Chapter 120

Dylan POV

"What if it was the moon goddess who turned me?!"

"The goddess Luna doesn't exactly go around gifting everyone who asks, Dylan, She hasn't changed anyone in centuries." He stopped suddenly and let his eyes widen. "Hang on... I thought you didn't believe in the moon goddess..." He looked at me skeptically, studying my features for any sign of truth that validated his thought process. "You haven't simply been sleeping for the past six days, have you... you asked me if you looked different... Dylan, did you ask her if..."

"NO!" I cut him off quickly. I didn't, and I never would ask for her help. "She asked me... she said she wants me to be her envoy on earth."

"I'm sorry..." You could tell that the information hit him like a brick, in the way that you aren't really sure what had actually hit you. "What did you just say?" I grunted a very unflattering grunt and threw my hands onto the top of my head out of stress.

"The moon goddess, she wants me to become a Lycan, she said I needed to accept her gift, it was the only way the rebellion would win against king Josh and his army." I know, I had just served him a whole book full of information in the space of a minute, and I know that altogether, it was a very difficult load of information to swallow, but I needed him, his guidance and opinions meant more to me than anyone else's. Actually, that wasn't technically true, I genuinely couldn't help but wonder what the kings grandfather would say about my situation. He was always there to lend an ear and to express his own views on specific subjects.

"The moon goddess, she came to you? She spoke to you?!" Was it that big of a deal? I mean really, had she truly never shown herself to anyone before? "What was she like."

"Wow, just ignore everything I said and go straight to asking stupid questions why don't you?" I really didn't mean to snap at him, after all he had done so much for me, but his questions about the moon goddess only made me think of the first day I had back at school, and everyone would only ask me about palace life and nothing about how I personally was.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry. But, Are you sure it wasn't a dream?" I wasn't, I wasn't at all sure about anything at the moment, and I had no proof of the interaction either. It was a simple case of belief or disbelief, and so I stepped back away from him, already feeling my anger increase slightly. Why would he think I was making this up? It's not like it was what I wanted.

"What are you saying? Do you not believe me?!" He shook his head no and took a step forward to close the gap that I had created. "I'm telling you what happened, I was at the lake one minute, and then the next minute I wasn't, your stupid goddess came and spoke with me, claiming that I'm the only one who can take down the king. She said that she was sorry about everything but clearly not that sorry because she offered me a life that is quite frankly a far cry than the one I want to live."

"You've spoken with the moon goddess?" Oh Shit! I turned quickly at doctor Sakis question and grumbled under my breath how idiotic I had been for talking about everything so freely, I shouldn't have shouted everything out the way I did. I had forgotten where I was for a split second and it was about to come and bite me in the ass. A look of deep concentration crept across his face before looking at me and whispering a short statement, it sounded like gibberish to my ears causing a frown to take over my features. "anima vocatio"

"What the fuck does that mean?" The doctor simply ignored my question and walked straight over to me before shining his pen light straight into my eyes. I just stood there shocked by his abrupt examination.

"Anima vocatio... it is a very rare but sacred occurrence, there has only been a handful of records about in throughout the entirety of Lycan history. It's a phrase that essentially means, your soul left your body. I should have actually made that connection when you were bought here last week., however both myself and doctor Bennet just assumed you had succumbed to your exhaustion." He looked at me as if I was the rarest jewel he had ever seen, pure wonder and fascination clouded his eyes and a slight bow was performed.

I hated this, word was going to get out, and I was going to get absolutely hounded by questions once again, however, instead of being about the king and the palace they would be about the moon goddess, and what she referred to as the 'after world.' So even though I was free from the kings clutches, the title of queen still loomed over me like a dangerous storm cloud, I felt like a bolt of lightening would strike me down at any given moment, and I would be powerless to stop it.

"I wish that theory was right." I mumbled feeling suddenly extremely down cast. Just when I felt the weight of the world lifting, it came crashing back down on my shoulders like a two ton boulder.

"So she wants you to become her envoy? What was your answer?!" Lewis asked while doctor Saki's eyes widened a fraction more. He was in a state of shock at the news that was being discussed a mere foot away from him.

"What do you think my answer was? Of course I said no! After everything she has made me go through, I think she had a fucking nerve to even request my acceptance." I blew up. How could everyone dismiss what had happened to me so easily. I was completely in my rights to be annoyed, and I would be damned if I just rolled over now. I would never ever become a Lycan, not now and not in a million years. “I’ve always said that humans were a lot stronger than your species gave us credit for, now it’s my turn to prove that statement true, to everyone, including your goddess.”

“That’s my girl.” Lewis stated with a smile before widening his eyes and turning a deep shade of red all before fumbling over his words completely causing me to fight back a chuckle. “Not my girl, just a girl, I mean not just a girl but you know, a girl who…” Once I was done watching the poor guys smoothness crash and burn, I smiled and let out a single small giggle, then slid my hand gently into his, enjoying the feeling it gave me.

“No, you were right the first time.” I sheepishly looked down at the floor and I couldn’t help the blush that formed on my own cheeks when Lewis’s hand squeezed mine in acknowledgment. I liked the guy, god help me, I really did like him, and I had every intention of claiming him for my own, as selfish as that sounded. I knew that if I Stayed human then I wasn’t long for this world, and so I fully intended to be with Lewis until my end. At this point, why shouldn’t I at least try and be happy?

“So you are going to defy the moon goddess herself? If you do that, then you will lose Lycan supporters.” Doctor Saki had a point…

The moon goddess was held in extremely high regard and worshiped by both lycan’s, and some humans, if I completely refused her gifts then the wolves would certainly look at me different and I would lose some of their support. However if I even thought about becoming a lycan, then I know I would lose myself.

“If I lose supporters for doing what I think is right for myself and for my species, then they were never truly good for the rebellion anyway. We are here to try and help achieve complete equality, if not becoming a wolf turns others against me, then they never truly wanted that equality in the first place. If I were to turn, then the lycans would never accept human integration.” My only hope was to speak with this alpha that I had been told about, and try to organize something between the different countries and the rebellions that are connected to them.

“I completely agree, as much as I would love to see you as a wolf, and although, what I’m about to say is classed as blasphemy, I just think that becoming one really would kill you. In honesty I can’t believe the goddess Luna even offered that to you.”

He was right. Perhaps she was testing me. After all, the moon goddess was a well known all seeing benevolent, perhaps she was testing me on whether or not I would opt for the easy option or the difficult one.

“Also, I don’t intend to defy her entirely, I just refuse to become a wolf. If she wants me as an envoy then so be it, I can be a human one.” I had already accepted Lewis as my person, and he was a wolf, but becoming one was simply off the table. “Besides, there’s already a wolf who is very capable of holding his own against King Josh, and I strongly believe him to be an extraordinary Lycan.” I turned to Lewis and smiled, taking his other hand into mine and holding both in an embrace that spoke more volume than my words. “You, Lewis, are the only one who has taken the king on, and won. You got away from him and I think if we stay together then we can defeat him together.”

Lewis shook his head and smiled at me, he tucked a piece of hair behind my ear and cupped my cheek in his hand.

“That isn’t what the goddess Luna desires.” I didn’t care. The goddess didn’t know everything, and I really did strongly believe that we could win, I just sort of knew that only Lewis would be left standing at the end.

“The moon goddess told me herself that you are a direct descendant of the first Lycan king, that you surprise her with your abilities at every turn. She told me that you and the king are evenly matched. You are our unintended, and unexpected weapon. You said I could use you, right, for whatever I needed? Well what I need is this, what I need is for you to become my blade.” He nodded his head, and looked at me, nothing but adoration swam in his orbs and I couldn’t help but release a small smile, I would never get enough of his gaze on mine.

“Ok… I’ll become your weapon, but you Dylan, you need to become our leader!”

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