Think like Netra

Netra:

I came to my room and Akshay too followed me.

"Akshay, I need to talk to you right now," I said seriously.

Akshay glared at me.

"Don't shout, Netra. I told you many times not to raise your voice when children are at home. They will assume that we are fighting," Akshay said.

"Ok. I will talk slowly but I want to talk to you," I said.

Akshay nodded.

"Who is Sadhana?" I asked.

Akshay took a deep breathe.

"I can't reveal anything now. Please give me sometime," Akshay said in a very cool voice.

How could he take my words so lightly? I am tolerating everything for him and he is not even trying to reply me properly.

"No, I can't. You should answer me now. Right now I need the answer. What's the relationship between you both? Did you have any affair with her before our marriage? Tell me, Akshay. What are you hiding from me? I am your wife and I have every damn right to know about you," I shouted at Akshay throwing out all my anger and pain.

"Just shut your mouth. Not a word anymore or you will taste the bitter pill for these stupid questions," Akshay said pulling me very closer to him.

I got scared seeing anger in his eyes.

"Ak..s..hay," I said slowly.

"Do you remember the past Akshay or do you want me to show you one more time? If you don't leave this kind of stupidity and tries to behave as if you want, I know what to do to shut your mouth forever near me," Akshay said.

Tears filled in my eyes hearing his words. What did I do? I am his wife. Doesn't I have a right to know about him?

Akshay left my hand and I sat on the bed crying.

"Look Netra, if you want to stay here, you must agree with my decisions. It's not Netra's Empire to do as you wish or talk. If you can't respect my decisions, you are free to leave me at anytime. Remember that I am not a puppet to act according to your wishes. This is Akshay's place and everything happens as I decide, whether you like it or not."

"I will drop our children in the school and will leave to the office. Bye," Akshay said.

Akshay shut the door with a loud sound that frightened me. I didn't go to the office as my I have no mood to work. For the entire day, I stayed in the room and cried remembering Akshay's words.

Is he the one whom I loved and married ruining my reputation in the society? Is this the life I expected after marrying him?

My phone rang pulling me out of my thoughts. I looked at the mobile and it's Akshay. I didn't pick the call and he called three times. He reached the home late at night around 1 AM.

"Go and set the table for the dinner. I will be coming within 15 minutes," Akshay said and went to get fresh up.

Akshay saw my face and might have noticed my swollen eyes due to crying all the day. However, he didn't even ask anything about it. I went to the dining hall and set everything for him. Otherwise he might again shout at me as he was tired with the work. Akshay came for the dinner and I served him without looking at him.

"Did you have the dinner?" Akshay said.

I stood silent and he held my wrist making me sit beside him.

"Have it," Akshay said feeding me.

"I am not hungry," I said stopping my tears.

"Even then it's better to have food as you didn't have anything from the morning. And moreover a wife always loves to eat when her husband feeds her. Isn't it?" Akshay said, smiling at me.

For the first time, I was irritated with his words and smile. I wish I could punch on his mouth right now. However, he compelled me to have the food and I had it.

I went to the room and slept on the bed silently. Akshay suddenly came top of me and moved his finger from my temple to chin. He started kissing me and through his kisses, I understood that his mood is not good. I am not in a mood for love making but I didn't stop him as I felt he really needs me now. I know if I refuse, Akshay will stop and of course, he never forced me until now.

He kissed my neck and then threw my top away. He started nibbling my bosoms and pinched my nipples. I wanted to scream but clutched the bedsheet as I don't want Akshay to know it's hurting. Something gone wrong and that made Akshay extremely disturbed. I held my tears and tried to respond to him.

"Why are you not responding?" Akshay yelled and looked at me. He saw me for sometime and then laid beside me without going further.

"It's okay. I am fine. You can......." before I complete my words, Akshay pulled me towards him. I was over him and saw into his eyes which showed pain. Akshay doesn't like to cry but today I can feel it by seeing into his eyes. His hold over me was soft, soothing and loving. After a few minutes, Akshay sighed and composed himself. He stroke my hairs and smiled at me.

"Sweetheart, do you know something? I love you a lot and I love only you. Without you and our children, I am nothing. You are important to me."

"Akshay, please stop this," I said.

Akshay chuckled.

"Netra, before our marriage, you saw me with a girl in bed but still you trusted me. But after our marriage, just for bringing Sadhana to our home, you lost your trust in me. What is this, Netra? I thought marriage makes our bonding stronger, but if this is the case, what's the use of this marriage?

I understand that as a wife, you will have possessiveness towards your husband. But it should have a limit. Don't let unnecessary doubts into your heart and get hurt. You are visiting Jeevith and I didn't stop you or doubt you ever. I hated you doing it by hiding from me but I trust in you.

Netra, as Sadhana is staying with us, you started doubting me. Before marriage, we both lived for a few years in the same house but did I ever misbehave with you or do we had any affair at that time? You are my love but still I didn't force you and we were good friends until we got married.

You faced a lot in your life and saw many things. How could you speak ill about another woman's character? Is this what your ethics taught you? This is not what I expect from you. Think like Netra who has maturity and deep understanding of relationships and people but not as a simple wife," Akshay said.

"You are right, Akshay. I forgot what Netra is! She is a symbol of self respect and character. Thank you for remembering me. Until now because of the love I have for you, I had tolerated every bullshit you said and did. From now, instead of a simple wife, you will see Netra," I said and got out of his hold.

"Good night. From tomorrow, you will Netra as you expected," I said and covered with a blanket before Akshay reacts.