Her YES broken his heart

Roopa PoV:

Preetam's anger had hurt me so much. I always dreamt of my profession and career, but never gave any thought towards marriage. In fact, I was scared of marriage. I thought I couldn't adjust to a new family after marriage.

Giving a boost to my fears, Preetam's parents demanded dowry. I saw dad's miserable condition to arrange the dowry. I hated marriage, but I stayed calm for my parents. Later, Preetam visited my home and said dowry is not necessary and he hates such customs. I still remembered the words he said on that day to my parents.

"Uncle, dowry is something which is an invisible crime covered in the name of custom. A girl already makes several sacrifices after marriage. She sacrifices her father's name by adding her husband's name as the last name. She leaves her maternal family, and from the day she steps into the in-laws family, she treats them as her own family. She loves them, cares for them. Daughter in law becomes a pillar to any family. That pillar should be firm to keep that family happier and together forever. If she enters into my family with tears in her eyes for suffering her parents in the name of dowry, she can never become a part of my family instead tries to make me apart from my family.

Because I always believe what we give, returns to us. If I understand you and love my wife's family like mine, surely she will follow me and loves my family. I am a bit selfish. I need a wife who loves and cares for my parents. So I treat her family in the same way. Send your daughter with me with the values you raised her and love, nothing else is required," Preetam said to my father taking away my heart.

That's the first incident which made me fall for him. Later, Preetam asked whether I was ok with this marriage proposal or not. I wondered as even my dad and mom didn't bother to know my consent, though they valued my every opinion till then. I understood how much he appreciates my opinion and feelings. I felt happy to marry such a sweet person.

On my wedding day, I got a call asking me to report immediately. I didn't understand how to reveal the truth or convince him, as I had no time. So, I left without telling him anything. When I returned, he accepted me without any questions or tests. He allowed me with all the trust and love he had on me. But, unfortunately, he doubted my love for him as my behaviour confused him. I thought it's better to leave than to see the hatred in his eyes by revealing my profession to him. However, fate planned something different from my planning. So we met again, and I returned to him.

When I tried to tell the truth, he didn't give time to me. He found the truth by himself and started hating me. I didn't understand how to make him forgive me. Suddenly the door was opened, and I looked at that side only to find Preetam coming inside the room. He arrived early today and didn't drink too.

I thought to take his files from his hands, but stopped remembering his shouting. It hurts so much when he shouts at me. I stood at my place observing his actions. He threw the files on the table and lay in bed. I felt something wrong as he never threw his records like that and never lies on the cot without getting fresh up.

I went to him and placed back of my palm on his forehead. He opened his eyes, and our eyes met answering unanswered questions and questioning unasked doubts. I averted my gaze and removed my hand.

"I... Am... Just... I.. Mean.. Checking... Temperature," I stammered remembering his anger the last day.

"Just a headache," Preetam answered softly.

"Oh," I said.

I thought to keep his head in my lap and apply balm to reduce his pain, but I didn't know how would my angry husband reacts.

"Can you please ask the maid to prepare a strong tea for me?" Preetam said.

"Maid went out to bring vegetables."

"Mom?"

"Mom and dad are not at home. They went for someone's engagement," I answered.

"So everyone left home, and there is no one remained to give a single tea to me, great family," he yelled at me.

"I.. I.. Am.. There.. "

Preetam looked at me.

"I.. Am.. There... To.. Do.. Anything... For.. You," I said slowly closing my eyes as his anger frightened me.

"Till when? Until another mission comes up or you receive a call of emergency. After that, though my heart needs you, you will be nowhere."

His words brought tears to me. I controlled myself. His words were right, but my love for him is also true. I wanted to be with him whenever he needs me, taking care of him every second. But being an IB officer, I couldn't be with him whenever he needs me, because nation too needs me and I promised that I would prioritise my land over myself and my family, before getting into this profession.

"Go and bring me a tea," Preetam said, maybe I should say he ordered me.

He tried his best to dominate me which I hated the most. I didn't know how I would handle him and his behaviour without losing my patience. Preetam got up from the bed and snapped his fingers at me. I clutched my fist controlling me as I didn't want to enrage him.

"Do you have any hearing problem?" He asked, and I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to control myself and opened my eyes.

Preetam looked at me and then started observing my face so keenly as if he is trying to read every hidden emotion and feeling of mine.

"Go and bring me a strong tea by throwing your thoughts aside for some time," Preetam said rudely.

I nodded and brought tea for him. He took the tea from my hands and started sipping it while looking at my face.

"Not bad, apart from fighting and hiding everything from your husband, you knew to prepare tea too," he said sarcastically.

I scolded him in my mind. Why can't Preetam forget that mistake of mine for some time? Why doesn't he understand my fears and mental status at the time of marriage, which prompted me from hiding this from him? At least he didn't allow me to explain anything.

"So why did you send everyone out of the house? Did you plan anything special for us?" Preetam asked.

"No!" I said and turned my face away from him.

"But I think we can utilise this chance in the best way we can," Preetam said breathing deeply under my neck.

I didn't react to his words. I was sure that I couldn't give him any chance for that. For me, making family was something which is far away from my plans and dreams at that time. I loved him, but I couldn't allow him to move further.

"I know you still are not ready. At least tell me one thing Roopa. Will you ever be ready for taking our relationship to the next level? No, I know that. You love me, but you can't share your life with me and cannot make a family with me. You will be with me as long as our family is in danger. Once, if you know that we are out of danger, you will leave our family and me. Isn't it? Tell me, no, and I am ready to accept you as my wife now itself and never compel you until you give yourself to me" he snarled at me.

"Yes," I answered, turning another side to avoid facing him.