Pain And Pleasure

PAIN/PLEASURE.

Felix.

It was as easy as anything. All I had to do was to be patient, even though I hated being that but it sure was working.

"How did you find out I am into such a thing?" She asked me innocently and I fought back an evil smirk.

'It was as easy as anything sweetheart.' I thought, leading her to sit down on the balcony while looking around to admire my work.

While sneaking into her house frequently to spend time with her while she was asleep. I m caught upon her dairy one day and read the things she wanted her dream man to do for her. It wasn't exactly my clique but for my woman, I shall do whatever she wanted or became whosoever she demanded just for her.

"You still haven't answered my question." She reminded me as she spread the napkin on her laps, while looking around the shining place. I got us a warm, lively balcony from where she could see the whole city as she ate. It was filled with soft music from one of her favorite painoist and candle light, creating a perfect, warm romantic atmosphere.

"Actually you are easy to read so I just put two and two together. Especially with the way you acted the last time we went out." I half-lied and the look of guilt flashed across her face again, exactly as I wanted.

'Perfect!' I thought.

"I am sorry." She apologized, pressing her beautiful, thin lips together.

"You have nothing to be sorry for, love." I corrected her, placing my hand on hers. As expected, she jerked breathing heavily and I was so happy to see that I had this effect on her.

"I do have alot to be sorry for. I have treated you unfairly, doubted you even when all you tried to do was to be nice to me. Perhaps it's why karma is biting me in my ass, for what I did towards you." She pointed out and my heart wanted to burst out of my chest in excitement.

"Come on. Don't say that, all I want for you is for you to be happy and cared for. She deserve to be spoiled and I will say this over and over again, it's the company's loss. They don't deserve you." I said softly, putting my hand on her hair and giving her a peck on the forehead. She nodded, looking so moved like she wanted to cry. The servants came to serve us and I made sure all her favorite meals were on the menu.

We spent the whole evening, discussing and planning what she could do next. I trend softly but whenever I brought up anything that included her relaying on my help again, she shut it down instantly. After we were done with our meal, I poured her a glass of her favorite wine and while she slipped, I continued to gawk at her. 

"Is something on my face?" She questioned, faking a laugh and trying to cut through the hot tension.

"Nope. Just staring at the most beautiful girl in the world." I told her and she giggled.

"Stop flattering me." She cautioned, trying to use her hand to hit me on the chest but I caught it immediately and drew her chair so close to me. She gulped, the smile wiping off her face especially when I took her drink from her hand and drank it instead, before setting the glass aside.

"I am not." I told her, placing my hand on her cheek, watching her closely while tracing my finger on her flesh. She watched me closely, not stopping me especially when I bent closer and captured her lips in mine. I took it slow, wanting to see if she pull away, hoping not and she didn't.

So then I deepened it, and brought her over to my laps, as she wrapped her hand around my neck, rocking herself against me. I let out a groan, my hands roaming her body as she shivered.

I broke the kiss, then whispered into her ears, licking her earlobe in the process.

"I want you, Seline." I told her and to my awe, she nodded. On our drive home, she tried not to show our nervous she was, but I could continuously feel her hand shaking in mine. I opened my bedroom and took her in, only for her to scream like something bit her.

"What is it?" I became at alert immediately, checking if she was hurt only to notice she wasn't paying attention to me but to the items in my room that I had forgotten to move away.

"Shit!" I cursed under my breath and her eyes widened in shock.

"What is that? You are into BDSM?" She gasped and I became speechless, not knowing whether to give some sort of lie or tell the truth. If Watching all the colors drain out of her face wasn't frightening enough, then seeing her bolt out of my room towards her was.

"Damn!" I muttered, chasing after her but it was too late as she already turned the handle and locked the door.

"Seline, please let me explain." I begged, feeling sweat running down my face, from my forehead. I had already gone this far, there was no way in hell I would allow such a minor mistake ruin things for me.

"Felix, p-p-please go a-way." She stuttered and I could hear the fear in her voice. My heart tightened in pain, knowing she was scared of me now.

"I wouldn't hurt you if that's what you are scared of. I promise." I told her, hoping to reassure her. There was silence for awhile, no movement from her at all. I clenched my hands into fists, about to punch something in anger and frustration.

'How could I have been so careless?' I questioned myself, gritting my teeth against one another when I heard her feet moving, before the lock was released. She opened the door a little, peeping, her eyes running all over me. I noticed her face was still pale and her grip on the door was tight.

"I am sorry." 

"Nope. It's just that, it's my first time, so I have no experience." She explained and I reared backwards in shock.

She didn't run because she was scared of me but was scared of disappointing me?

'God!' I thought, almost feeling guilty for what I have been doing to her. I move closer with a reassuring smile.

"It's okay. We don't need to do what I want tonight but what you want. Let's make your first time special." I told her and she nodded, before releasing the door and following me back to my room.