Chapter XXX

"What the fuck... What the fuck... What the fuck..." I kept chanting by mumbling those words as I got my bag and managed to grasp what was happening. "Holy shit... What just happened?" I mumbled as I was closing the door and my hands were fidgeting in nervousness. "Stop, heart! Stop!" I castigated myself hearing my heart pumping so wild as my chest rose up and down.

Sebastian kissed my lower ear! He kissed it! I fucking felt it!

I even had shivers down my spine.

I couldn't be possibly wrong about it. I knew what it felt.

I acted calm as soon as I left the office and saw him waiting for me. His eyes were transfixed to his Rolex wristwatch and to me.

"Sebastian."

"Hmm?"

I almost bit my lower lip. "Um... You do not need to drop me off. I have errands to do."

"Oh?" He arched his eyebrow. "What errands is that? I can bring you in my car."

Here we go with his stubbornness. I knew that I wouldn't win against him if I didn't allow him. Sebastian knew that.

I nodded. "You can drop me at the nearest mall," I said when we were in the parking lot.

Sebastian didn't say anything. I went to the passenger's seat when he started the engine of his car.

"What's your errand there?" Sebastian asked after a moment of silence.

Sighing, I crossed my arms over my chest. "I have to buy a new dress."

"For a party?"

"For blind date," I corrected.

At that moment, I almost bumped my head into the dashboard if I weren't wearing the seatbelt and screamed when Sebastian stepped into the brake immediately.

"What the fuck is wrong with you, Sebastian?!" I asked, feeling myself palpitating in shock because of what happened.

"Did you just say blind date?" he asked, gripping the steering wheel tightly.

Confused, I nodded. "Yes..." My chest still rose up and down. I was still in need of calming myself because of his sudden break. I wanted to scold him but he suddenly fell silent. It weirded me out all of a sudden. "Is there something wrong?" I asked after I calmed down.

His darkened face didn't dissipate but he already started the engine. "Why did you decide to enter a blind date?" he asked after a moment of silence.

I wanted to ask him why he suddenly made a brake to his car but it looked like he was not in the mood for that. Instead, he wanted to pry on my business. Perhaps, it was safe to tell him, yes?

"Marlou set me up..." I started.

"Then why didn't you say no?"

I shook my head. "I can't." Must I tell him about how horrible my father is sometimes?

"Then what?" I could sense the hostility starting to smear his tone for some reason. I glanced at him to see that he looked pissed right now.

I rolled my lips inside my mouth, hesitant if I would still say something or not. But in the end, I still told him the reason. "If my father finds out that I am not actually dating someone, he would be the one who would set me up for a blind date. Or worse, an arranged marriage." I immediately held on to my seatbelt when Sebastian stepped on the brake pedal again. "Fuck, Sebastian! What the hell?!"

I clutched my chest, hearing how my heart was pounding so fast. I glared at him and saw him glaring back at me.

"What?" I looked at him in disbelief. Why did he look pissed? I didn't say something wrong. "What the fuck, Sebastian?" I hissed at him. "Tell me what is going on with you..." I said, annoyed.

I wasn't happy with his attitude. When he didn't answer and remained silent, I took my bag and opened the car door.

"Cejay..."

I turned to him. "I'm going to hail a fucking cab if you kept putting my life in danger, boss," I emphasized the latter word.

I went to the side of the road to wait for a cab. He couldn't just be ruining my Friday night as I need to settle a new dress right now. But it looked like Sebastian wouldn't give up now since he halted his car in front of me.

He rolled down his car window glass in the passenger seat. "Cejay, I apologize for my behavior earlier. Come here now, please."

I didn't spare him a glance. I crossed my arms over my chest, feeling pissed off right now. "Don't make an attitude on me. My work is done here," I remarked before he could say anything such as ordering me around.

Sebastian sighed and got out of his car. I glanced at him when he was in front of me. I got to smell his intoxicating perfume that somehow made my nostrils more sensitive than before.

"Cejay..." He pleaded.

"Sir, I suggest that you should let me on my own. Your attitude is pissing me off," I said honestly.

He expressed a guilty expression. It shocked me because I thought he had no capability to express a guilty expression. All I knew for a year working with him as he was being grumpy but sometimes he knew how to tease well. There was this moment when he couldn't control his feelings which was why he was being irrational sometimes.

I ignored him when I saw a cab. I was about to hail it when Sebastian blocked my way. "Please."

"H-Hey..." My eyes widened when he suddenly knelt in front of me. I gasped. "W-What are you doing, Sebastian?" I was surprised that he was acting like this now.

This wasn't the Sebastian I knew. Why was he being like this? Especially to me?

"Sir..." I tried to help him to stand up but he wouldn't budge. "What the fuck, Sebastian..." I almost stomped my feet in annoyance when he didn't make an inch of movement. He was looking at me like he was some sort of lost puppy. "Sir Sebastian, stand up, please!" I was feeling frustrated because I couldn't even urge this man to stand up. "Tsk..." He didn't say anything and watched me feeling frustrated at his attitude. "Fine, fine. I am going into your car! Stand up!"

Sebastian grinned and stood up. He didn't even bother to remove the dirt on his trousers and just opened the car door for me. "Get in then."

I squinted my eyes at him. "You manipulator..." I barked but he only smiled more.

I just shook my head and got inside his car again. I couldn't believe I fell for that petty trick of his. I was so surprised at that moment, I couldn't think properly. It was the first time that Sebastian had ever done that to me.

However, why did he feel overwhelmed when he did that? I felt my insides ticklish all of a sudden as I didn't expect that Sebastian could act something like this. I felt like a queen all of a sudden and a king was ready to bow before his queen.

Neither of us was speaking throughout the whole ride. When I glanced at Sebastian just now, he didn't look annoyed right now unlike earlier because of the way he acted. It was somehow bizarre for me that he was being like this.

We arrived at the mall when he parked his car. "Don't tell me you are coming with me?" I said when I noticed that he was unbuckling his seatbelt.

"Why not?" Now, he looked to be in a good mood. He really was a bipolar one. How did I endure working with him for a year again?

Did I almost get insane?

"I have nothing to do so..." he paused, indicating that he would come with me right now.

"They would think that I am with a boyfriend if I pick some dresses." I rolled my eyes when we went to the elevator.

"Then, it's good."

I stiffened and looked at him in disbelief. "What did you just say?" Did I hear it wrong? I heard it correctly, right?

"I said, I don't mind." Sebastian shrugged his shoulders.

"Right..." This man... His behavior kept changing like a season. It was somehow making me shiver down my spine. Sometimes, I didn't know how to deal with him every single day. I didn't even know how I really survived his bipolar attitude.

Sebastian came with me to the clothing stores as I started to look for a new dress for tomorrow. I picked up the back-revealing red dress and showed it to Sebastian. "What do you think?" I asked as I twirled around, smiling.

I could have sworn I saw his jaw drop before he cleared his throat and smiled. "You look gorgeous... as always," he said dreamily.

My heart raced rapidly when I got to hear that compliment from him. I felt my cheeks tinted in embarrassment right now because my boss complimented me right now. It was making me feel tingles right now.

"Thanks," I said, murmuring. "I think I will take this." I looked at him for his approval.

He only nodded. "It's a shame that you only buy it for a freaking blind date. Why don't you come for a date?" he asked when I returned to the changing room.

I pulled down the dress, revealing my naked upper body in front of the mirror. "I already tried but it's always a fucked up one." I checked out myself up and down while I was quietly listening to Sebastian.

"You deserve someone better. Someone who will be interested to know you with just one glance."

I bit my lower lip as my breath became heavy, closing my eyes. His husky baritone voice somehow turned me on. I felt like I was listening to a boyfriend ASMR where this raspy voice was licking and whispering in my ear.

"They turned out to be a jerk," I said and wanted to hear him again. He was behind the curtains, I could tell because his voice was so near and almost whispering.

"Then, they don't deserve a woman like you." I inhaled and exhaled slowly when his voice really hit me to the core. I pinched the bridge of my nose, wondering why I was horny all of a sudden. Don't tell me... I was near to my period days? "You should not continue going out for a blind date, Cejay. What if they would turn out to be a jerk as you always experienced?"

I looked at myself in the mirror. My chest was rising up and down. Sebastian's voice was getting raspier than before. I mindlessly reached for my breasts and kneaded them. I closed my eyes, feeling sorry for Sebastian when I felt horny all of a sudden.

I silently castigated myself because this was not the first time I had done this to my body while I was listening to Sir Sebastian's deep tone.

Yes, I was really fantasizing about him.

Secretly.

"Sir?" I called.

"Hmm?" Damn it... I could have wished that he was the one I had been hearing in the ASMR I kept listening to.

I didn't say anything. I saw my cheeks tinted in red right now because I almost wanted to say if he could keep talking.

"Is there something wrong? Are you finished dressing up?"

"N—"

I didn't finish my words when, in an instant, Sebastian came inside. My eyes widened, gasping.

"What—" He couldn't continue his words but he caught me touching myself. My hand was on my breast while the other was on top of my panties.

I was about to scream at the top of my lungs when Sebastian quickly covered my mouth and made me lean my front body toward the mirror.

"Sshh..." I shivered when he pressed his front body to my body. "Now, tell me what on earth are you doing and you are touching yourself, love?" he asked after a moment of silence.