Awkward Lunch

POV: Felix
I was holding on to my self control as if my life depended on it. I had to hold myself back from kissing her in the car. The thought of pushing her away forever was my driving force all night. I had to do everything in my power to keep my hands to myself. I exerted great effort to restrain myself from kissing and making out with her in the car and in her house too.
When we had that conversation about food, I learned that she enjoys spicy food and I mentally noted that Selina Nash likes spicy food and ice cream. This will be at the back of my mind so I can always take her to a restaurant that serves spicy foods and I’ll make t a habit to get her ice cream too. I’ll use these treats to reward her when she listens to me and obey my orders.
So far, I’ve kept my motives a secret from her. Despite my strong emotions, despite how much I wish to stay back and keep her by my side. I did not linger long in her apartment. Like an expert, I skillfully eased her wariness, building friendship and trust. Before leaving, I gave her my business card, urging her to give me a call anytime she needs me.
I held her hand while giving her the business card and I caressed the back of the I am softly before bringing it to my lips and placing a don’t kiss on it while keeping my eyes on her. She smiled excitedly and I saw her face take on a different color as she blushed deeply. That was meant to be a teaser, something to think about while I’m away. I have John a call the moment I drove out of her driveway,
“I’m just leaving Selina’s apartment and I realized that the cameras were installed in the living room and outside the building. Who the hell gave you that order?
why only the living room outside the building, why is there no camera in the bedroom were I need to monitor her most?” I asked him angrily.
“Im sorry sir, I thought you would want to give the lady some privacy and I…”
“Well, you thought wrong, idiot!
She is my woman, mine!
I’m the only person allowed to monitor the cameras in that building, and there is no privacy between Selina and I. Now, find your way into her apartment, John. I need cameras installed in her bedroom. As a matter of fact, I want camera in all the rooms in that house. I need surveillance everywhere in that apartment to ensure I never lost sight of her.” I ordered him.
“What if she finds out she is being watched on camera, what if she sues the company for unauthorized surveillance?
Remember what happened the last time boss, remember how you drove your ex insane with…”
“I did not drive anyone insane!
She had issues before she was brought to me. Besides, I didn’t chase aster her, did I?
I didn’t even want her and I tried to cancel the arranged marriage. But the family fought hard to keep us together. Don’t you think all those family feud and battles are enough to drive her insane?” I asked him sternly.
“I do boss, and I’m sorry I asked about it, I’m sorry I brought it up. I’m just looking out for you. I mean, we don’t want to create a scandal that would suggest that you are a predator preying on women and driving them insane, do we?” he asked in a sarcastic tone. I could tell that he is no longer comfortable with my methods. But he has no idea how I feel for Selina, he has no idea that this is true love.
I’ve had several girls over the years that I try to keep to myself. But they all disappointed me, and I was not this excited to keep them too. It has always been a business deal between the parents to link us together. But none ever worked because true feelings weren’t there, the sparks wasn’t there too. I’d felt the sparks for Selina the first day I met her, I saw the positivity, the excitement and Daring spirit in her.
She is the kind of girl I need, the kind of girl that will love to be by my side forever. I just have to make sure that nothing reveals my detailed planning and the extent of my obsession with her. She must never find out that I manipulated our meeting and that I’m monitoring her every minute of every day. You won’t believe that called me the next day, just like she promised.
“I would love to meet Lina over lunch today. Do you think she wants to meet me so soon?” she asked me shyly. My first thought to this was, hello, are we still talking about a rabbit or about us. But I played along to add some spice to our little game.
“Of course, Lina. She will be delightedet you.” I told her, smiling to myself after she ended the call. This is so perfect, I can’t wait to see her reaction when she finds out that my little Lina is the same Rabbit on the frame in her apartment. To juggle her memory, I’m going to dress my rabbit in an outfit that she would recognize the moment she sets her eyes on her. I used the same cage I’d used in one of her frames and I recreated the scenario in the photo.
But this time, my plans didn’t go as planned, she did not recognize anything about my caged rabbit. She saw her as a pet, my pet. She saw no relationship or similarities between her and my rabbit. That hurt me, I wanted her to learn from Lina and be a good girl. I wanted her to figure it out on her own, I want her to see herself in Lina and envy her for taking her place in my arms.
She ate her lunch in silence, cuddling Lina and feeding her some treats while she continued eating. I got so furious watching her have so much fun that doesn’t include me. Since she refused to get my point, I decided to make the request myself.
“You know, Lina is my only friend and companion. I practically live all alone in this mansion. How I would love to have someone like you to replace Lina and keep me company. I need a companion, Selina, I need you.” I confessed. I regretted my action because the lunch days became awkward after I said those words to her.
I was forced to hide my feelings again pretend to be the gentleman until she left. Now that I’ve told her how I feel, it even more difficult to keep my hands to myself. It took great effort for me to restraint myself. I put both hands in my pocket, trying to control them. I don’t know how long I can keep this up because I’m being forced to sit still and admire her from a safe distance. How can I hold back when all I want to do is kiss her and lift her in my arms and take her to my room.