Lust

“So let go of me, and let's put an end to this.”

His embrace grew more intense. "No, no, no. Jade, please."

Tears came out in a torrent. I bit my lip to try to control my crying.

"Please don't do this. I want us to work; I want to commit to you. I'll be good. I'll do anything you tell me or want.”

"I said let go!" I pushed him with all my might.

And because he is currently weak, I was able to push him. He is really frail. His eyes were red and puffy. He looked at me desperately, and I could see it.

“I'll make you fall for me, and I'll try my best to make this work, baby.”

“Why can't you just let go of me? I will never love you, you understand. You will never be good to me, and so am I to you.”

He did a continuous head shake. "No, Jade, I don't believe you. I might be a fool, but I'm not insane. I felt it. The way you kissed me. The way you held me. That gave me hope. That kept me going. So I will never believe that you never liked me, even just for a little while."

My lips split. I am aware of my visibility. I'm really simple to read. But I'm also working to get him out of this plight. You'll thank me later, Beau.

I chuckled uncontrollably, "What a conceited wolf. You know how I heard so much about you playing with women, right? Who would have thought that a virgin lady like me would get inside your head and change you, huh? "

His anger was visible in his eyes. "You tricked me with your virginity?"

I laughed uncontrollably. As you can see, the great womanizer and player is not madly in love with someone who played with him. Of course, it worked.

He grabbed my arms tightly and said, "Take back what you said." Even though it hurt, I gave him a brazen smile.

I'm so sure he could reach out and touch me right now. But I do want that. I wanted to enrage him to the point where he was forced to let go of me.

I smirked, "Take back what?"

He whispered, "That you didn't use your virginity to fool me." Based on the way he spoke, I could tell he was being restrained.

I laughed. “I was attracted to you, but I used that to get inside your head. You thought I gave up my virginity because I liked you?”

His nose began to run. I'm not sure if I actually saw his iris turn red or if I was just having a hallucination.

He exhaled, so-so furious, "Are you for real, Jade? Who would use their virginity to get inside someone's head, huh? “

I grinned. "Well, me."
"So what if it wasn’t me you met that night, huh? Would you do the same? "
I don’t get the point of him asking me that. But I gave him what he wanted.
"Of course, I am that type of girl, Beau."
My expression already twitched because of how tightly he was holding me. He abruptly released his hold on me and turned his back when I sensed him getting nervous. He appeared to be controlling his rage as he hand-raked his hair. I had watery eyes.

"Fvcking sh*t!" He growled and punched the steel door. It thundered.

All I could do as my eyes began to flood with tears was to close them so he wouldn't see how hurt I was. That’s it, Beau. Hate me.

He made an effort to hide his anger as he paced back and forth. He spoke as he walked back up in front of me.

He insisted, "I don't believe you. I don't."

I was furious. How? How could he consider me to be so deserving? He's still in denial despite everything I did to hurt and trick him. He cannot see. I'm not much use to him.

“I don't like you. I used you for sex,for experience, and just to hurt your ego because you are a damned and selfish man in this city. What more do you want me to say? Didn't I prove it to you already?”

His jaw tightened.

I questioned, "You don't believe me? "

“Then prove it to me," he said ominously before harshly slicing my lips.

I groaned. He is resisting with all of his strength even though I tried to push him. I'm tightly sealing my lips because I don't want to do this right now even though his tongue is trying to get in.

He demanded, "Part your lips," in between his hard kisses.

I punched his chest. "Hmmm!"

When he squeezed my chest, my lips began to separate. I abhor it! I detest the fact that he understands how to use me to carry out his orders. I detest the fact that he is acting this way out of rage rather than love.

My mouth was ravaged by his tongue. It was obvious that this situation occurred without my consent, so I was powerless to protest. I don't have the strength to mask my true emotions while he's doing me.

His hands were on the back of my head, forcing me to kiss him. I started crying. He is seriously hurting me.

We both had panting fits when he stopped. He gave me a ruthless stare. This time, there was no sign of love in his eyes. He appeared to be under the influence of his anger, and it broke my heart so much.

"You want to make your point, right? Then show me. I want to feel it, Jade. Show me what you’re trying to say and I’ll make sure to watch every single thing you do until I’m satisfied, that this is all lust and nothing more. I have my eyes fixed on you. "

He said that just before leaving. His hand gesture caused two men to materialize out of thin air. I believed he would abandon me there. He entered the parked car in front of us. He entered and then got out.

The other car that had been parked behind Beau's car for a while was forced upon me by the two men while they held my arms. I sobbed and was forced to follow them despite my protests.

I already feel so badly hurt because I know what's going to happen. Is he so repulsed by me that he would never dare to accompany me? Even then, he had to let his men drive me in a different vehicle.

Jade, this is what you desire. You wounded him. You must comprehend.

I consoled myself in the car as the tears flowed nonstop. I stood back and observed the imperfect moon. I had given up. I'm now growing to despise the moon.