Chapter 132

Lewis POV.

Shit! Was the only thought I had swirling around my head as I hurried into the shower, not wanting Dylan to see the raging hard on I was sporting at her stroking my hair like that. The last thing I wanted to do was scare her into thinking that's all I wanted from her. She'd had enough of that already, and I was perfectly happy with the way things were going, so getting turned on by her was just a frustrating response my body made from her touch. I knew acting on those urges were completely out of the question.

I listened carefully as I clenched my fists together and sighed when the door to the bedroom opened and shut quietly, leaving her now faded but lingering scent to waft into the bathroom. She had left.

I let my fist wrap around my hardened member and quickly began to relieve the built up pressure.

I had come so close to pouncing on her there and then as she lay so casually in my bed, the fact that she was propped up on her arm so comfortably, and the way her hair freely cascaded down onto the pillow drove me wild as it was, but when that amazing lustfilled scent filled the room at my words I almost lost my composure. She herself got turn on, which I had never before seen or noticed from her.

How on earth was I supposed to fight my natural urges? Dylan was an unknowingly seductive girl, who just had to look at me for me to melt. That scent that she had emitted was just too erotic for me to ignore.

The worst part was that she didn't even know the affect she had on people. Im not the only one who thought so, I would often see both guys and girls staring at her, not just out of pity, but because she really was genuinely stunning.

If I'm being completely honest I almost even walked in on her when she was in the bath tub last night, but I had managed to grab a book instead to distract myself from my mate, who happened to be naked only a few feet away from me.

I was going to be in so much trouble tonight if she wanted to stay here again. Maybe I should speak to Gill about getting her a room of her own to stay in, that way I wouldn't have to control myself as much, because honestly it was becoming more and more difficult to do so.

The hand that was wrapped around my dick moved faster as I thought about her, I knew that what I was doing was disgusting, especially to be doing this over thoughts of her, and I knew It was absolutely wrong to be thinking of her like this after everything she had been through with josh, but I couldn't help it. The girl was my soulmate, and she really was a very attractive girl. As mates go, I really did get lucky, and couldn't thank the goddess Luna enough for granting me the honor of having her by my side.

A groan escaped me, as I remembered the erotic kiss we had shared, the way she moved her body so it was flushed up against my own, and how our bodies seemed to just fit together like they were made for each other, the thought alone was enough to have me shooting my climax out, hitting the wall in the process.

My mate was simply put, perfection.

I stood still for a few minutes, allowing the water to simply fall on my body completely, while I panted, trying to regain the breath that had escaped me at my self pleasure.

I couldn't trust myself around Dylan anymore, not after my near slip up this morning. But if I stopped spending time with her completely it would feel like a rejection, and I definitely didn't want that, not when she was finally starting to open up to me, I couldn't loose her now.

I was in deep shit.

I was in the shower for almost forty five minutes altogether, and I wound up actually ejaculating twice. I knew that I genuinely couldn't get any more shameful.

The very fact that I practically kicked Dylan out of the room while I had to barge into the bathroom also didn't help with my guilt, Just so she wouldn't have to know I needed to relieve myself.

Goddess I was an idiot.

I once again let a groan escape me, however this time, it was out of pure frustration rather than desire. Finding your mate should be easy, I honestly just wish the situation with Dylan was simpler.

I was so proud of her for being so strong willed and for fighting for what she believed in, but sometimes I just wish she was ordinary. Most girls her age were traipsing around, studying and enjoying whatever hobbies they like, but Dylan? She was anything but most girls.

She was rebellious at every opportunity, her views and opinions were voiced by her so meticulously, that's it's genuinely really difficult to argue with her. She knows exactly what she's fighting for and that in itself is truly a sight to behold, but all that also meant she was constantly in danger.

I sighed, thinking about my predicament, I quickly dried myself off and got dressed, before walking down to the dining room and seeing non other that the contraband runner sitting at the table. Ryan Clarkes head rested on his folded arms, and his breathing came out in even pants. He was obviously asleep.

I didn’t like the man.

I mean, no, he had done absolutely nothing to me personally, but he was close to my Dylan, and he was a natural flirt. If Dylan hadn’t have met Josh, and myself then I could see them actually becoming a thing, trading and rebelling together.

“You, look tired.” Came my cousins voice from the opposite side of the dining hall. I rolled my eyes, I was tired. Being so turned on by someone yet not being able to show it or even ethically release the growing tension, really was exhausting. That and it took me a while to actually fall asleep, because I was so hyper aware of Dylan’s every breath. “I thought Dylan might’ve been tired too, but she’s just the picture of energy this morning. Does that girl ever stop working?”

“I think she’s afraid to stop.” I admitted before sitting next to Gilliard and sighing, unsure as to were Dylan actually was at that specific moment. Dylan used her work as a distraction for things, I had noticed that a lot over the past few weeks. I think keeping herself busy took her mind off of everything.

“If I walked in her shoes, I think I would be too, in honesty.” Gill shrugged, taking a sip out of his steaming mug of coffee, I personally never cared for the stuff, however, I was rather partial to the smell of it.

“Where is she anyway? Taking inventory? Checking up on the wounded from yesterday? Making a plan of action with the head warrior?” I knew she was bound to be working on something important, she didn’t tend to settle for east tasks.

“I actually think she’s about to head out to the next district to speak to their alpha, she’s taking some pup home there.” What?! My hands smacked loudly on the table in front of me in shock. Which in turn caused Ryan to lift his head up quickly in surprise. The Fear in his eyes at the bang, quickly turned into confusion as he rubbed his tired eyes. Well, boo hoo for him I guess.

Honestly, how could Dylan be so reckless? How could Gill be such an idiot as to let her go alone?!

“Why the fuck are you only telling me about this now?!” I stood up quickly off my stool and began to charge towards the front door, insisting on catching her up, when Gill stopped me with a firm grasp.

“I wouldn’t have mentioned it at all if I knew this would be your reaction. She’s not some helpless little kid, Lewis. I am acquainted with Alpha Dalton, he won’t hurt her in anyway, and he’s already half on the side of rebellion. If anyone can fully convince him and his district to aid us, it’s Queen Dylan.” His reasoning sucked, but it made sense as to why he wasn’t overly worried. Maybe I did need to loosen the reigns a little bit, I had every bit of faith in her to be persuasive, it was everyone else that I didn’t trust.

“You should have sent her off with someone, even if it’s just one of your warriors. She’s not some expendable girl, ok. If anything happens to her I won’t cope this time.” I expressed my concerns to my cousin who instantly began to nod his head in understanding, I had already lost one mate, I couldn’t lose another.

“She’s with a pup who saved her life yesterday, I’m sure she will be just fine…” That did not make her leaving alone, ‘just fine,’at all. “It’s different with Dylan, isn’t it? Your mate bond I mean. I’ve watched you with her, and honestly I think you two are much more suited than that other girl. Your entire face lights up every single time you lay eyes on Queen Dylan. Actually I personally quite miss that initial stage of longing and awe filled glances.” He might say that, but Hilliard and Trina were genuinely the definition of a good pairing. They really were simply made for each other.

He was also right about Dylan being my better match, Iliana was never really that close with me, and we genuinely didn’t have much in common, plus we all knew she liked Josh, so when she met her mate and it was me, I pretty much knew that rejection would be inevitable.

“Yeah, it’s different with Dylan.” Dylan was easy to get a long with, we had similarities between us. “But I just feel like I simultaneously have to worry about her non stop and on the other hand, I don’t have to worry at all. There is just no in between.”

“You’re talking about Riley? She was fine this morning. Has something happened?” Urgh, there he goes again, I swear he likes her, he must do right. Why else would he be so worried. A small growl left me at his question be I reined my jealousy in quickly. It wouldn’t help anything.

“Nothing bad, she’s just gone off to do something alone. Which Lewis isn’t a fan of.” Her friend shrugged his shoulders and chuckled deeply.

“You’ll have to get used to that one. If she gets an idea, then she’ll execute it without much thought. At least she told you.”

“If I didn’t explicitly know she was in fact a human, I would have one hundred percent assumed she was a wolf. The girl has alpha tendencies.” I mean, the goddess Luna had to have picked her for queen for a reason and the more she helped people, the bigger that reason became.

I suppose if I really thought about it, mate or not, we made a good team. I also trusted her so if she says she can do it then I have to believe that she can.

“You are right, I noticed her natural gifts as soon as she denied Josh.” He sipped his coffee slowly, and chuckled raising his eyebrows up in sarcasm.

“I’m sure her natural abilities were very pleasing for you.” My shocked face was too funny for him to not react with a loud chuckle.

“Shut up. You know that’s not what I meant.” He Always turned things lewd. But he wasn’t wrong.

I always loved her, from the moment I saw her.