, tell me how you hate me
Erase me, 'rase me, wish you never dated me
Lies, tell me lies, baby, tell me how you hate me
Tell me how you hate me
Lies, tell me lies, tell me how you hate me
Tell me how you hate me
Lies, tell me lies, baby, tell me how you hate me


She was going to definitely pay one day for toying with my heart.

She would pay and suffer the same pain.

I just remember the door being kicked open and my father hurling me away from the shattered broken glass.

I had been punching the wall venting out all my anger and sadness.

My knuckles were covered in blood.
Lots of blood.

"Marcus..."
"Marcus..."
"Marcus..."


Everything went dark as the paramedics injected me with something that made me weak and my eyes closed.

Steps and more steps.

I left my body and stared at the disaster I had created all because of a fucking girl.

Screw it.

She had made me weak and vulnerable.
Love was a weakness.
It had only weakened me and brought me more pain.

And I wish I hadn't blindly trusted Chelsea Evans.

Where she was I wanted her to suffer and go through the same fucking pain.

When I woke up. I was stunned to find myself in a white room. I couldn't get up because I was chained to the bed like some animal.

I'm sure they had brought me to some mental hospital.

I recalled Chelsea's horrible words and my anger resurfaced.

She called me crazy.

I should have snapped her neck when I had the chance.

I wouldn't mind going to prison.

The door opened and a man with grey hair and reading glasses walked in. He was wearing a white coat and his name tag was indicated as Alan.

"Good morning Mr. Devon how are you feeling?"

I rolled my eyes in annoyance.

"Pissed."

He took note of my comment on his notepad.

"Are you some shrink?"

He smiled.

"Something like that Mr. Devon" he said quietly.

He removed the chains and eyed my curiously.

"Why am I here?" I demanded angrily.

"Relax Mr. Devon last night you had lost control and went on a dangerous rampage."

I sighed deeply.

Shit.

" You were destroying everything and your father was just worried that you might hurt yourself physically."

I nodded.
Like my own father gives a damn about me.

That's just a lie.

"Can I ask you some shrink related questions" he said quietly and I smiled.

He was a funny guy. I think we would get along just fine.

"Sure."

"Okay what caused you to act like that?" Doctor Alan asked curiously.

The darkness inside me resurfaced.

My muscles twitched and I grasped the white bed sheets tightly.

"Relax Mr. Devon if you don't feel like answering me I can come back later."

I swallowed hard.

"I went to kill her right now. Cut off that pretty smile on her face."

He gave me a puzzled look.

And I began chuckling.

" I'm going to kill her too."

Doctor Alan got up and left.

I got up and began tossing everything across the wall.

"I hate you!"

I slumped on the floor weakly and stared at the wall covered in blood.

I had written something on the wall.
It was written in blood.
My blood.

CHELSEA.

The darkness engulfed me and I went limp.

I could see blood and more blood.

I had stabbed myself.


She did this to me.


SIX MONTHS LATER


I was released from rehab. But I still had to visit doctor Alan every week.

He was assigned as my personal doctor.
I still can't believe that I survived surgery.

Stabbing myself was a stupid decision in the first place.
I knew that I had to work hard and finally sharpen my life again. I couldn't stay with my father so I had considered Mr. Smith's offer.

I moved in with him and his family accepted me with open arms.

It was nice to have a family that actually cares about me.
I focused more on school so that I could get good grades and graduate.