Chapter XXXIX

I asked while he was carefully putting me down. My eyes widened in admiration, leaving him alone on his ground as I approached them. Oh my, my favorite flower...

"Do you like them?"

My fingertips touched them before I mindlessly nodded. "Y-Yes..." I was almost rendered speechless since I was surrounded by tropical hibiscus. I was so fascinated that I did not want to leave my eyes on them.

I snapped back when in my peripheral vision, I caught Sebastian taking out his phone and taking a photo of me.

"Sebastian..." I frowned upon seeing that he was taking another photo of me. This man... He was really such a creep.

Sebastian softened and kept his phone in the pocket of his trousers. "Sorry. I just want to cherish this moment with you. Now that you have seen one of my surprises that is meant only for you." With that, he tucked a few strands of my hair behind my ear. "God... You are so beautiful, Cejay."

My heart raced rapidly from his words. The way his tone sounded that he admired me so badly was enough to make my mind go haywire. He was even looking at me as if I was the most precious item he ever had.

And damn it! Why did he grow more attractive to my eyes?

I snapped back when Sebastian put something on behind my ear only to find out that he shoved a tropical hibiscus on it.

"Now, you are a flower goddess." He softened more.

I couldn't help getting shy with the way he was looking at me. My heart couldn't handle how he looked at me like that.

"I-I want to take a rest." I immediately avoided him and went to the hammock the second thing I saw when I roamed my eyes around. But as soon as I sat there, I was surprised when Sebastian sat beside me. "W-What?" My eyes widened when I found myself sitting on his lap. "Sebastian!"

He grinned and wrapped his arms around me. I was about to scold him when he hugged me and sniffed my scent. "You are here now... I just want to make sure that I am not dreaming anymore..." He heaved out a sigh.

"G-Get off of me! You just want to lay on my breasts!" But I did not find that he was a pervert. I found him adorable to my eyes. I just couldn't handle that my boss was being like this to me when a year ago, he was treating me differently.

Was he just a sheep dressed in wolf's clothing? Was this Sebastian's true nature? A lovable, sweet one?

"You know... When I come here, I feel so lonely. I can only imagine that you are here, Cejay." He sounded bitter, but there was nostalgia lingering on his handsome face. "It feels different now that you are here."

"How did it feel different? Because you coerce me to be here?" I asked in a hostile tone.

I wanted to castigate myself, but I just couldn't help it. My heart kept hammering inside my chest. And having Sebastian's body near to mine did not help me to calm down. Instead, I felt my body was on fire right now.

Sebastian chuckled. "Nice try. But no." He looked up and smiled. "It is because I can finally show you how much I love you, Cejay. I have waited for so long to have you here."

I panicked when his eyes were getting misty. "W-Why are you crying?" I gasped when tears won't stop falling into his eyes. "Sebastian?" I immediately cupped his face, worried about what just happened.

He was talking about his devotion to me as if I was a saintess, but yet, look at him! He was being a crybaby!
And wait!

This was my first time seeing him crying!
"I am just happy, Cejay." I did not get to say anything when he took my hand and brought it to his lips.

That was the moment I couldn't do anything but watch him, looking at me as if I was a goddess.

"Damn... Even though I am just hugging you and we are near to each other, why did it feel like I am still far from you? I am really a lowly servant while you are a queen... I do not deserve to love you..."

My eyes widened. "Why would you think that you are a lowly servant?" This boss of mine... Why was he saying such despicable words? And why did he look like he had some low self-esteem?

Where was the Sebastian that I knew who was grumpy and who looked like a god? Who kept ordering people around him as if they were some sort of peasants?

"Because..." he paused when he hiccuped. I couldn't help using my other free hand to wipe the tears from his cheek. "It is because that is how I feel towards you." He sighed. "I feel unworthy. That is why I can only watch you from afar. I can only love you from a certain distance." He smiled bitterly. "And I feel like we are moving in a different world. You are on the upper side while I am on the lower side."

"Eh?" This man thought so highly of me. Was this the effect that he had come to love me for more than 15 years? "I... I do not know what to say..." That was the truth! His confessions were making me have crept.

I did not even know if I should believe in them, but the way he sounded and looked... Sebastian was being honest. Right?

He smiled and purred under my touch. "You do not have to say anything. Just please allow me to show that I am serious with you. I am willing to show that I am not fooling you. That is all I wanted, Cejay." He kissed my shoulder before he put his chin on it which made my heart pound. "I only live for you. If it is not because of you, I might be long dead right now..."

I scoffed, rolling my eyes. "You sound like you have died but I was the key to returning you to your life." He was being hilarious.

I did not know that Sebastian was capable to be like this. But I still did not understand when it started. I did not even know where we met.

When I looked at him to look for that mischievous expression he always had, I was surprised when he smiled... a melancholy one.

Wait... Why was he looking at me like that?

Was he serious about what he said? He almost died?!