Chapter XXXVI

Sebastian ushered me to go to the dining room. I couldn't lift an attitude with him as soon as he helped me to sit down and prepared breakfast for me.

"I know that you do not have many favorites when eating something in the morning. You like a meal that will surely fill your stomach," Sebastian said as he sat across from me. It was somehow bizarre to see him smiling. "So, I prepared the food that you will certainly like."

Yes, he surely smiled but he would only do that if he was teasing me or he was in a good mood. But seeing him that he was always smiling seemed refreshing to me. What I knew from working with him for a whole year that would turn into two years was he was always grumpy.

There were times that he would snap at anyone.

"I don't want to stay here..." I said as Sebastian was filling my plate. My heart was reacting so fast having him so close as he served me like I was his queen.

"Eat up." He certainly ignored my statement. "I will show you our island. I am certain that you will like it here, Cejay."

I looked at the meal I had on my plate. Truth to his words, Sebastian really prepared the food that would certainly fill my stomach. I was somehow surprised that there was some fresh orange and the meal he prepared was a pure heavy meal. There were some clubhouse sandwiches, fruit yogurt, scrambled eggs, and some vegetable salad.

"I am not hungry." I pushed away the plate to distance it from me. But my stomach betrayed me when it growled like a wild animal. That somehow made me embarrassed when I looked at Sebastian who had an amusing expression written on his face. "I-It's not what you think!"

I could have sworn I felt my cheeks getting red right now from humiliation.

"Cute," Sebastian said dreamily as his expression softened.

My heart leaped seeing that kind of expression he expressed. It certainly made me feel goosebumps.

"I am not cute!" I grimaced.

"You are getting cuter if you keep frowning, you know," Sebastian teased. I squinted my eyes at him. The nerve of this man... "I'd say you should eat up now, Cejay. They are still warm just as you like them." He gestured his head as if he was telling me that I should try it.

Having no choice, I took the plate and pulled it to me. Sighing, I was hesitant to eat it. "You did not put any love potion here, did you?" I asked, suspicious of him.

Knowing Sebastian and how he said before that he loved me for 16 years, he might do something that would surely make me fall in love with him in a shortcut way. Shit... He was such a creep after all.

I should've known beforehand that he was the one sabotaging my dates before. Perhaps the last blind date Marlou set up for me was ruined by Sebastian himself. That was for sure.

Sebastian gasped. "How did you know, love?"

Damn it! That endearment... Why did I feel ticklish somehow? What was this feeling?

"This is not funny, Sebastian." I decided to push away my plate again. I suddenly lost my appetite.

He chuckled. "I am just kidding, Cejay. I will never do that. It is better if I earn your love the hard way than the easy way, right?" I couldn't answer. I did not know what to answer actually. "Eat up. Don't spoil the food I made just for you." He pushed the plate towards me and grabbed the spoon. "Or shall I feed you? That would be favorable to me, right?"

"Stop it..." I turned my head away from the spoonful of scrambled eggs. "I am not a baby!" Damn this man! Why was he being like this to me?

He looked amused before he placed the spoon on my plate. "Or you can feed me. I have always dreamed of having you feeding me," he said dreamily.

"What are you? A baby?" Fuck this... Why was my heart beating so fast to the words he kept uttering?

"Is baby your endearment to me?" He grinned. "I would love that, Cejay!" He exclaimed. His eyes were sparkling in excitement.

That weirded me out. Okay... This was not Sebastian for certain. Or perhaps, this was really him. He had been hiding this beaming attitude from everyone for a very long time.

"Shut up!" I huffed and ignored him, taking the plate before I decided to eat. I realized I was extremely hungry as soon as I ate. I continued digging in until I emptied my plate and the glass of fresh orange juice.

I raised my glance and jumped to my seat when I realized that Sebastian was looking at me intently. I meant he had been watching me the whole time, not touching his food.

"What?" I crossed my arms over my chest, acting hostile at him.

He shook his head. "You are really adorable. I should have brought my camera to capture you then I will add it to my collection."

I could have sworn I had chills down my spine when he said that. "You are giving me heebie-jeebies..." I rolled my eyes.

I should've known beforehand that he was a creep but Sebastian was good at acting. How could I let my guard down?

He only shrugged, continuing to eat. I decided to stand up and brought my plate to the sink. I saw some of the dishes in it so I decided to wash them.

I knew that he was a creep but I still appreciate that he prepared breakfast for me. It was a shame if I did not share my part of doing some household chores with...

"No, no, no. I'll do it!"

I flinched when Sebastian knew what I was going to do. I panicked because he was right behind me, taking the dishes from my hands.

"Can you stop?" I took the dishes from him and put some of them in the sink.

"I was the one who cooked so—"

"Sit down!" I commanded him, squinting my eyes. Having him so close especially since he was half-naked was seriously making me hyperventilate.

I had been avoiding looking at his yummy six-pack abs but this man was really trying to make me look at them. Was he deliberately showing it so I could salivate on him?

"You are ordering me around?" Sebastian arched his eyebrow.

"So? Are you going to snap at me or what?" I asked, challenging him.

I thought that he would snap at me but he smiled and pulled me against him which made me gasp. "You are such a tease, huh? I really like that you are ordering me around. This is what I envisioned when we get married and have our kids, Cejay."

What he said made me feel goosebumps. What the heck? Why couldn't I move?

"In your dreams!" I struggled against his hold but to no avail Sebastian was so strong to not let me go. "Sebastian!" I am frustrated now.

Dear me... His half-naked upper body was so near to my face! Don't fucking seduce me like this, Sebastian!

I wanted to say that but before I could almost do it. I almost shrieked when he grabbed my ass and placed me on the kitchen counter. Then he placed himself in between my thighs, entrapping me in his arms.

His hands were teasingly grazed on my bra which sent shivers down my spine.

"W-What are you doing?" I asked, nervous.

His ocean blue eyes shifted on mine before he raised his hand to cup my cheek. "You have been desiring me back then, right?" he asked softly.

"No, it's not." I removed his hand from my face. I pushed him off me but he bounced back causing his crotch to brush against my clit which almost made me moan in delight. I gasped when his hands were on my waist, holding me still. "Sebastian!" Frustrated, I punched his chest.

But I only felt how solid it was and it hurts me to earn a chuckle from him. I grimaced after that.

"When we make love, this is one of the positions I have been wanting us to do, love," Sebastian said, grinning when he saw my contorting expression.

I smiled bitterly. "Make love? What the fuck are you saying?"

"Oh... Don't you want that term? Or perhaps, fucking you so hard and senselessly until I make you won't be able to walk anymore, does it make sense to you, Cejay?"

I looked at him in disbelief. But it certainly tickled my clit, shivering me.

Sebastian drew closer to my ear. "I am extremely jealous whenever you hooked up with some men out there from the past and now. How I wanted to kill those men who dared to touch my Cejay for they do not deserve you. You deserve me more."

I swore my face was being like a crumpled paper already hearing these words from him. "So, you are really the one sabotaging my dates in the past..." I said through gritted teeth. "And even now for certain. It was not a coincidence that we met there last night..."

Sebastian shrugged and didn't look bothered at my conclusion. "I am not going to take what is mine in the first place, Cejay." His expression looked earnest as he brushed his knuckles on my cheek. "I am still mustering up my courage to confess to you but damn it... How can you hook up with them as if you are not hurting me?"

The fuck? What? "Hurting you? I did not even fucking know you before. We are not even in a relationship, you dumbass!"

His face darkened. I straightened my back when he was tracing my under breast. His thumbs were almost reaching the side of my breasts making me anticipate more.

"They touched you here..." I gasped when he cupped my breasts, growling like a wild animal. "They even sucked these precious tits of yours. It should have been me. I only tasted them so late..." A moan escaped from my mouth when he massaged them. Shit! What had he done?! "They even kissed your body. I should be the one worshipped you, not them." My breath thickened when his hands were massaging my flanks. "They even taste how sweet you are. It should have been me in the first place." I gasped when he brushed his bulging crotch to the apex of my thighs. "How can you do that to me, Cejay?" Sebastian sounded betrayed, looking at me as if I cheated on him. "You should have waited for me." He took my hand and placed it on his cheek. "Ever since that day I knew I have fallen in love with you, I have never dated any woman." My eyes widened at what he said.

He never dated any woman?! He did?!

"Why?" Was the only word that came out of my mouth.

"Why did I never date, you say?" He looked at me dreamily. That ethereal expression he had always made me feel like I was his queen he could never betray. "I tried. I tried to have an appointment with someone. But I could never find myself dating another woman. If it is not you, then I will never entertain any woman."

If he never dated any woman... "So, did you hook up as well?" I asked, ignoring how my heart was racing rapidly.

I felt like I did not want to hear anything anymore. With his information... I felt like I was having an overloading system and I was near to shutdown.

"No. I will never do that to you." He panicked. That shocked me because he looked like he never wanted to... betray me? Was that the right term?

"So, you are still a virgin?" It was too late for me to take back the words.

That was insane if he ever said yes. Because the heck was he a good kisser back then! He did even know how to please me!

So, if he said yes, I would die right now.

But Sebastian nodded which made my jaw drop. "I reserve myself to you, love. Only you. You are the only woman I ever see in my bed every day. How I wish I could wake up next to you and I would kiss you... But who am I to even dream like that? I could not even find myself confessing to you... I am a coward..."

My heart was being squeezed right now as my stomach somersaulted. I felt like something was scratching on my stomach. Was this what butterflies on my stomach feel?

"I could only watch you from afar." I snapped back when he sounded like he had been suffering enough. "I could only love you from afar. I feel like I do not deserve you. You are a queen and I am only a lowly servant. But it brings me so much happier now that you know what I am feeling, Cejay Merryweather." He kissed my wrist and looked at me lovingly. "And I promise that I shall make you fall in love with me now that you are here. You can never escape from me, the love of my life. I will make sure that you will be Mrs. Sebastian Huntington soon."

His words rendered me speechless. But it was certain that it shuddered me.

What must I do now that hearing his confession was something I did not know to handle?

What should I do?

Sebastian... Why me? Why did you fall to someone like me?