+CHAPTER 43+ Her Soul Will Scream For Mercy

Curling up in the corner of her room and crying her heart out was not the part of Amber's revenge plan and the worst part about her situation was that Amber was so afraid that someone will find out that she was crying that she was sniffing her sobs by covering her mouth with her palms.

Sometimes it's just hard to stay strong~

Amber's eyes were squeezed shut but tears were still flowing out of them. Her body was trembling with her sobs.

She can hear a faint heartbeat in her silent room but that heartbeat did not belong to her. It was coming from her womb.

Which made Amber cry even harder. . .

She was sitting in the room where Darach had promised to love her, to cherish her. She was sitting in the room where she had bared her soul to Darach only for him to forsake her at the end.

He was like a breath of fresh air that Amber had breathed in and then she had to breathe out. Let him go.

She had begged him to stay, in her desperation she had offered him that she will hide her scars but he had not given a single shit.

After so long of being ignored by everyone Darach had made her feel special. It had felt so good to know that she had a soulmate who will love her but in the end, Darah left giving Amber a new relation she could grieve.

Her stomach felt torn apart as if someone had stabbed her with a knife.

But that was not the sole thing about which Amber was crying about. The idea that made her sob was that after listening to her child's heartbeat she wanted to end her own child's life.

Panic had gripped her heart, she was afraid that the child will be disgusted with her just like Darach.

Or even worse, what if her baby turned out to be a witch? The child will long for acceptance just like its mother.

Amber was afraid to bring a new life in this cruel world. She didn't want her baby to go through the things she had suffered.

She was afraid that if she gave birth to a boy then he will choose Darach over her and if Amber gave birth to a girl than things can turn out even worse.

Amber had blamed her mother for her every suffering what if her daughter started hating Amber for bringing her in this cruel world where her own father will despise the fact that his daughter is a witch.

Darach had told Amber that her kind disgusts him so how can he accept a witch daughter?

Could Amber's daughter be strong enough to withstand the disgust in Darach's eyes?

The things the Oracle had told Amber were the things she was running away from.

Amber didn't want to acknowledge the Fey Princess's reasonings.

After the Oracle had demonstrated things from Emmeline's perspective Amber's stomach had dropped and all she wants now was to isolate herself from everyone.

All her life Amber had refused to think from her mother's point of view. But now when fate had placed Amber in her mother's shoes she came to realize how her mother would have felt when she had felt the witch's essence in Amber.

Dark Gods!

Darach had not cheated on Amber, he had just hurt her and it had pulled such strong emotions within her against her own blood just because the child has the blood of the man who had hurt Amber.

The Oracle was right, Aric had no idea what a woman can do when she's betrayed or hurt.

Amber can't even interpret how the Fey Princess would have felt when she had held Amber in her arms only to come to know that her own daughter was a constant reminder of her mate's betrayal.

Amber felt like she had no one to tell what was going in her head and how her thoughts were slowing killing her.

A part of her wants to forgive her mother but she can't do that because hating and blaming Emmeline had become a part of her personality.

Amber wished she had died in the wastelands. She felt like she was never going to be good enough for anyone.

Two small hands pulled back Amber's hands that were covering her mouth.

"Amber. . ." Rebecca's gentle voice reached her ears but Amber didn't open her eyes.

Amber could not face her, not after what she had planned to do to her child. Dropping her face in her hands again Amber sobbed.

She wanted to scream, the pain in her chest was suffocating her, splitting her into halves.

Her body shook and convulsed with sobs. Abruptly Rebecca scooted Amber's body closer to her. Her arms banded around Amber and Rebecca clutched her tightly to her chest.

Years ago Amber had held Rebecca in her arm. She had given Rebecca a shoulder to cry on and now years after the roles were reversed.

Amber felt a light kiss on her hair. Soon Rebecca started murmuring consoling words in her ears.

After some time Amber felt Rebecca's hand touching her stomach.

Amber's eyes flashed open~

Pulling back she looked at Rebecca in alarm. How does she know?

As if reading her mind Rebecca whispered.
"Rome and I were spying on you. We were afraid that you will try something stupid again. " She didn't even look guilty for spying on Amber.

"I'm so happy for you Amber. Why are you crying?" She wiped Amber's tears.

"Because I don't fucking know what else to do Rebecca. I can't find pea-- peace." Amber hiccuped.

Rebecca gave Amber a soft smile. Her eyes were full of grief.
"Isn't peace what we all want?"

Rebecca caressed Amber's stomach again and Amber's heart twisted at the broken look in her eyes.

"How does it feels Amber? To know that you will be able to create a life inside you?" Amber's throat tightened at Rebecca's question. Amber didn't know how to answer Rebecca's question in a way that will not hurt her.

"I was so angry at you, Rome was so angry at you for what you were going to do, for trying to leave us." Rebecca looked at Amber with unshed tears.

Her bottom lip trembled.

Amber knew that Rebecca was talking about her suicidal attempt. She had not even come to meet Amber after the words went out that Amber was going to get herself killed by Aric.

"I'm sorry." Amber looked down in shame.

"I wanted to be there for you but I couldn't bear to stand in your presence knowing that you are walking on my path. I never thought that the woman who had saved me from ending my life will try to get herself killed." Rebecca leaned her head against Amber's head, her hand was still caressing Amber's stomach. Both of them were sitting on the floor.

Rebecca closed her eyes for a second before she opened them again.

"You are going to be a mother Amber, A mother." Rebecca laughed with tears falling from her eyes.

Rebecca the broken doll that can't be fixed~

Looking at the happiness on Rebecca's face made Amber more guilty for thinking about killing her own child. She was given a blessing that women longed for.

"I think I'm not ready Rebecca. What if the child started to hate me for bringing him in the world where his father can't stand his mother? Everything is so sick and twisted around us. I myself don't want to live in this world then how can I curse a child to live in this world?." Amber voiced her fears.

"The child is going to love you, Amber. The child is going to look at you as a fierce warrior who had a heart of gold... The child is going to see the respect and love your people have in their hearts for you Amber. You have always been there to help others. You are not alone Amber, you just have to look around and see how many people are ready to give their lives for you. The child's going to be adored by every single person under your protection. You are true Queen and you are going to turn into a marvelous mother."

At Rebecca's words of Amber being always there for everyone made her realize that she had not thought about Rebecca when she had sent her messengers to invite anyone in her territory who wants to witness Emmeline's downfall.

Dark Gods!

What if Connor came along with her mother and what if Darach came too?

She had not thought that before!

"Tomorrow my mother is coming, Rebecca and I have a feeling that Connor will be there too with her. I'm sorry. I was so caught up in my rage towards my mother that I didn't think about you. I invited him right back to our home." Amber rubbed her pounding head.

She was having a hard time keeping track of everything going in her life. Everything around her had turned into such a mess.

"It's not your fault Amber. I have realized that I can't hide from him for my whole immortal life." There was a bitterness in Rebecca's voice.

"You don't have to do this Rebecca I can throw him out as soon as he puts his foot on my territory." Amber offered.

"You don't have to do that. You have protected me for so long and I think it's time for me to face my demons. His beast had seen me and I know it better than anyone else that his beast won't let me run any more." Rebecca had a distant look on her face as if she was recalling something.

"You are going to forgive him?" Amber asked softy.

"I didn't say that I'm going to forgive him. He thinks that he had suffered. I'm just going to change the meaning of suffering for him." Rebecca's eyes were shining with hatred.

"You are going to tell him?" Amber questioned.

"Yes and I'm going to relish every minute of his misery. I will make him wish that he had not come after me. I vow Amber that he will regret coming here. He didn't know yet that ignorance is a blessing for him. I'm going to tear him apart." Amber cringed at Rebecca's words. The secrets that she was going to uncover where going to destroy Connor.

The misery Connor was going to suffer Amber wouldn't wish it upon her worst enemy.

"I can break your bond, Rebecca. You just need to say the word and it will be done." Amber whispered.

"Break my mate bond and release him? No, Amber, the mate bond will make the pain a hundred times worse for him. Why would I suffer alone? He needs to know how he had torn me apart." Rebecca gave Amber's stomach a longing look.

For the first time in so many years, Rebecca didn't look like a broken doll. At this moment she looked like a woman hell-bent on making Connor's life a living hell.

The secrets she was going to uncover were going to destroy Connor for forever.
Amber silently prayed for Connor to not come along Emmeline.

"What happened to the Oracle?" Amber asked changing the topic.

"The Dragon took her to his house, she passed out a moment after you but before passing out she had vomited black blood, just like you. It was horrible Amber. Her nose won't stop bleeding even after she passed out." Amber knew what that means, just like Amber the Oracle bleeds too at the excessive use of her powers.

Amber looked at Rebecca and suddenly she had a feeling that Rebecca wasn't telling her everything.

"What aren't you telling me, Rebecca?" Amber demanded.

"You need to rest Amber. You haven't slept in days." Rebecca said instead of answering her.

"Believe me, Rebecca, I have already survived the worst today and what you aren't telling me is not gonna mess with my mind because it's already a mess." Amber assured Rebecca with a sadistic smile.

After some hesitation, Rebecca gave in.
"The Dragon lost his shit when the Oracle won't stop bleeding. When Rome tried to help him, the Dragon had slashed Rome's cheek with his claws."

Amber abruptly stood from the floor at Rebecca's words. Rebecca winced at her reaction.

"Where is Rome?" Amber asked.

Rome was still a kid. He had not frozen into immortality yet and any injury can be fatal for him. He was like a child, Amber's child.

Her silly stubborn child.

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"That mother fucker! That's what I get for helping others?" Rome moaned in pain.

Rebecca had entered Rome's room but Amber was still standing outside. Maybe she should head back.

If Rome was whining that means that he wasn't in any fatal condition.

Amber turned around to leave.
"Are you going to stand outside all night?" Her shoulders stiffened at Rome's words.

She turned back with a groan and entered Rome's room.

His room was enormous with a king-size bed and a large dressing table with different ointments placed on it in a precise order that Rome uses for his skincare.

Rome's home was the largest house on Amber's territory.

"And please pass me the mirror on your way in." Rome muttered in a fake tired tone from his bed.

He was such a pussy!

Amber's body stiffened again when her gaze fell on Rome's face. Three long red wounds were glaring at her.

The Dragon did a really nasty work on Rome. The wounds were going to heal but they were going to leave scars. Amber knew how much Rome hated scars. Her fists clenched.

Maybe Amber needs to remind the Dragon his place. No one was allowed to lay a hand on her family. Rome and Rebecca were the only family Amber had known.

As if sensing her thoughts Rome spoke in a dismissive tone. "It was not his fault. I was stupid enough to step near a dragon's bride while he was in his enraged form. Now can you please pass the mirror." Rone pointed towards the dressing table.

Without a word, Amber opened the drawer of the dressing table and picked one of the seven mirrors from the drawer. Rome was a narcissist who was obsessed with his beauty. He has the superpower of admiring his own face in the mirror for days.

Amber still remembers that when Rome was little he used to carry a mirror in his pocket. Even when Amber was training him he had laid his own set of rules which had forbidden Amber from hitting him on his face.

Amber's lips curved in a smile at the memory.

Rome was really something else. Demons were known for their barbaric ways and hard looks but not Rome.

He was a demon but he was the exact opposite of his kind. Rome has always been more worried about this looks than his battle skills.

"Catch." Amber threw the mirror towards Rome, catching the mirror with his left hand Rome started inspecting his wounds.

"That son of a bitch." Rome cursed while lightly tracing his wound with his fingers. "How I am going to welcome my nephew in this world with these long ugly wounds? They are definitely going to leave scars." Rome gasped in horror.

"I can heal them." Amber offered.

"You can but you should not use your powers that often now. I can live with the scars but I don't want my God child's health to be affected in any way." Rome scowled at her like she was stupid for even stated that.

"God child?" She whispered.

"Don't you dare deny me the right to be your child's Godfather." Rome gasped melodramatically.

"So you are not angry at me anymore?" Amber's lips curved in a smile.

"I was angry at you but that was before knowing that you are going to give me a child to spoil." Amber's heart swelled inside her chest. She had a sudden urge to throw herself at Rome and hug him tightly.

She looked at Rebecca who was standing in the corner. Rebecca had a 'told you' look on her face but Amber can see the longing in her eyes too.

How could Amber have thought that her child won't be loved?
Rebecca was right Amber just needs to look around, not at the cruelty of the world but at the beauty, not at the hate but at the love.

A knock sounded at the front door.

"I will get that." Rebecca offered. After a few minutes, she came back.

"It's your father Amber." Without saying a word Amber turned to leave Rome's bedroom.

"Hey, you did not tell me that I am going to be the godfather. Don't leave me a hanging woman." Rome shrieked like a banshee from behind her but Amber ignored him.

"I couldn't make her laugh." Amber halted in her track at Rome's voice.

"Give her time Rome. It's not easy for her, she's going through a lot." Rebecca assured him.

Amber's heart swelled. They were her true family. Rome despise any mark on his face and he knew that Amber could heal him but he had chosen her health above himself. He was trying so hard to make her smile, he was acting strong for her.

She was surrounded by people who loved her but she can't let go of the ones who had left her~

Stepping out of Rome's house she stared that her father. He was standing there, he looked tired. Her father's eyes lingered at her face before they zoomed on her stomach.

He had a worried expression on his face and why wouldn't he? He knew what was going on in Amber's mind before. He knew that she had planned to kill the child.

He visibly swallowed when he looked in Amber's eyes.

He was scared but not for himself, he was afraid that his daughter was going to follow her mother's path.

Tomorrow Amber was going to break her parent's mate bond, tomorrow she was officially going to meet her mother.

Now standing in the same position as her mother Amber had realized that her mother did nothing wrong. The Fey Princess's situation was a hundred times worse than Amber's.

Amber wanted to forgive her mother but at the same time, she wants to see her suffer. There was an inner battle going on within Amber.

Amber was running away from her own self. She was running away from the voices screaming inside her head. The Queendom that had provided comfort to her was now scaring her.

Invisible walls were closing up on her. Suffocating her.

Only one night stands between her vengeance but this night was not passing.

Is it possible for a night felt like a hundred years?

Amber sat down on the ground. She pulled her knees to her chest. At that moment she felt so vulnerable.

"Can't sleep?" Her father's voice pulled Amber out of her thoughts. She looked at him. He sat beside her without asking. Amber shook her head in 'no' at his question.

"Mee too." A long silence fell between them after that.

"Can I ask something from you?" Amber's heart skipped a beat at her father's pleading tone.

She hated the fact that how much she hoped that Aric was going to ask her not to break his mate bond but her hopes were crushed by his next words when she nodded her head in yes.

"I know I might be asking for a little too much from you but I think Darach deserves a second chance." Amber looked that her father, shame-filled her very being.

She had asked her father to give up on his relationship but he was asking Amber to give her relationship another chance.

"I am not sure." She mumbled, looking away from Aric. He chuckled at her reply.

"Forgive him, my girl..." At Aric's statement, Ambers's eyes flashed towards Aric. Hot flames were burning inside her eyes.

"Why should I forgive him, father? He called me a bitch, he called me a vile creature. He was planning to turn me into his breeding whore. He loathed the fact that I'm a witch. I pleaded him not to break my heart but he didn't care. He humiliated me in front of everyone." Amber hated how her voice cracked at the end.

"He is just a child like you who let his hate rule his logic and heart. You have to accept this my child that every person is going through his own type of hell. You can compare your hardships with someone else hardships. If you have gone through tough phases is in your life then Darach has faced his own set of nightmares. The only difference between you two is that while your hardships made you stronger his hardships turned him into an irresponsible and impulsive person."

Amber had the urge to tell her father that she does not give a fuck about Darach but she asked instead.
"Why do you want me to forgive him?"

"Because I don't want you to rewrite your mother and my story. One Emmeline and Aric are enough, I don't want Amber and Darach to become the second one." Aric said in a hoarse voice.

Aric's statement left a million questions in Ambers's mind.

Was she doing the right thing by splitting Aric and Emmeline?

Was it right to make Emmeline go through this heartbreak for abandoning her?

What if Amber regrets breaking her parent's bond? She knows how to break the bonds but Amber did not have the power two mend the broken bonds.

There will be no turning back. Amber had blamed Darach for being blinded by his hate but isn't she doing the same to her parents? She is destroying their relationship because of her hatred towards Emmeline.


Amber watched her father standing on his feet. He ruffled her hair playfully. It was a small gesture of affection but it tugged at Amber's heart.

"Let's go." He offered her a hand.

"Where?" Amber asked while taking Aric's offered hand.

"I'm going to leave you to your house then I have to check on Aidan." Aric replied.

"Have you seen the Oracle lose control before?" Amber asked because earlier Aric and told the Dragon to control his bride because she was losing her shit again. Which means that Aric had seen her lose control before.

"It happened a long time ago. I had met her when Charlie was alive but I didn't know that they were twin sisters, I thought that they were friends. I had seen Charlie calming the Oracle down a few times she lost control and I think that Charlie was the only one who could calm her down because today her own mate wasn't about to control her." Aric exhaled a long sight.

"Did you ever loved Charlie?" Amber asked but immediately regretted her question. "Sorry, I should not have asked that."

"I did love her but as a friend. She had a beautiful soul. There was nothing about her not to love." Aric told Amber truthfully.

"The Oracle had always loathed me even before I met your mother. One time she had warned me that I was walking towards an inevitable doom and when I asked her what did she mean by that the Oracle had forgotten what she had told me. After Charlie's death, I searched for her in hopes that she will help me to find your mother but the moment the Oracle saw me she lost her shit and stabbed me instead of helping me. I barely survived that day." Aric confessed.

"She lost her sister and she still wants to help us who are responsible for her twin's death." Amber whispered.

"Love is a dangerous thing my girl, it destroyed Charlie. Charlie had once told me that the Oracle belonged to a cursed house of witches. And it's forbidden to talk about them or let their name slip from your lips. I wish I had asked about the curse from Charlie, it might have helped Aidan."

"Why? Are you close to the Dragon?" Amber asked her father. Maybe the curse is the reason behind the Oracle's running away from the Dragon. And if it's true then Amber had a feeling that the Oracle will try to run away from the Dragon again.

Stopping outside her home Aric mumbled.
"That's a discussion for another time. For now, you need to rest. I won't compromise on my grandchild's health." Amber felt a familiar ache in her heart when Aric kissed her forehead before he turned to leave.

"Do you still love her?" Amber was holding her breath, waiting for his answer.

Without turning back Aric asked.
"Do you want an honest answer?"

"Yes." Amber whispered.

"I never stop loving her my child. It's not like I have not tried, it's just that I don't know how to unlove her. And I don't think that I will ever be able to unlove her. Her love is breathing inside my soul and I don't know how to kill a part of my soul." Amber's breath hitched at his words.

"What I did to your mother was wrong and I think that a lifetime of misery or guilt won't be enough for her forgiveness. And the same goes for her, what she did to you was immoral. Both of us are paying for our deeds. It's not your fault." And then he was gone.

Leaving Amber with a new set of doubts.

The woman in Amber doesn't find anything wrong with what Emmeline did but the daughter in her can't let go of the past. The daughter who was forced to grow up before her age and protect her self from the creatures Emmeline threw her at the mercy of.

Amber doesn't know what tomorrow has in stores for her but she knows that tomorrow won't be bringing forgiveness for Emmeline.

Her soul will scream for mercy just like Amber and she will have none.