Chapter nineteen

MARCUS'S POV


Life without her wasn't the same; it felt like I had gone back to square where nobody cared about me.

Chelsea was the only one who made it feel like home. It's been a mother and I miss her desperately.

Her schedule is really tight so we only talked a few times but I always left her messages in case he got free.

Mr. Smith placed my test results on my desk and I snapped out of thoughts my gaze lingered on his concerned face.

"Sorry sir I wasn't listening."

He nodded quietly.

"I'm concerned Mr. Devon ever since Ms. Evans left this school your grades have been going down. Is something wrong?"

I shook my head negatively.

Mr. Smith sighed deeply and sat beside me.

The bell rang and students quickly rushed out leaving us alone. He everybody looked at me like I was in trouble or something.

He placed his hand on my shoulder.

"Marcus I know that Chelsea was the only friend you had ever since she started here but I want to tell you something personally."

I nodded.

" Chlsea was a grade lower than you but despite that she still wanted to skip one grade and get enrolled into this very class."

I stared at him curiously.

" When I asked her the reason she simply said to me. Marcus Devon is surrounded by darkness that comes from his past he needs to see the light and be happy."

I blinked twice when I felt my heart tighten in my chest.

" Marcus, she was right ever since she enrolled in this class. I noticed you change. You smiled more and you were happy."

" Just because she left doesn't mean that you should go back to the sad person you were. Look inside and dig deep. Chelsea came here to help you don't let her efforts be in vain."

I nodded and Mr. Smith got up and left.

He left me his phone number in case I need it and if I change my mind.

Chelsea was an angel in disguise.

I stared at the card in my hand for a moment and shoved it in my backpack.

Maybe one I would consider it.

I walked out of class and made my way outside. My gaze lingered on the spot .Chelsea and I used to hang out.

My chest tightened when I recalled our first kiss. I was so sweaty and nervous but I never showed it. I wanted Chelsea to trust herself and be more confident.

She needed to follow her instincts and just go with the flow.


She was the only light I needed in my dark days and she was the only person that kept me saint. Her love had buried the darkness away but I still feared that one day the barrier would break and the monster inside me would resurface once more.

I don't know why but I found myself walking towards our favorite spot and pulled out a novel.

Her favorite book.
After by Anna Toad.

It kinda felt like the story somehow related to our actual life like Chelsea was Tessa and I was Hardin.

He had darkness as well just like me.
Mr. Smith was right Chelsea had changed me into a better person, a person that was trapped inside me sheldied by the darkness that made me cold.

I missed everything about her. This place didn't seem that special in her absence. I took a photo of the book I was reading and sent her a photo.

"It's not the same without you."
I hit send and leaned against the oak tree thinking of the moment we met for the first time.

Right at this very place.

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

I sighed deeply and released the breath I was holding.

I went back home and slumped on the bed staring back at the ceiling. I wanted to call Chelsea but I went against it and placed back my phone on the table.

Maybe I would call her later. I closed my eyes and drifted to sleep. It felt like I was floating in thin air like outta space.

I was surrounded by darkness but at a far distance I could see a tunnel of light. I followed it and it led to a dark room. It was full of chains and dead skeletons.

The place gave me the chills. Something was written on the wall in a red substance.


BEWARE YOUR END IS NEAR.

Before I could respond the room began spinning and everything turned pitch black. I woke up breathing hard. I wiped the sweat off my forehead and I turned on the lights.

When I glanced at my phone it was only 2.am in the morning.

It was just a nightmare.

I sighed deeply and slumped on the bed. Music slowly playing in the background.


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No, no, no, no
No-no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
I still see your shadows in my room
Can't take back the love that I gave you
It's to the point where I love and I hate you
And I cannot change you, so I must replace you, oh
Easier said than done
I thought you were the one
Listenin' to my heart instead of my head
You found another one
But I am the better one
I won't let you forget me
I still see your shadows in my room
Can't take back the love that I gave you
It's to the point where I love and I hate you
And I cannot change you, so I must replace you, oh
Easier said than done
I thought you were the one
Listenin' to my heart instead of my head
You found another one
But I am the better one
I won't let you forget me
You left me falling and landing inside my grave
I know that you want me dead
I take prescriptions to make me feel a-okay
I know it's all in my head
I have these lucid dreams where I can't move a thing
Thinking of you in my bed
You were my everything
Thoughts of a wedding ring
Now I'm just better off dead (uh, uh, uh)
I'll do it over again
I didn't want it to end
I watch it blow in the wind
I should've listened to my friends
Leave this shit in the past
But I want it to last
You were made outta plastic, fake
I was tangled up in your drastic ways
Who knew evil girls have the prettiest face?
You gave me a heart that was full of mistakes
I gave you my heart and you made heartbreak
You made my heart break
You made my heart ache (I still see the shadows in my room)
You made my heart break
You made my heart ache (can't take back the love that I gave you)
You made my heart break (were made outta plastic, fake)
You made my heart ache (I still see the shadows in my room)
You made my heart break again (I was tangled up in your drastic ways)
(Who knew evil girls have the prettiest face?)
I still see your shadows in my room
Can't take back the love that I gave you
It's to the point where I love and I hate you
And I cannot change you so I must replace you, oh
Easier said than done
I thought you were the one
Listening to my heart instead of my head
You found another one
But I am the better one
I won't let you forget me
I still see your shadows in my room
Can't take back the love that I gave you
It's to the point where I love and I hate you
And I cannot change you so I must replace you, oh
Easier said than done
I thought you were the one
Listening to my heart instead of my head
You found another one
But I am the better one
I won't let you forget me
Leave this shit in the past but I want it to last
You were made outta plastic, fake
I was tangled up in your drastic ways
Who knew evil girls have the prettiest face?
Easier said than done
I thought you were
Instead of my head, you found another, better one
I won't let you forget me